Awesome! Another 2 pounds!!! Congrats .

I'm glad you're able to walk each day. Sometimes it's hard to stick to. Definitely a new place keeps things mixed up enough to not get too repetitive!

I lost it yesterday. I started my day okay but then I fell off track. So DS and I got up early at about 6:30 yesterday. I made breakfast and thought that I should take him for a walk. I went on google maps and located a park that was still a decent walk for me but not too far away for my son to walk. The walk went nice and DS was in a good mood. We stopped at a corner store for some water and the owner thought he was adorable so gave him some free candy.

Anyway, everything changed when we went to the park. He was misbehaving so we went home. It wouldn't be so bad but let me tell you, he has been really trying lately. He never had the "terrible two's" but now as he approaches three he just isn't listening. We do the time outs and we have taken toys away but he doesn't seem to absorb it or care to listen to us. This past week has been exeptionally bad when it comes to his behaviour including yesterday. He had several time outs yesterday. Stressed out and alone I went into my freezer for my low fat icecream. I think I had two cups (4 servings). Other than breakfast and a reasonable dinner I filled my body with crap. Ice cream, cookies, chocolate, and freezees. I think I might have had maybe 4 cups of water all day and that is being generous with myself.


I just feel so dumb because I knew what I was doing and why, when I was doing it but I shrugged it off and kept reaching for the sweets. I am trying to move forward today and not let it get me down but I wish I could figure out how to get my son to listen, I am stressed out and I feel bad because I love to compliment him and encourage his good behaviour but instead I am feeling like a prison warden instead of a mom.

Its what Mom's have to do. He will thank you in the long run for teaching him. If he just got what he wanted all the time & could run wild, he'd have a pretty rude awakening as an adult. Hang in there. You are being a good mom & if it were easy anyone could do it... which they can't.

As for the food.. eh.. well what's one day. Today, tomorrow, the next day... they are all opportunities ready & waiting for you to seize the moment & do the right thing. I believe its about all the lil things adding up. Pat yourself on the back for WALKING TO THE PARK!!! You could have drive... you could have not gone at all.. but you CHOSE to do something good for yourself & your son. I think that is pretty impressive.

Cool, I've been there! I know that doesn't help you now, but I've had to lock myself in my room and turn my radio on so I wouldn't punch a hole in the wall. I'm really a passive person, but my daughter being three was the hardest year of my entire life. Even harder than being married to an abusive husband (now divorced and remarried to a wonderful guy).

At one point, right before she turned four, the only thing left in her room was her bed. I took EVERY toy away and put it in the basement. I brought up one toy a week for a while and eventually gave most of them back. Best part, is I got to throw away everything I didn't like because she couldn't remember what she did and didn't have.

Time outs worked great for me before she was three and after she was three. During three, nothing worked. I dont have any great advice or strategies to follow because I couldn't find anything to work for me either. Hopefully you will have better luck with your son. Otherwise, make sure he's safe and go take a long hot bath with a good book...

And I agree with MoodGoddess, I think that even if you didn't follow your diet yesterday, you still did succeed, you walked when you could have drove! Be proud of yourself for what you did acomplish and the rest will follow.

Thank you both for being so supportive. I did much better today and yesterday health wise. Thanks for also pointing out the brightside. I sometimes forget to look at that perspective.

I am trying to keep Kevin (DS) busy so he has less time to act up so I am getting a good mental and physical workout in addition to my walks lol! I have also discovered that DS really is left-handed as we have been doing plenty of printing and coloring lol. We had always suspected it but never knew for sure. I don't know anyone in me or DH's family that is left handed. I am still trying to figure out what to call this stage (I hope that is what it is!) for my son. There is the "terrible two's" and "fearsome fours" but most people say three's are the good times! I'm glad to hear that I am not the only one that is going through or experienced this kind of thing with a three year old! It makes me feel optimistic that he will get through this! I have given a few toys back but I do have an opportunity right now to sort them and donate the things he's outgrown or has too many of. I swear my three year old has more things than I do!

I am going for a job interview tomorrow. Nothing much, just a cashiering job for the summer. I do hope that I get it though because right now most of my income comes from DH and I would like to keep DS in preschool at least part time in the summer so I don't lose my spot for the fall. Also I have been finding that I am sitting a lot now that I am done school. I go for my walk, clean my house and get dinner prepped. Once that's all done I don't have much else to do so I go online or watch tv. If I am cashiering I will be a little more active from being on my feet all day and stocking shelves etc.

Wish me luck!

Good luck!

Glad you are having a better day. Sounds like you have things under control.

Good Luck with the interview! Let us know how it goes .

I just finished school myself and completely understand the lure of the internet... Darn evil thing!

Yay! I got the job! I will have some more spending money and DS won't lose his spot at daycare for when I start college. I went today right after my dentist appointment. Man, I have got to schedule things better! My mouth was lop-sided from the freezing and I was slurring a little but I still managed to get the job. Maybe she felt sorry for me lol! No, but the interview was really slack I think she was planning to hire me before the interview started. She said that I can cashier or do stock and will train me for both to see where I fit best. I hope to work stock. Though I love being around and talking to people the stock position has awesome hours for me 7:00 a.m. till 3:00 p.m. which is perfect for my childcare needs and I am an early riser so an early start is no problem. Also I think stock is more physically demanding (lifting/carrying, bending, crouching, kneeling) and it would be helpful calorie wise for me to have a job where I am more active.

I took my son out of preschool early for the afternoon and after I get this house cleaned I am going to take him for a walk and to the park (behaviour permitting). It is a beautiful day so why spend it indoors? I'll be back to work next week so I better enjoy this free time and sunshine while I have it.

Thanks you both for wishing me luck!

Notme: I think I am starting a new rule for myself. I am shutting this computer off during the day now and only going to use it when DS is napping or in bed for the night. I can literally spend the day here at my desk....I've done it more than I'd like to admit!

Congrats on getting that job! The stocking will certainly help you move more & maybe some lifting.. just not too much that you over do it.

Hey there Congratulations on all your accomplishments so far, specially the Job and of course the weight loss! its always good to have something to do specially if you get paid

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I think I am starting a new rule for myself. I am shutting this computer off during the day now and only going to use it when DS is napping or in bed for the night. I can literally spend the day here at my desk....I've done it more than I'd like to admit!

I completely agree with you and notme! Internet is evil LOL but this is so addictive and is so hard to get off line! so congratulations on your new rule! Im always online when I have nothing to do but oh well that doesnt happen very often...
anyways keep up the hard work and the positive attitude

Yay!!!! I'm so excited for you! I hope you enjoy the new job. My mom is a stocker and she said she's gotten so much stronger from doing that. Used to work a machine but got laid off after 16 years at that place... Then went to Walmart. Walmart is evil, but my mom is in such better shape.

I stopped participating on a number of forums over the past year because of how much time they took from my life. I used to be on adoption.com, safehaven.com, soulofadoption.com, antiadoptioninsights.com... oh the list could go on (all adoption groups). It wasn't just time, but it was emotionally draining at many of those sites, too. I've tried limiting my time, but I dont feel so bad if I'm on "all day" if I just stop in for five min here or there.

I hope your son is behaving so that you can go to the park! It's a bit of a gloomy day here, so hopefully it's a beautiful day where you're at .

BTW, my daughter regained her behavior when she turned four. Lost it again at six when she started yelling at me. That stopped quick though, at 6 taking toys away is a ton more effective .

Michelle

Hi!

Thanks everyone for the congratulations on the new job!

Man I have done plenty of walking today! I don't know how much but I was out shopping in addition to my walk. I think I might have a problem! "My name is Tori, I am a shopaholic!" I am not much into clothes shopping for myself...(yet)! I can't wait to lose these pounds so I can reward myself with some cute "thin" clothes! I love to shop for my hubby and son and stuff to decorate my house.

I finally got my pedometer!!! And guess what MoonGoddess? It's a sportline 360! I didn't even realize the brand until I got home and I thought it sounded familiar. It was an awesome price, on sale for only $4.97! I am using it now but am not really counting my steps today. I can't wait to use it tomorrow and see how many steps I take in a day!

I ate a hefty breakfast this morning. I went to one of my favourite "mom and pops"/"greasy spoon" places for breakfast as a treat. I thought that I ordered pretty conservatively but when I logged my calories on calorie-count it said I had a 900 calorie breakfast !!! I am not too worried though. I had a light lunch, plenty of activity with more to come, and I'll have a balanced dinner.

This is not related but as for Sunday's binge post I am not buying anymore ice cream! Before I saw the light, evil, low fat ice cream and that beloved word "sale" I wasn't keeping ice cream in the house. I think I will revert to that and just have to go out for my ice cream! It costs more that way but my waistline will thank me for it!

Congrats on passing on the SALE ice cream! Not good to set your self up for failing. I find I do much better if I don't bring stuff in the house. If you actually HAVE to HAVE ice cream, make yourself at least go to the store, walk through the store, & all that to get it. If you have to make the effort, then may you won't want it as badly.

I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU GOT ONE THAT CHEAP! My hats off to you super shopper! I thought I got a deal on mine, but I know I paid more. I love it. I think the best thing to do is just wear it, get into the habit & actually see what you are used to doing daily. Then strive to increase it.

Oh & about the surprise 900 calorie breakfast.. I so get that! One reason why I have to track everything.. so I don't have those lil splurges that I don't realize I am splurging THAT much on. Just do what you can do.... & it sounds like you are doing well.

I feel awesome! I tried on an old pair of jeans and guess what? They fit. Okay so maybe not as good as they used to but they soon will. It felt good to be able to slide them over my err...derier, and actually be able to do them up. To top it off I dropped another two pounds! I am now 191! I am so close to 180 I can taste it! I am going to have to set another weight loss goal soon.

I know! It was marked down like four times and I saw the same one priced online from anywhere from $19.99 to $35.00! Good savings! I would have paid more because I really wanted one but when I saw it for that price I knew it was meant to be lol! I like it so far. I find it hard to leave it alone though. I keep checking my steps/mileage/calories.

Anyway, because I was feeling so awesome today I decided to post some then and now pictures of me on here. Here is the link...

http://weight-loss.fitness.com/befor...yet-after.html

I can really notice a difference in my face.

I think just not keeping the ice cream/snacks in the house is a huge step forward. It's something my husband and I disagree on continually. He buys it to "treat" me. And I get mad and he think's he's doing something good. ARG! MEN! But if you do the shopping, then you have a ton more control over that.

Buy something for yourself, too when you go out shopping! Not just the boys! Even something small like a new cute pair of earings can be helpful motivation to keep going.

Your pictures are looking good. Keep taking them! Seeing ourselves daily in the mirror, we miss some of the changes because we see them so often. Pictures really let us see our progress.