LMAO! I cracked up reading that. LOL OH MY GOSH that was funny! There is nothing more annoying then pants that you have to keep hicking up ever few minutes. At the same time there is nothing like the feeling of knowing your actually in a smaller size then what you picked out. AWESOME!!!

See, this is a great starting point to work from. Today is going to be a hard day for everyone, but remember even if your at a BQUE, you can still eat grilled chicken, and just a spoon of potato salad, macaroni salad, or any other salad out there minus green salad. With me, I just try to eat a lot of watermelon or cantaloupe, get togethers usually have a plate of those to work off of. LOL

GREAT JOB~~ I'll check back in later gator
Hugs and Love
Kim

Well thankfully the work weekend is over!
Woohoo!!!
I am currently 2 pounds less than Friday. Most likely due to the fact that I actually ate healthy this past weekend.
For once I didn't eat anything outta the vending machines at work. There for a while I was hitting 'em every day, sometimes multiple times a day.
I wasn't able to drink all my water like Margaret wanted me to. Though I did drink far more than I have been in the past.
Currently I am working on my first 20oz of the day.
I did however eat tons and tons of fruit and veggies.
We have a lock-in tonight for 1st thru 4th grade students at my church. Hubby is planning pizza for dinner. The usual fare at one of these things. I think however that I will be bringing along some other things to nosh on.
I did so well over the weekend that I don't won't to sabotage myself now!
Okay so I am going to hop over and check out the summer shake-up thread.

GREAT JOB, and I'm so proud of you not letting in to the pizza for dinner. I LVOE PIZZA but holy smokes it's like 450 calories a slice, it's just not worth it for me.

Sometimes it's very hard to drink a lot of water during the day, If I get to caught up in work, I tend to pound down a bottle at the end of the day rather than drinking slowly every 30 minutes which is really what I should do, but oh well as long as you get some in, your doing great!

Are you planning your meals for the day?? Or just playing it by ear? can you take stuff to work, so not to be tempted by the dreadful Vendor Villain?? We have vending machines in our break room as well, but honestly if they would fill them with sandwiches or fruit I might consider using them, but they have nasty donuts/ cakes/ ho-ho's/ chips and I'm just not that into those items, thank gosh! I have purchased a pack of gum out of them a few times. LOL Does yours have good food?? or junk?

Well, I hope your lock in is a lot of fun, I'm so happy you made great choices, keep it up chica!

I'm going to swing by the challenge and check it out, not sure if I'm ready to commit just yet to one, but we will see.
Hugs and Love
Kim

So how did it go at the pizza party?! Hopefully you were able to stick to your fruits and veggies, though I wouldn't blame you for indulging in just one measly slice hehe.

Ahhh.......
Lock-in went great! The kids all had lots and lots of fun. We took them to a giant ball pit that isn't really a pit at all. More like a large jungle gym with multiple levels. And at various locations there are air guns that can shoot the balls. There is this totally cool thing in the very middle of the jungle gym where the kids put all these balls that they have collected. Only when someone "shoots" the bullseye does it "explode" and all the balls go flying in every direction! It is totally AWESOME!
We also gave them all 10 tokens to spend in the arcade.
We didn't leave the place until 11pm. Ended up eating the pizza at 12 midnight and watching The Tale of Desperaux until 2am.
I wish I could say that I didn't give in to the pizza.
By that time of the night I was sooooo tired. And when I am tired I make the WORST food decisions!
I had basically been up past 3am every night for 4 nights by the time the pizza was served. And to top it off I hadn't eaten on any kind of a schedule at all yesterday. So everything was way outta whack.
*I am so ashamed* *shamefaced with a hint of a smile*
Today wasn't much better since I only had about 3 1/2 hours of sleep last night. I came home and basically passed out for 4 hours. My kids are soooo good. They pretty much just hung out on the bed watching movies while I slept.
When I got up my eye was hurting pretty bad. Hurting and itchy. When I rubbed it, it started hurting even worse. When I went to look at it I noticed something wasn't quite right.
Have you ever really tried to look at your own eyeball? It is nearly impossible I tell ya! I must have looked so silly in the bathroom trying to "get a good angle" so I could check out my own eye.
I ended up going to the doctors to have it checked out. On the way there the kids needed to be fed so I swung thru the arches and got them nuggets and fries.
Sad to say I also got food. A 1/4 pounder and fries. And that pretty much had set the tone for the rest of the day.
I had a hershey bar with almonds and then took the kids to DQ. Where I got a Peanut Buster Parfait.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!?!?!?!!?
I am starting to think that I am my own worst enemy. It seems that whenever I have cash on me I run right to the food sources.
Be it a vending machine or a drive thru. It doesn't matter. It is like they are the pied piper and I am just following along in a trance.
See I didn't take any $$$ to work at all this past weekend and look how good I did. I have money for less than 24 hours and BAM! I basically eat it.
So at least I am recognizing a pattern. But what to do about it. It is not like I can go around for the rest of my life without having cash in my pocket.
We don't have credit cards (Thank Goodness!) and obviously not all places take checks.
What to do? What to do?
I need to have more control than this or I am never going to get back to that place that I want to be.
Sigh

Oh and the eye.......
Pink Eye
Isn't that just great? lol
At least it is not the contagious kind. Just the kind that is bascially caused by my allergies.
I guess all the constant eye rubbing is not good for it.
Who knew? haha

Hmmm, not exactly sure what I can say to help on this one. I do know the first thing to do when trying to come up with a solution is to know the problem, and at least you know what it is. How to help, not quite sure yet, but you bet I'm going to be thinking about it and hopefully I can come up with some suggestions that might help.


One thing is for sure, you dont have lock downs every day, so you won't have to worry about this happening all the time. And like you said you did really well those few days at work and didn't use the vending machines. It sounds more mind over matter really. Having money available does make it easier to run through a drive thru, but maybe what you can do instead of going through the arches you can run into Subway or something like that instead, less tempting for the high calorie stuff.

Like I said I'm going to try and figure some solutions for you, so I'm not giving up. :-)

Try to get some rest, and hopefully that pink eye will be gone in a few days.
Have a good evening and start fresh in the morning, I'll be checking in on you Later.
Hugs
Kim

Thank You Kim darling~
It really does help to have someone there who no matter what is willing to encourage me.
You know I didn't even think about Subway.
*Smacking self in the forehead*
I really think that the lack of sleep is what got to me the most yesterday and today.
And your right. It really is a mind over matter thing.
I remember when I first started out nearly 2 years ago, I was able to have my birthday cake sit on the counter for just about 2 weeks without ever taking a single bite!
And I do believe that I really do need to start planning the meals that my family eats.
Next week will hopefully be a better week as far as planning a menu would go.
Just seems that for some reason this summer is so jam packed full of things that are going on that I am rarely if ever home long enough to make a meal let alone plan a whole week of them.
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Just to update you since I don't think you are aware.
My birthdaughter Laura contacted me in April. Since then I have seen her quite a few times. In fact my avatar is a picture of me, her and my youngest.
Since April my life has become even more busy (if that is possible) 'cuz I am always trying to make time to visit her. She lives in Grand Rapids, MI (same place as Kimberly) so it is a 3 hour drive to visit.
So on the days when I have nothing at all scheduled I am usually trying to work it out that her and I or her family and my family can get together. Once summer is over I know that we won't have nearly the time we do now to visit. She will be attending college and I will for the most part be "chained" here due to the kids' school schedules. And since I work on the weekends it will make it next to impossible to coordinate days with her.
By the way she is Beautiful!
If you want to see more pictures of her, I am on Facebook and have quite a few over there. Just PM me and I will give you the nescessary info to find me.
Ciao for now.

okay since I will have no time what-so-ever tomorrow to post I am going to put my thoughts down now.

I am taking the kids up to Michigan tomorrow. To the very same beach that we went to last week when we were camping.
Laura and her parents are camping there this week and have invited us up to visit. Especially since last week was a total bust for the beach.
Tomorrow should be a gorgeous day for sand, sun and swimming. I just have to remember to keep applying the sunblock all day or we will be lobsters for sure. lol

The kids still don't know that we are going, (of course by the time that most of you read this we will already have been long gone).

I think that overall tomorrow should be a great day for staying with-in my water, fruit and veggie guidelines.
And even though Laura's mom and dad will be providing both lunch and dinner I WILL show restraint! Darn it all!!!!
Sitting around in my swimsuit looking like an oversized beach ball ought to jog my memory enough to know why it is I don't want to eat, eat, eat!

So that is the plans for tomorrow.
Hopefully I will be able to update sometime on Thursday. Hopefully.
We are getting a new 'puter and it is being delivered on Thursday. But that does not mean that it will be up and running on Thursday. hahah
Especially since we are going to the Distribution Center's company picnic that day. The booked us at the zoo. So it ought to be lots and lots of fun.

Catch ya'll later.
Ciao!

I don't know what to say except that I seem to really be struggling this time around.
I know I should pop on here more often but honestly I just don't feel like I am at a place where I can be encouraging other people when I feel like I am failing so miserably.
And I certainly don't expect anyone to have to lift me up out of my doldrums on a continuing basis.

I did have an appt with the doc today and was taken off of all my depression meds. Actually i took myself off of them about 2 weeks ago. I just really felt that they weren't helping me like they did when I first starting taking them.
And now I feel that most of my "sadness" if that is what you would call it, is more due to the fact that I have gained so much of my weight back.
My doctor did put me on a prescription to help with wanting to eat all the time thing.
I know that most of the problem lies with-in my head but truly once I thought of something to eat I swear the "hunger pangs" would just hit full force until I ate the food.
And knowing that I have been overeating and stretching my stomach out waaaay beyond what it should be did not help when I tried to cut back the intake. Because then it was lots and lots worse.
Already today I have finally felt like I am in control.
I was able to pick up cookies that the kids had and not eat them. Not even a bite. There wasn't even an inclination to. As well as cheesie curls. Which I love! haha
So hopefully I will only need to take this medicine for a short time. Maybe a month of two at the most. I just need to get myself back on track. need to get a really good jumpstart to this whole process.
I know that losing weight and maintaining it can be a lifetime endeavor. But trying to lose the same 30 pounds over and over, losing and gaining it back again to only try all over again is not what I imagined for this diary.
The destination for this journey of mine should have been met long ago.

STOP IT RIGHT NOW!!! STOP! I don't want to hear you put yourself down anymore!!!, even if you are not doing well on the weight loss front. Don't feel like you have to come to your diary to uplift people or give advise, you don't have to do that. But..... you do need to keep coming in if just to post your thoughts for the day, Your in a slump, it's normal we all have those. Look what Blancita went through for several years she couldn't lose anything, she struggled so badly and felt so bad I thought she was going to give up on the forum, then BAM it happened for her, she found her mojo again, she found what finally is working and she's at it full force.

You will get your mojo back, you will find that drive again! Maybe the switching of the meds is what you need, since you just changed it up, give it a shot it might take a week or so to get going, but don't pressure yourself about it, just never give up on yourself. I'm not giving up, so you shouldn't either. I to thought dang I lost all those months of not working out and not losing weight, I was MAD at myself, but you know what??? I'm not going to give up on myself, I'm still the same Kim, I'm still a great mom! I'm still a happy wife! And the rest Is a work in progress, I'll get back to my hot momma days, it just might take a little bit longer than I expected, but I'll figure it out and I'll get it done, maybe not this month, but I will! And I want you to believe you will too!

I need you to come to your diary, I need to hear about your week, and I look forward to it, so please don't stop. It's one day at a time sister, one pound at a time. Slow and steady will win the race it will. Take your time, you can get rid of those 30 and then some, YOU CAN and YOU WILL slowly and steady. I'm even willing to do a little ummmm not race.... but motivation with you. Let's see if we can each lose a pound a week starting next week. Are you up for the challenge?? This is between you and ME!! I'm willing, and let's just say after a month the one who loses the most will get a little something special in the mail. How's that?? You want to go for it???

Let me know, I'll be waiting for your reply.
Kimmers!

Seriosuly!
How did I luck out and get such a great friend?
I don't know how it happened but I am not giving you up for NOTHING!!!!
Thanks Kim.
I really needed a kick in the proverbial pants. There is no one here at home who will do it for me. Sweetiepea is gone for the summer and I miss her awfully. And hubby, well he struggles with his weight just like I do.
So it is hard to use him as an accountability partner when we each enable the other! hahaa
I don't know that it would be fair for us to have a challenge between the 2 of us under the circumstances. ( I wouldn't want to whoop ya by false measures!)
Now that I have started on that medicine I am doing GREAT!
I have not over ate at all since Monday. And the real kicker is that I haven't WANTED to!
I don't feel like I am depriving myself of anything. I just don't want it.
Yesterday I actually let my kids finish my lunch for me instead of the other way around. How's that for turning the tables?
And get this my step-son asked me to pick him up a Blizzard at Dairy Queen and I was able to go thru the drive and not only not buy anything but
not want anything! GASP!!!
I just need to remember to drink my water.
I know it is not much but since Tuesday when they weighed me at the doc's I have lost 3 pounds.
It is hard to get excited (or overly excited anyway) when I have lost those same 3 pounds countless times before.
So you see I don't know that a "weight" challenge would be fair. Perhaps we can think of something else.
How about who ever execises the most or something like that.
You exercise like a fiend and I don't exercise at all. So that would really give me motivation. If I was to actually put in as much time as you do.....man I think for sure that I would drop HUGE numbers.
What do you say?
Let me know.
And if you don't hear from me until Monday it is because I am off working in the Frozen Tundra. What I lovingly call my job...hahaha
Thanks again Kim!!
Really you are the best.
*So what kind of prize are we shooting for anyway?*

LOL okay Your ON!! I love the working out hours thing, that would be Awesome!! You know I need something to kick my butt back to the gym on a REGULAR basis, this would be just the kick I need!

Okay, so let's say judged by time of working out, could be anything from walking, going to the gym, something that gets your heart rate up of course. And after a month the one with the most time spent exercising will win, and of course it will be exciting to see the amount or rather "percentage" of weight loss we both had during this time.

And as for the grand prize! hmmmm maybe if YOU win I will think up something special to send to you and if I win you can think of something special to send to me, we won't tell each other what that thing is, so it will be extra special when it happens. I have some great ideas, and maybe we can keep it health or fit related you think??????


OOOOOHHH I'm so excited to get started on Monday, sound good???

maybe these meds are working for you and helping you curb that appetite, FANTASTIC!!

And to pass up a blizzard, HOLY SMOKES! with the heat here lately, anything cold is hard to pass up, but I need to break down and buy some freezer pops only 15 calories each and they are so good. I'm going to get my behind to the store and stock back up on my veggies and fruits, I want to see some huge results in the next 30 days.

So we will start effective Monday and go for 30 days.

Let me know if you need me to wait until Tuesday and I will. I'm so excited, I can't wait. Hope your weekend is a good one!!! Don't work to hard

Hey and on the 3lbs loss, take it and be happy with it, because I said so!! What I wouldn't do to "Lose 3lbs" again. Seriously!

Talk to you soon!
Hugs
Kim

Jeankers!
I almost forgot to come in here before we left on our camping trip.
Okay scale showed this morning that I was now down 8 1/2 pounds from last week. Yeah!!!!
Now I just want to see if I can continue to lose. Not nescessary at that rate but a good steady one would make me happy.
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Kimmers
Your on! I am planning and hoping to get lots of walking/hiking in this week. So be prepared to go to the gym.
I wish I had more time to update everything else going on in my life but I literallu gotta run.
bye!

YOU GO SISTER~

I'm holding you to it. 8 pounds, DANG I better rev it up or I'm going to be left in the dust.

Hope you have a FAB camping trip. Talk to you when you return.

Kimmers

8.5 lbs in one week? That is awesome! Great job, Dawn! I will pray you have a good and safe trip.

Derrick