Cameron had his 4 month appt today and is 15 lbs 7 oz and 25 1/2 inches long. He was 11 lbs 15.5 oz 23 inches at his 2 month appt. My little man is getting big.. he was only 6 lbs 3 oz 20 inches at birth so in 4 months he's grown 5 1/2 inches and gained 9 lbs 4 oz. wow that seems like so much for a baby to gain.

This song kinda somes up a lot of how i felt while my husband was in the Army and some of the things we went through. I was just thinking about this after i heard the song and was thinking about how lucky i am that my husband made it home to me after going into the war in Afghanistan and how many of the soliders don't get to come home.

Just a dream

It was two weeks after the day she turned eighteen
All dressed in white
Going to the church that night
She had his box of letters in the passenger seat
Sixpence in a shoe, something barrowed, something blue
And when the church doors opened up wide
She put her veil down

Trying to hide the tears
Oh she just couldn't believe it
She heard trumpets from the military band
And the flowers that I never had

Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

The preacher man said let us bow our heads and pray
Lord please lift his soul, and heal this hurt
Then the congregation all stood up and sang the saddest song that she ever heard
Then they handed her a folded up flag
And she held on to all she had left of him
Oh, and what could have been
And then the guards rang one last shot
And it felt like a bullet in her heart

Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

Oh,
Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
Oh, now I'll never know
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

Oh, this is just a dream
Just a dream
Yeah, Yeah

Carrie Underwood Just A Dream Music Video on Yahoo! Music

HI Heather,

I am so glad Alex's surgery went well. Poor little guy so young and gone through so much already. I hope soon this is going to seem like a bad dream and will be behind you.
Kudos to you on trying to fit exercise and healthy eating in when there is so much going on in your life. Sounds like your little guy is growing fast!!

Anyway just a quick hello, I read your posts all the time and followed everything just hard to find the time to write. I don't even sign onto the IM anymore, just don't have the time and opportunity. Miss talking to you.

Hajni

Congrats on the succesful surgery =D!

KEEP PUSHING and dont give up

Stop by my diary!

Ok well here's the latest update. WE are home finally after 4 months of being in a hospital of some sort. I am currently at 237.8 lbs and planning on continuing weight loss although not sure how easy its going to be besides all the weight lifting i'm getting in since alex my 4 1/2 year old(63 lbs) can't walk and i have to carry him from the bedroom to the living room well pretty much any place he needs to go in the house cause he can't be left alone. then carrying the baby is a task too as he's almost 17 lbs.

I plan on also either using my dvd workouts or my ddr game that i had to replace as it got stolen when we were in the hospital. so now i have to input all the data again. no biggie there. plus i started school on monday so i'm taking a 6 unit online class. so between the boys and alex's pt/ot schedule i've been super busy. plus i couldn't get into the forum while we were in the rehab clinic for 3 weeks so this is my first chance to update.

the boys are doing good. Alex is slowly starting to stand more and walk a tiny bit with help. Cameron is trying to roll over which means more work for me soon to come. lol

well thats the update so far. Alex has pt/ot twice a week for 8 weeks then 1 time a week for another 4weeks for pt and another 8wks for ot. so its going to be crazy. but well worth it if he can learn how to walk and stuff again.

It was so nice to meet ya today!



Wow.....
I'm sooooooo sorry to learn of all the things you have been going through sweet-heart.

Your family is and will be in my prayers!

<3 Stacy

Heather I know it is lot of work but I honestly think Alex will return to walking agian. He is still young and Im sure he wants to go back to being a regular little boy

I think it is awesome that he is back in school as well and I think it will motivate him to get moving agian. Look at all he has already been throu and gotten through im sure he will get through this as well.

After the dust settles and Alex is well on his way to recovery or is recovered then we will plan on meeting.

Im excited to meet you in person and for our families to meetWho knows maybe you will get to meet Corey as well.

Ok things are kinda crazy here at home with alex having 4 appts a week not including school now. lol plus i'm taking a online class and having a 6 month old. I feel like i'm kinda free-falling sometimes.. but its gotta be done. The boys are great as well as my hubby who's lost 50 lbs in the last 6 months. Its so annoying sometimes since it seems like its just falling off him but yet it takes me forever to lose weight. I'm like why can't it be that easy for me.. I mean i'm taking care of 2 boys pretty much by myself unless my mom isn't at work. Since hubby isn't here except 3 days a month.. but yeah whatever.. just means that it will take me longer but in the end it will feel just as good to know i've worked towards it. I guess. We will see when i hit the magic goal number for my goals. I got like 7 lbs left to go to my mini goal of 225 by alex's 5th bday. I'm weighing in at 232 lbs. I need to set up a link but right now i'm working on a challenge on sparkpeople.com that is running from may 3rd to may 30th. Ok well thats my update.

heading to bed now as its 1am and the boys will be up by 9am if not earlier

The human brain is an amazing thing and its wonderful to see how it adapts to all kinds of diferent situations. Alex will be up and walking. There will come a time, many years from now when all of this is just going to be a memory.

I really hope that this will all just be memories in years to come. I want my little boy back to being able to run. being able to walk on his own would be a miracle to me. I can't totally wait for that day to come.

anyways.. my lossing weight is my focus besides getting him back to being healthy cause once he is able to walk and run again i'm going to need all my energy to chase him and his little brother.

ok well here's a short update. i am currently in the process of retrying to lose weight. i had gained 10 lbs in 6 weeks of being preggo the last time. i just lost the baby on may 29th and the doc said because i wasn't that far along i didn't have to worry bout not taking time off of exercise. besides school and such i'm doing good. anyways i'm going to try to work out 30 minutes a day for at least 5 days a week. so thats my goal. i wanna get down to 225 by the time cameron turns 1. so that gives me 4 months left to get there.

Ok well i'm currently weighin in at 241 lbs and striving for 225 by october 28, 2009. My youngest baby 1st bday. I plan on working out at least 30 minutes a day doing either ddr or working out on wii fit. i still haven't tried my fitness coach or the golds gym but ya.. gotta get to working out.

I hardly have time to work out but i'm going to push myself to do it everyday cause its the only way i'm going to get to my goal. I'm a college student and got 2 boys that demand my attention but i figured that mommy needs a little attention herself. So thats whats going to happen.

here's my food so far today:
breakfast:
1 1/2 cups 1%milk mixed with a banana and high protein slimfast mix
16 wheat thin crisps.

Lunch: a chicken patty sandwich w/ 1 tsp of light mayo. on 2 whole wheat slices of bread. and 10 pringles.

Dinner: pork chops with steamed veggies

snack: 1 cup oatmeal squares dry cereal

water: ?? will update when before bed.
no soda today so far hoping to keep that up.

Hey heather - I guess I should post here get lol!I'm still working on getting use to posting again.your a very determined person and you will get your goal in no time.you amaze me that way!

Ok this am i weighed in at 239. lol its been a week since i started really working out again. I played ddr disney for 4 hours today with my mom. Man is that a workout when just about all your songs were on basic level. A few days ago i was at 241 and then started out at 242.8 lbs so i'm doing well. I am trying the no soda thing and so far i have done great today. no soda since saturday night. so i'm hoping to keep it up. I've been drinking nothing but milk, water or tea.

food for today:
breakfast: 4 sauages and 2 eggs and 2 biscuits with 8 oz of 1% milk.
Lunch: none.. was still full from breaky and playing ddr with mom.
dinner: three cheese hamburger helper

water/tea: 32 oz so far.. still adding more..

Good job on your weight loss HeatherLets do this together we are neck to neck for weight

This is a challenge I thought you might be interested in, Margaret is putting it on

http://weight-loss.fitness.com/club-...l?=#post617525