really i always thought that when your counting calories you take away what you burnt on excersise and should aim for a minimum of 1200 - 1500 kcals a day , because i have been keepy a calories book for almost 3 weeks now and counting them all up in that

-Emma.

I woke up this morning positive but to be honest have been quite lazy and feel tired even though I have had 8 1/2 hours sleep I also went up to the beach not realising quite how ruff I looked with my hair tide up and not a spot of makeup on and I saw a school girl friend you could tell she didn’t recognise me not for a good reason either its just when I was at school it used to take me 2 n a half hours to get ready in the morning doing the hair and makeup to perfection because I did not want too look ugly as well as FAT but when passing I heard her mutter "is that Emma"
Oh I feel even more insecure now



& I have had so far

A bowl of special k

Half a tin of beans and 2 toast [no butter]

A few pints of water

And two ice lollies

Btw - I have done 70 sit ups went on a 30 min brisk walk and will proberly go on another after dinner were I will have a balanced 3rd meal

Hi Emma,
I know it is hard but unfortunately we have no control over what other people say. Its a life long thing. We tend to make it worse by interpreting what other people say wrongly too. How do you really know that she wasn't meaning 'Is that Emma, gosh she has lost loads of weight!' But because you weren't feeling positive you thought of a negative thing.
It wasn't until I was 25 that I began to believe people were looking at me because they found me attractive not because they thought I was a freak! It was me that thought I was a freak and assumed everybody else did too!
Keep at it Emma, you have what it takes to do this, don't let other peoples comments put you off.
Are you packed for the move? Carrying those boxes will be a good work out!
Sara

Hello everybody ! : D I just thought i would let you know we went to the cinema last night to watch the Simpson’s which actually was quite Naff well anyway usually I’m my hungriest when doing nothing and when at the cinemas in the past I used to binge like crazy popcorn, M&M’s, ice blasts [slushy drink], fizzy pop, sweets and lots more things.. seriously no joke and yesterday whilst my family did buy all those things I just sat with my bottle of water and to be honest I felt sick at the thought of people shovelling truck full’s of popcorn in their mouths and guzzling litres of the fizzy stuff: P I also did about 170 sit ups yesterday or more and only ate 1400 kcals all day woo.

Cya xox

-Emma.

Raharrrr Leaving party tommorow sarrounded by 60 friends & family aswell as the very , very bad party foods

Well its 1:20 am now & what an eventful day it was my "leaving party" it was actually quite good and I only cried 5 times I also babysat for a lady mum knows playing cars for 3hours straight and reading Thomas the tank 14 times :@ and she just came to pick her son up [who was sleeping at the time funny enough I was too] no goodbye or the actually money she owed me for babysitting just walked straight out the door! & shes disturbed my sleep so im no longer tired . Is their something written on my face that reads out GUILLABLE MUG walk all over me however I think that the emotions have suddenly hounded me down and I am really depressed by the way I didn’t do to badly with the Buffy today and ate very little however now nobody’s sat with me and all my families out PARTYING whilst 16 year old me site here lonely binging on a big wedge of fowl wedding cake and I’m not even hungry so why the fuck am I eating it! With no one to talk to about my worries & thoughts...... Grr I feel sooo down, and sick now too think theirs tooi much brandy or something in it but for the first time 25 days i dont really care how many calories i eat!!!!

wow reading the last post i realize how upset i really was at that time & after not writing in my calories diary for 5 days i felt i was at the right stage [not to start again , but to carry on .

I'm now living in south wales with my family and yesterday i climbed the mountain behind us which takes all together about 2 n a half hours too get up and down and today i went round the village and town center looking for a job .. i don't know if they really do not have any jobs or they just don't like the look of me but i don't really care and i am determined just too find a little part time job.

Hi there Emma,

I decided to drop into your journal at the request of the lovely "Fat Suit Going" aka Sara. She's awesome. haha

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Originally Posted by emmaroo91 really i always thought that when your counting calories you take away what you burnt on excersise and should aim for a minimum of 1200 - 1500 kcals a day , because i have been keepy a calories book for almost 3 weeks now and counting them all up in that -Emma.

For the most part, just count whatever calories you consume. Make sure to use the calculators to figure out how much you should be eating. Don't short change yourself, because either 1) you'll get frustrated at how strict your diet is and find it too difficult to maintain, 2) you'll go too low and will end up in starvation mode where it will eventually bugger your metabolism badly... That's where plateaus come into play. Don't make food an enemy... if anything, it will help you to lose, especially if you're taking 2 hour long walks. Good luck with it....

-Sheryl

Hi Emma,
So how did the move go? Lots of lifting bags, boxes and furniture?!

I hope you dont mind me asking Sheryl to drop by your diary, she is on the counting calorie and exercise type of health plan too, and thought she may be able to offer some advice to you along your journey! We all need the support.
It is sooooo true about not eating enough. If you don't eat enough your body thinks there is a famine and is very reluctant to let go of any fat. So you need to eat enough not to get in that place! Keep it up.
Gotta run, catch you soon.
Sara

climbed another mountain for the first time it was a lot bigger than the last one too and i really loved it even though we didn't follow the footpath [which made it even more exciting] and went the wrong way round we found a fresh water spring and the dog went swimming in it i really did enjoy myself and as the other posts told me to try & add a few more calories i did although i think their was a few to many grains lol



what i ate yesterday..

breakfast- 2 weatabix and a little bit of milk , one piece of white bread

lunch- tin of .. oily fish in tomato sauce with 2 pieces of white bread[no butter]

dinner- spaghetti bolognase and pasta [no garlic bread, no condiments]

snacks - 3 apples , 1 low fat tomato cup of soup and a handfull of rice crackers

No actually their was very little lifting and stuff thats what the haulage men are for lol i didn't want them to think i was stealing their limelight hahar
thanks for asking though

can not believe i turned the offer down to go swimming i know that its so,so good for you and nobody knows me here, but i just don't have the confidence to pull it off yet unless i get to were a full length scuba suit .. but then more people would look anyway.

I used to love swimming and was even fat when i used to but i just didn't used to care what others would think then . i wish so much i was like that now


-Emma.

Hi, I saw you around on the boards and thought I'd say hi. Swimming in public is difficult especially when you're young. My best advice is to find a cute, figure flattering swimsuit. For the most part, people really are too worried about their own bodies in their suits than they are about yours.

Have a great day!

Heya =) I think you're doing a great job so far, specially with your controlling of what you eat.

Aw...you should have gone swimming dear! I'm as self concious and self judgemental as any other girl, be her big of small, but what really helps is keeping in mind "Whether I wear black to hide my weight, weather I wear sweaters, jeans everyone can see me and knw I'm a "big girl", if I'm in a swimsuit, they still see the same thing." Also, keep in mind, generally, everybody is so worried about themselves, that they don't pay much attention to others. And if they do say something, remember you're on your way to improving yourself and soon, you'll be looking just as good as anyone else out there swimming! =)

Goood luck and hello!

Climbed the springs mountain again today & am getting faster than even heres a face foto i took b4

http://i9.tinypic.com/6gyb86r.jpg

btw i am so, so proud of myself at the mo because a few nights now my family have gotten take-away e - chines es,Indian,kebabs and every time offered/bought me something and every time I've said nope :] can't believe what a strong person i am whoooo