Hi,

Payback can be hell. The buffet from Sunday, I am still a pound over my pre-buffet weight. It is possibly water weight but still is difficult to see. I feel discouraged.

Perhaps I should not weigh myself daily. Perhaps I should do that weekly. The only thing that worries me is that if I weigh myself weekly it might be discouraging if I don't lose too.

Yes, it can be discouraging if you weigh yourself weekly and you don't lose. Still, I think weekly gives you a better idea of your real weight. Also, I just had about three weeks where I didn't lose... then I mixed up my exercise a bit, and I'm down 2 more pounds! Paying attention to your daily weight can be stressful, because your weight can fluctuate by a pound or so just within one day.

Darn buffets.

Hi,

I call my modified eating "food plan" rather than diet. My thinking behind that is that my food plan will continue after my weight loss program has finished. I will maintain a healthy diet where my carb calories come from plants such as corn, peas, beans, etc. My plan is to also maintain a high level of fruit and veggie intake to meet the RDA.

My co-worker, whom I've known for years thinks I have body dysmorphic disorder. She could be right. I don't obsess about little things, just my general body shape and fat. Now she's never seen me nude, nor would she want to. :-) The only thing is that there is "evidence" that I am heavy . About 2 months ago, a person whom I hadn't seen for 6 months, asked when I was "due." I told him I was not with child and that I carry my body weight on my belly. That's pretty good evidence right there about my shape, not that I have to justify my frame of mind.

At any rate, my weight is one of my life challenges.

M

There is no "easy" way, never was, never will be. We just have to get off of our lazy butts and do something about it. That's why we all ended up here!
I've read yor post about ipecac and am glad that I did. I have been thinking alot about self inducing, but after your description of what you go through (and the reminder of me puking last saturday at a bachelorette party) I definately will not ever try it....
Back to losing weight. Going out to eat makes it extremely hard to lose weight, unless you can really get a hold of yourself and order sensible things. Like a yummy taco salad or something along the lines of that. And when you do get it, place the half order, or only eat half and bring the rest home for lunch the next day. The portions they give you at any resturant are twice what you should consume anyway!!!
With all this said, I hope you get back on track and find your way to a happier healthier you!

Hi,

I fell off the wagon. Last night ate two hagen daz bars. They tasted good. Tonight went out for food and had eggplant parmagiana. They tasted good for a couple minutes. Now my belly is round and I feel sad.

This weight/food issue is a problem for me. It seems to easy in theory. Sometimes I wonder why "others" have weight/food issues, then I remember that I do. This is my life long problem. This one invades every area of my life. Self esteem, energy, body image, sexuality, self concept.

I am genuinely glad that someone was able to take something away from my ipecac experience. I have kept that quiet and only shared it with my hubby until now. Now that I look back on it, I feel ok telling others. The shame of admitting to peeing my pants is not an easy thing to do. Ipecac is absolutely not the way to go.

Thank you to all for your kind comments and your insight. This is a lovely place to visit.

Marilyn

I fall off the wagon so much I need an airbag! It tics me off too... I guess it really truly is about changing mindsets...I just wish someone would do it for me LOL!
Hang in there..truly we all know what your feeling..I know I do..I can get so down on myself that sometimes it seems impossible to breath...but then you try again the next day & maybe, maybe its a better day...

I have been told it isn't good to weigh yourself everyday - but I don't know. Fell off the wagon - get back on. No excuses, just do.

Hi,

I am seriously off the wagon and have been for about 1+ weeks. I am eating macaroni, potatoes, hagen daz, and other things too.

Managing food should be easy but it is so difficult for me. I don't understand how dense I can be. Food is food. It is more important for me to be thin and feel good about myself, than to eat. My actions are speakign louder than my words.

We always know what we have to do, or should do... it's the doing part that does not camoe so easy.
you're right, sometimes I would look at some one and say, why dont they just eat a salad instead... and then theres me scarfin a 1/4 pounder or something!
You just have to grab hold of the situation.
Ge rid of all the junk in the house.
I've said this a couple times b4 in others diaries.... a long time ago,I had problems with throwing food away, But Jennifer told me "think of it this way, would you rather throw it away or throw it into your hips!" OMG What an eye opener, garbge can, open up and say ahhhh caue I'm not going to!
Hopefully you can jump back on the wagon... need a hand? Well, you've got quite a few here reacin out for you.... jump on !

Marilyn - I feel your pain. I too suffer from food issues - and it seems like once I "ruin" it - like once I eat something bad or too much one day, then it is so easy to just throw it all out. But I have realized that this is a one day at a time kind of struggle - we just need to keep going. Have you thought about writing down everyting you eat so that you are aware of it? Or making a week of meal plans?

Hi,

I have not been to this site for many months. I am eating the way I always have. Eating when I'm not hungry, eating when upset, eating when working, eating while on line.....

I have not been on a scale in a long time.

December 4th 2005

I have been off my food program for many months and put on my weight again. I have almost resigned myself to the fact that I will be overweight.

I was doing well on my food plan, but the prep time and shopping and planning was difficult since my hubby was not like-minded about eating.

I should probably just buy more pants (larger sizes) and forget about trying to be thin. It's a losing proposition. I have had weight issues since age 16. I will always have weight and food issues.

Hey marilyn DO NOT SAY THAT! You can do this first of all dont count on hubby! Count on us we are here! Come back here and let us help PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Start fresh and start over here!

Hi,

I have been off the food plan for months and months. Sometimes I think about making a good food decision, but then in the end I talk my way out of it. I need to just "behave" my way to success and make little actions in the best direction instead of the direction of least resistance.

My hubby and I are starting a program January 1, after the holidays.

M

Hi ladies,

Yesterday, at work, I weighed myself. It was 170 pounds with clothes and shoes. How did I get that heavy?

In the past week, two people I just met, have asked me if I'm pregnant. It's a bit humorous in a way because people are so horrified at their question.

How did I put all of this weight on? How do I get it off.

I'm a bit depressed (not seriously) over some family health problems and have been sleeping too much, I'm sleeping my life away.

I need to get off my fat a** and hop on the treadmill. I could never understand how people got very very overweight, not it's not hard to understand.

I need to just "behave" myself into weight loss and just do the right thing at the time I make the decision.

Maybe I should try overeaters anonymous..

M