Hey, we've all had those days. And obviously, your boyfriend likes you...even when you don't like yourself.

Oh no, I'd never date a guy like that. At one point in my life, I would have put up with shit like that, but not anymore. Relationships are supposed to make you life better....not bring you down.

Oh I know he likes me, that's not really even this issue. It's just super frustrating for me when he is losing weight without putting any effort into it (well, he works hard at his job, but he's not trying to lose weight) and I struggle and only lose a pound, lol. Sometimes it just makes me want to bang my head against the wall.

I still have a killer headache. Doom.

Oh also I ordered a new pair of jeans from American Eagle. I've always loved their jeans. I ordered an 18, which still seems ridiculously huge and gross, but not as horrible as wearing clothes that don't fit. My plan is to buy a new pair when they get to big, and eventually get down to a 12 or so.

When school starts, I believe I'm going to schedule an appointment at the fitness lab. They take your weight, body fat %, and a bunch of stuff that tells you how good of shape you're in (you have to do some sit ups, touch your toes, and ride a bike for awhile). Anyways, I'm going to do that so that I can get it done at the end of the semester, and again before I graduate so I can see how much progress I've made in my physical fitness. I also like it because it breaks down how much of your body is fat, muscle, water, and stuff. I had it done a couple of years ago and I'm curious to see how I've changed...although I have no clue where that old paper was.

I guess I should think about going to bed now. *sigh* my last days of summer.

Yes...the summer is definately almost over, though you wouldn't know it from the heat. I am a teacher, so I feel the net closing in on me, too!

Men typically can lose weight faster than women, they just tend to have better metabolisms. Don't get discouraged, it's biology, not you!!

I think the body comp. analysis sounds like a GREAT idea!

I'm pretty excited about the body composition thing. It's free too, so why shouldn't I do it! It would be excellent motivation and nice to know where I'm starting from.

Bed. I have to go to bed. *sigh*

Ok, so I finally went to bed last night around 4:30am. Bad bad bad. *sigh*

I need to find some food. I've been up for hours be we don't have much to eat and I'm too lazy to go buy some. Not so great. *sigh*

I need to motivate.

Yup--they have more muscle--so they burn more calories just sitting on their asses..lol Totally not fair, but true.

Completely unfair... my boyfriend isn't even trying and shrinkign in front of my eyes... Bahhh!!!

Ugh, unfair unfair. I try not to think about it!

So scale said 215 this morning. Not a good morning. *sigh* Hopefully it's just water weight.

Then I fell down the stairs and hurt my butt muscle. It hurts to sit, stand, walk, lie down, or even move. Going from sitting to standing is the worst. *sigh*

Did I mention it's not my day? Plans for the gym seem to be out, but perhaps I'll try some stretching later on and maybe even pilates if I can get it loosened up some!

Sorry to hear things aren't going well today. Mine's not that great either, but they happen. Hope your "butt muscle" feels better.

I'm sorry about your Butt Muscles Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day

Lol! Everyone is so concerned about my butt. For whatever reason, I find it quite amusing. Thanks for the well wishes. It still is quite a pain in the ass!

Food today was pretty good I think. I didn't really count calories, but I seem to have done ok.

I'm sitting out on my patio now with some citronella candles and my laptop. A moth just got fossilized in some hot wax...ew. I reek of bug spray yet I've some how managed to get yet another mosquito bite. I think I may just be too tasty for those things to resist me!

I believe that's all for now. Ciao.

I HATE mosquitos. They are the scurge of the earth..lol It sucks being mosquito bait.

Ew yes, mosquitoes are horrible. I bathed in hydro-cortisone this morning.

Update on my butt! It is not a sore muscle...it's just one huge bruise. I didn't think it was a bruise to begin with, but I must have been in some weird light or it didn't color til later, because now it's green and yellow and purple. Ick!

In other news, I have adopted a new morning and evening beauty routine.

Morning:

• brush teeth with whitening toothpaste, mouthwash
• wash face, toner, moisturizer, zit cream for any stupid zits
• skin firming lotion from head to toe
• makeup

Evening:

• remove makeup, wash face, toner, moisturizer, zit cream, eye gel
• brush teeth with whitening toothpaste, mouthwash
• cellulite lotion for problem areas, skin firming lotion for rest of body
• overnight foot cream

So that probably sounds mostly like a normal person's day, but I am embarrassed to say that I am usually way to lazy for most of that. As a result, I usually look like I just rolled out of bed or something. Besides, I may be young right now...but if I never take care of my skin, it's not going to look so great when I get older!

Also, my teeth. Ugh. I never learned good dental hygine when I was a kid for whatever reason (mostly because my parents divorced when I was learning that sort of stuff and i just never got in the habit). Fast forward to now...my teeth aren't in the best shape. I'm lazy about brushing and that has to change! I need to make a dentist appointment so I can get my teeth cleaned and see if I have any cavities or anything. I can't imagine I don't. But that's ok. I will get my teeth back on track and after a little bit do some whitening treatments.

In the weight loss news, I have had a granola bar so far today. I need to drink some h20. I'm cold and feeling lazy. Go figure.

I have to work today from 12pm-5pm. Whee.

It's kind of funny how taking care of yourself by dieting makes you want to take care of yourself in other ways, too! After I started dieting, I started a better skin care regime and started wearing make up more often.

Good for you on taking better care of yourself. A dental care hint: start flossing your teeth before bed--it will keep your gums healthy and prevent gingevitis (which is much easier to get than you'd think).