Hey everyone!
Well, I am writing for now on about how my day went. From waking up, exercising, to every day challenges. In november of 2006, I was 205lbs. Now standing here today, I weigh 159.4lbs! Amazing huh?

I haven't been feeling good latley. One, my boyfriend of 4 1/2 years and I broke up. We have a beautiful child together and his name is Nathan. I love him so much! The father has and wants little to do with our child, and that makes me sad, but its his loss for not wanting to spend time with his own child. Since the breakup, which was about a month ago, I've been exercising a lot more. Ususally I am the emotional eater who would eat everything until I am happy again, but instead, I've been exercising more. No more food going down me for comfort!

Plus, I have a sinus cold, which has made me not want to work out. I'm not sure if its okay working out with a sinus cold or not, its just I do not feel great enough to work out. But I really need to!

Tonight, I am going on a date with a guy I know from highschool! Its going to be weird for me because I haven't dated in 4 1/2 years! We are going to eat at a nice place, and then go see a movie. It should be fun. I am just not sure if he is interested in Nathan. I need to find a guy who will be interested in me and Nathan (my child) and I'm not sure if he wants that. But that's okay, its just a date...nothing more, nothing less.

I worked out today this morning, even when I felt yucky! I walked 2 miles in my living room, and then did my weights, and then my elliptical while watching cmt music video's. Then Nathan woke up. all and all, I got in 83 minutes of working out/weight lifting. So, thats not bad right?
I'll post more info tomorrow of what happened on my date.
Have fun and Lose that weight,
Pamela

Congratulations on losing the weight and keeping up the lifestyle. I hope you have a good time on your date. Welcome to WLF. There is lots of support and information here so have a good time.

Ahh, I feel nice today. I am going on vacation today at cocoa beach fl, my second home and I cannot wait.

The date went okay. I am not sure if I will go out on another date with him, but he was nice. All he really chatted about was his ex-girlfriend. I did not want to hear about her that much. I didn't talk about my ex to him. He didn't really want to get to know me, which is sad because I am a great girl!

My weight is doing great! I am now 156.8lbs! ahhh, I feel so awesome right now! I worked out this morning. I need to do my stregnth training though.

Hi, enjoyed your post. You are doing great with your weight loss and exercise routine and ALL after the boyfriend left. That makes a statement. I don't think a child needs a father who emotionally and now physically abandons them. Those are the ultimate in rejection. Nathan can live without that. One good parent makes the difference authorities will tell you and I know from my own experience. Be glad you don't have a psychopathic father who uses the child as a tool to get at mom trying to make her out to be anything under the sun using the court system to manipulate and attempting to place the child in foster care inorder to take the most precious thing to her away. This happened to me. Despite his motive or misguided value system I prevailed at raising my son with good character. No one needs that conflict or pain.

You love your son, it shows in putting his needs first. He doesn't need another pretend father. Keep in mind some men like to get involved with a woman and child to make self appear good and or use the situation to control and use the young person. Watch and be careful. Kathy ps May I ask your ages?

Hi kathy,
I am sorry you had to go through that but its all over now. I am 22, Jeremy (nathan's dad) is 24 and nathan is 2 years old.
I really don't need the dad in nathan's or my life.

I had a great weekend! I love going to cocoa beach! Its my second home. Plus, a lot of nice looking men live over there too!
I walked the beach every morning with nathan. He loves going for walks.

Then we came home, and the father wanted to see nathan. He came over at 7:00pm, and only stayed for an hour. He's going into the army, and he told me that he's going to be oversea's where he's stationed. Good! I don't care!!
But then he said "I am going to have 2 weeks of leave around christmas time, and I want nathan." That is when I went off the deepend! He hasn't seen his son in 2 weeks, and he's only called 3 times out of them!! So why the heck does he want him? I asked him why does he want to be a dad when he is never around?

I figured out that when I get mad, I want to drink my pain away. But instead, I exercise it away, which I feel so much better afterwards, but I also want to numb the pain away, and sleep it off too. I've never been a drinker, but lately, thats all I've been thinking about. Having a shot of whiskey, and going to bed! But, I would never think of doing that because I have a son to take care of, and because its not good with my body either.

Well, I am off to bed. I am so tired! goodnight!

well, I am 157lbs. I gained, but its okay. Alot has been happening.

I am having problems with water...my stomach is so...full sometimes from water that it doesn't want anymore! like right now...its 12:01pm, and I am on my second water bottle and I am sooo full! I am wondering if I am doing anything wrong, or is it just because my body is full?

I didn't get to exercise today.
One, I am babysitting a 2 month old, and he cries often unless you hold him, then he's fine (I'm holding him and typing at the same time.)

two, I woke up with a headache. Normally, I am not the one who usually gets headaches, but when I do...its major blow up pain! I took some medicane, but its not working out. Just making me feel so sleepy. Hopefully this baby will go to sleep so I can sleep...we will see.

Jeremy is leavinh for bootcamp on september 5th. Its a bitter-sweet goodbye for me. We've been together for so long, yet its time to move on. He probably will not see his son until nathan is 6 years old. I cannot believe that he is giving up his child! I want him to get his life straightened out, but I also want him to be in his son's life. Do you think I'm being selfish? Thats what he always called me...selfish girl...I hope I'm not a selfish person.