ooh definitely get pics of the new haircut up, i wanna see you're wonderful. your support is wonderful. thank you thank you thank you.



sooo today is independence day here in the states, of course i did my fair share of celebrating... a good friend had a small get together. and i will admit to indulging a bit much. cookies, cake, burger, and a bit of, er, firewater. and i've got a nice 10:30 AM appointment with the trainer in the morning. oh great...

so you'll sweat it all out lol hehe
i didn't come in here before so let me also welcome you here

you're doing really great. i read your diray and you seem really focused, which is the most important thing in my oppinion.
what's new with that guy? and his ex?
have a great day
Lena

thanks for the welcome lena as for the boy and his evil, evil ex... i have no idea what they're up to. bah. i prefer not to think about it. in my perfect imaginary world, we are married and she is an old ugly cat lady. is that a bit harsh? hahaha


okay. I DESERVE APPLAUSE. i am recovering from last night's alcohol binge. i'm on my period (sorry boys). i got 6 hours of sleep when i usually get 10. and i STILL went to the gym for an hour and a half. did upper body for half an hour, and my arms are like jello. seriously? i did terribly. by the end, my trainer was practically doing the work for me. ugh, i'm never drinking again cardio for an hour on the bike, incorporating interval training.

i am so proud of myself. yay for miss muffet

ugh, i hate the scale. i figure i won't be weighing myself while on my period anymore, because it's ridiculously depressing. bah.

i'm very sore. my shoulders are immobile. the trainer tried to help by stretching me out on this torture-looking machine i think a couple of ibuprofins will do the trick just fine.

tomorrow i'm going to a birthday party and will have to exercise restraint around the cake and cookies. i already way overdid it on the fourth, and i don't want another episode like that for at least a month. man oh man... bad. haha.

my new favorite food is applesauce. which has much sugar in it, but just two spoonfuls curbs my sweet tooth, so i'm not too worried about it. i'm going to go grocery shopping tomorrow and buy a bunch of fun things, because i'm all out of healthy food right now. looks like i'll be surviving on broccoli and nonfat yogurt until tomorrow i kid, i kid. i should have to wear a warning label, i'm so funny

i ate quite badly today. twas that birthday party... cake, chips, pizza, chicken wings... yuck. didn't eat too much of anything, only dabbled here and there, but still. yuck. oh well, i'm off to the gym tomorrow to take care of it...

went grocery shopping today and bought all kinds of fun stuff it's amazing how many great things are out there if only you look for them.

workouts have been going well, today i did some moderate interval training on the stationary bike for a whole hour... NOT include warmup or cool down yay, very happy about that. weight training has been going fine as well, although my butt is crazy sore from my workout yesterday. since i'm leaving for california on thursday, the trainer says that tomorrow's workout will be "hell" so that it can last me two weeks until i get back... oh lord.

i feel good about this. REALLY good

oh! and i'm going to see the new harry potter movie tonight at midnight with my closest friends! what could be more exciting than that???

leaving for california today. i'll be there for two weeks. hopefully i'll be able to keep up this healthy lifestyle while i'm there... wish me luck

when it is late at night and i am alone, john williams' greatest hits soundtrack creeps me out. is that strange? is it strange that i even listen to that soundtrack? perhaps i ought to pose that as a hypothetical question

anyway, i'm home from cali. had a blast and didn't gain any weight. didn't lose any, but i am crazy happy that i didn't gain any. yay glad to be back.

Congratulations on vacationing without a gain!!! That's awesome!

thanks so much for the support!! makes me feel really proud and motivated

ETA: i have that quote in your sig up on my door. i totally believe it.

things have been going well i've decided to break up my cardio into a 40 min session and a 20 min session, before and after my personal training session. that way i can work in my internship with my exercise.

i'm wearing pants from before college and they fit perfectly! it's weird, because the scale isn't saying that i've lost more than 5 pounds... but i feel like i'm so much smaller than i was before. oh well, i'll take it!

Yay for fitting into old clothes!! You are absolutely gorgeous- I was just reading through your past entries. That's got to be really rough without support from your parents. Just know that we all think you are beautiful!

Something else that struck me was that at the moment the only way I can keep up with my "THE boy" is facebook because he graduated last year from my college. haha...it sucks doesnt it? And you will have that moment of victory, just keep up with your plan. I've been cycling my calories and it's really been helping. Have you ever tried that with your eating plan?

Can't wait to hear more- feel free to drop by my diary too

thanks callie my parents DO support me, don't get me wrong! they're really really supportive... they just don't always know how to say the right thing. which can get me a bit miffed from time to time. but they do want to see me succeed. as for the boy... i haven't talked to him in almost three months now. bah. and what's this about cycling calories? i'll take a peek at your journal to see if i can find out...

i want to write about the boy. i miss him so much. crazy to think that we used to talk every day, a day without talking to him was like a day without breathing... it just didn't happen. and now, well, i guess things have changed. i know that he's just waiting for the right timing, but when is that going to be? i have a feeling he's a believer in fate, but i believe that we have to make our own fate. we can't just sit around and expect everything to happen for us (kinda the same with losing weight, i guess). i know we are going to end up together. don't ask me how, cause i don't know. we just are. he knows it too. it's just a matter of WHEN.

bah. three months is too long to go without hearing from him. that's 1/4 of a year. i wonder if i should give him a call...

Thanks for coming by

Well, the cycling calories thing is a way to keep your metabolism high even while dropping fat. The program I'm doing cycles like this:

1900 cals. 2100cals 2300 cals 2500 cals. 1900 cals 2100 cals 2500 cals.

That would be a week's worth. But of course, the only reason I'm eating that much is because I'm using the Personal Food analyst which is a tracking software that leads you into a conditioing phase to raise your metabolism, then a fat burning phase. I know that sounds like a lot of food but now that I've done conditioing, my metabolism is really high. There are actually women who blog there at the site who are eating more than I am. It's really fun actually.

But the point is, the low day shocks your body once its been used to eating more, then you add more cals the next day so your metabolism doesnt permanently drop. It's like a fire, the more fuel you add the hotter it burns. What's really crazy is that I've discovered that if you are eating clean fuel, your body ends up using it instead of gaining. I at almost 2700 cals daily in conditioning of rice, sweet potatoes, chicken fish eggs veggies etc some fruits. but I didn't get any bigger. I think I gained a lot of muscle though.

Anyway, I'm blabbing...I have so much enthusiasm for this way of life...hope that gives you some ideas, definitely check out the website too.


When you talk about that guy I feel like you are basically writing my thoughts out...it's so weird because I am in the exact same situation...I told my mom when I met him...I've met someone I could actually marry (which has never happened to me before). I believe in destiny, but I also believe that destiny has a lot to do with us making choices...if no one ever acts, nothing happens. Would it be weird if you called your guy? Do you think he would find is strange, or would ya'll be able to talk like friends?

If it wouldn't be uber awkward, I think you should try to get a hold of him

Have a great day!