i'm really frustrated. i've been eating really well, exercising religiously, and drinking liters upon liters of water. the scale won't go down at all. i feel better... my muscles feel firmer and i look a bit more toned. but the weight just isn't dropping. all the little things are great: i have more energy, i'm happier, i can lift more than i could when i started, i'm able to do an hour on the elliptical now... but it's hard for me to appreciate the little things when they don't add up to weight loss. what am i going to do about this??

anyway, i didn't call HIM. i'm too chicken. maybe it's fine that we've lost contact. when i (finally manage to) lose weight, i'll call him up and surprise him.

and THANKS callie!! that info was really helpful. maybe i should look into it and try it out for myself...

Not seeing the scale move is very frustrating. Have you taken measurements to track your progress that way? It might motivate you to see those numbers going down, even when the scale won't budge.

Keep at it!

thanks for the encouragement i really need it now as i'm not feeling very motivated... my trainer took measurements a couple of months ago when i started working out. in a couple of weeks he'll take measurements again since i'll be leaving to go back to school. i think that's a great idea, i'll start taking measurements myself to maybe see a bit of progress.

so i thought for a while about why the weight isn't coming off. i think i did a lot of damage to my body my first year at college. i would go a week surviving on apples and coffee, too busy to eat or get enough sleep. then, when i had time, i'd stuff myself with greasy chinese food and horrible pastries. now, i'm eating a steady 1500-1600 kcals a day, spacing it out in 5 meals and eating protein and complex carbs with each one. perhaps this has something to do with me not losing. bah. why did i have to be so stupid last year? i'm certainly paying for it now.

in other news, my calves are so sore i can barely walk. i can't straighten my legs all the way. it's a suckfest right now, i want to go to the gym and do some cardio, but there's no way my legs will let me. oh well. i suppose we all have our good and bad days.

so this no exericising thing due to my sore calves is a load of crap. i'm going to do floor exercises at home, ones that won't put any more strain on my calves. c'mon miss muffet, stop being a lazy slob! you CAN get this weight off!!!! everybody else is doing it, and you're just as good as everybody else.

i guess all i needed was a little pep talk courtesy of myself

haha yes, pep talk to yourself works wonders. You are in charge and in control.

i bought a new fancy shmancy scale today, cause i felt like i needed some motivation. my old spring scale SUCKS. i'll step on it once, it'll show me one number. i'll step on it again, moments later, and i'll have magically gained 7 pounds. enough of that depressing scale! this one measures body fat and water percentages, and seems much more accurate. so i am happy. it also shows weight in .2 pound increments, so i can better track my gains and losses. yay

my calves are still really, really sore. i can't climb the stairs unless i'm on all fours ("animal style", as i called it when i was a wee lass). hopefully it'll be better tomorrow, cause i have to hit the gym in the morning. we shall see...

I am sorry your calves hurt so bad!

If pep talking to your body doesn't work, you can use the new methods of threat and coercion that Jenna and I are trying!

haha, i'm scared to threaten my body... it tends to hold a grudge for a very, very long time

so according to my brand new scale, i am down NINE percentage points of body fat from 39.1% to 30.4%. YAAAYYYYYYYYY!!!! 4% more and i'll be in the healthy range for my age/gender

That's awesome!

i've decided i'm going to only weigh myself once a month. i get terribly discouraged when i don't see the scale moving, so why let it get to me? i FEEL so much better. out with that stupid scale. i'm not going to take any measurements or measure body fat or ANYTHING. i'm just going to do what i have to do, and feel good while doing it. it's not about numbers, it's about my life.

i'm going to up my cardio and see how i feel. i'm going to start going to the gym after work and doing an extra hour of cardio. i'm tired of having big arms and a spare tire.

so what brought all of this on? the trainer weighed me and took my measurements today. zero progress, say the scales at the gym. i cried for an hour after getting home.

I'm sorry about the scales at the gym discouraging you!

Here's to a great month for you!!

SO. after intense deliberation, i've decided i'm upping my calories to a somewhat strict 1800 per day. i think i'm not losing because i'm eating too little (which i found surprising! it's amazing how much of the good stuff you can eat and still be within limit!). it's hard for me to eat a lot. it always has been. i'm just not a hungry person. eating too much was never a problem for me... so upping calories will be difficult, as weird as that sounds.

oh, and the whole "no more scales" thing? hah... yeah right. weighed myself this morning! i cannot resist temptation.

off to the gym! i'm feeling a lot better today. what's past is past, and what matters is how i act today in order to make tomorrow a little brighter

Great attitude!! You can do this!

oof, i'm so tired. work exhausts me, and i'm only there for a few hours. perhaps i'll go to bed early tonight...

i've started jumping rope during commercials. makes me feel a little better about being a lazy bum and watching tv and i've been doing very well at getting more calories.

for the past couple of days, the scale has been holding steady to give me an overall weight loss of four pounds. i dunno what's up with the scale at the gym, but i'm gonna go with the scale i use at home and just say that i've lost four pounds so far so yay for that!

tonight i'm gonna watch miss congeniality. i've yet to see that one, and i am quite in the mood for some feel-good sandra bullock. woah! i just realized that her last name is bullock. as in "castrated bull." weeeeeeird.