I needed to have a really good workout today since yesterday I didn't really get a full workout in. So I decided instead of doing the elliptical i'd go run the track at my old junior high. So I ran the straightaways and walked the corners. I ended up doing 17 laps (each lap is 1/4 mile) so thats 4.1 miles in 1 hour.

I'm pretty frustrated right now. I hate being on Effexor, my anxiety medicine. I know it's supposed to be helping me with my anxiety but it also slows my body down. I have less energy, my metabolism slows down, it makes it really hard to pee, and it just makes me feel slower. This damn medicine is a big part of the reason why I gained alot of weight so fast. It's just frustrating knowing that this medicine is slowing me down from reaching this goal that I want so badly. I want so badly to just stop taking the Effexor but i'm not about to put my body through the withdrawl. I go to see my doctor on wednesday and i'm going to tell her I want to get off the meds.

PUHHFF... Just needed to vent on that Anyways, I didn't workout today. I was way to sore from running at the track. I think i'm going to start writing down what I eat.

I hit a bump in the road with my weight loss last week I didn't work out very much at all and I went out drinking a couple of nights. I have to get down to 190. There is nothing more important to me then losing this weight. For me when I lose this weight I can finally let go of everything thats happend these last 3 years.

I went to the doctor yesterday and told her how much I hated my medicine and she decided to slowly take me off of it. Now I just need to make sure I keep working out like I had been before last week.

I'm going to set a goal of losing 3 lbs. a weeks starting on sunday. I just printed out new workout charts and food intake charts and i'm putting them up in my workout room along with all my weekly pictures.

Set a goal that's attainable, i.e. eat your meals and workout x number of days. You can acheive that, 3lb weight loss is doable, but you really don't control how much you lose in a week. That's my advice, do what you want with it. Good luck.

I'm pretty disapointed in myself for losing a week of workouts just because I got frustrated about not losing weight as fast as I wanted to. Everyone I know doesn't believe in me. I have quite the track record of never finishing what I start. This time is different though, I may have had a little 1 week obstacle but i'm not quitting. I still belive in myself that I can do this. 10 weeks from now on August 12th I will have reached my goal. Thats 29 lbs. in 10 weeks, a very doable goal. So that means about 3lbs. a week.

I'm going to keep weighing and taking pictures once a week on mondays. I also started a food journal today that I will post every monday to keep track of how i'm eating.

Yea I know what you mean, but I need a number to aim for to keep me motivated.

I just did 2.78 miles at resistance lvl 10 in 30 minutes on the elliptical. I left my camera in my friends car last week so as soon as I get it back i'll take the pictures.

Just remember this you went from 240-190 so you can go from 220-190.

Keep it up man. Nobody's mad at you for missing a week except yourself. Like a good old man once said, "It's not about how many times you fall, but whether you get back up." That man was Vince Lombardi. If you ever need encouragement, just Google his sayings....Go get 'em bud.

calitoker90: I know, I always remind myself that i've lost more weight then this before.
bgdave4: Yea, I shouldn't be so hard on myself about my weight loss but it's just really hard being patient while losing weight. After going from 240 down to 190 I felt like I was living in a different world. People I had known for years looked at me differently. It was like they respected me more then when I was fat. I was wearing clothes I actually liked, instead of just wearing baggy clothes to hide how big I was. Girls that I had grown up with who had always thought of me "like a brother" were being flirty with me and hanging on me and some I even made out with. I wasn't ashamed to take my shirt off to go swimming. I could go to public places and not wonder if people were making fun of my "man boobs". I lost that world when I gained most of the weight back. I found myself back in the not so great world I had known for most of my life. I went back to being "like a brother" to all those girls. I avoid having to take my shirt off in front of people. Constant anxiety worrying about people making fun of me for having "man boobs". All those clothes I bought don't fit me anymore, they just sit in my closet. I think the worst thing though is realizing how vain and shallow people really are about appearance. That is why I get so mad at myself for getting off track on my weight loss.

There are 2 moments in my life that sum up how I feel when i'm overweight and how I feel when i'm at my ideal weight.

In 6th grade when a girl told me I had "man boobs" in the cafeteria before school started one day and everyone started laughing.

and

Summer after my freshman year in college at my friends pool when a girl said wow sam you have pecks and everyone else there agreed and made comments about how "toned" I looked.

I'll never forget how hurt and depressed I was after that first moment
and how big a smile on my face and how happy I was after the second one.


It feels good to get that out! Anyways I did 2.98 miles at resistance lvl. 10 in 30 minutes on the elliptical today. I got work at 6 in the morning so I better get to bed now.

Yesterday I did 3.94 miles at resistance lvl 10 in 40 minutes on the elliptical. That is a record for me. It's a beautiful day outside today so I think i'm going to go run around my neighborhood this afternoon.

I hear you loud and clear. I'm a big brother to many of the ladies too ;-)

I know about the impatience as well. Take what ever motivation you have and keep on getting it done. I'm at 230lbs and have lost 35lbs in the past year. I want to get to 190, but I have a ways to go, but instead of getting on myself I know I will get there and the person in control is me! You're in control, you understand how shallow people are and it makes you a better person. I'm pulling for you buddy. Unlike you, I don't have the feeling you once had pushing me harder to get to my ideal weight, you've been there and I haven't. i think that's where we differ and drives your impatience. I hope to get there with you! Keep it up and I'll keep on checking on ya!

bgdave4: There really are no words to describe what you feel inside when you look in the mirror and realize that you finally reached your goal.

I did 2.84 miles at resistance lvl. 10 in 30 minutes tonight. My body is a bit fatigued from a long week of work so I really had to push myself the last 10 minutes on the elliptical. I've been doing push-ups every day to get my man boobage under control. Usually i'll only do 25 because my shoulders suck so bad, but tonight I did 50 just to see how my shoulders would handle it. My left shoulder (the one that i've had 2 surgeries on) started making noises like an old rocking chair when I got to 40 but I didn't feel any pain so unless i'm unusually sore in the morning I guess thats just a normal sound shoulders make after 2 surgeries.

Ever since my doctor agreed to take me off my anxiety medicine i've been feeling great. I feel so much more energetic and I feel much more awake. On the medicine I always felt kinda foggy in my mind. Anyways I decided to weigh myself today just to see how close I was to meeting my weight loss goal of 3 lbs. for the week. I weigh 215lbs. thats 4lbs. lost since monday and I still have 2 more days before it's been a week. I knew my medicine was a reason I was having trouble with my weight. I'm even more motivated now to get to 190 because my body is finally waking up.

Edit: Just finished my workout for the day. My body was extremely fatigued today so i'm definitely going to take tomorrow off. I did 2.64 miles at resistance lvl. 10 in 30 minutes and then I did 50 pushups.