Thank you everyone for stopping by my journal. You all have NO idea how much it helps me to be getting support, and to just hear people tell me that I am doing a great job. It really gets me motivated, and if it wasn't for ALL of you, I would be gaining by the minute. I could never have the will to get through all the hard times without COMPLETELY over eating, and I would NEVER get around to exercising. YOU are all the ones who get me going. The ones who give me self-will, and determination. And for that I am ETERNALLY grateful. Thanks to each and every one of you who stop by my diary and give me a few kind, or constructive words.


I have been eating pretty well lately. I am almost completely over eating junk food. I don't crave chips anymore at all!!! I need to work on resisting fried foods though. Terrible passion for them. ahahah. I am thinking about starting to by my own groceries that way I have control over what I eat a little more. THat way I don't binge. But I will have to wait a month or 2 more until I actually have money. ANd this is ONLY a possiblity. NOt even a real plan of action yet. I don't really think its in my budget.

Today:

1 Venti NONFAT caramel macchiato for Starbucks (240)
1 APPLE (110)
1 lean cuisine french bread pizza (310)
and 3 Crunchy tacos from Taco Bell. (640)

I ate the taco bell because I had NO meat for that day, and it was still early. I did a lot of walking, so I had plenty of time to walk a lot of it off. I also have had 3 bottles of water. and a large cup of ice. Thats only 1300 calories for the day. Its still low. Staying busy has definitely kept my mind off of food. and I have had a lot less random cravings too. Its nice to be able to eat a bit less. I try to eat at least ever 3 hours during the day. Because I get really sick if I don't eat breakfast, and then try to wait until 2 pm to finally eat.

WELL, today ended up pretty good. I hope tomorrow is equally as awesome, and I hope all of you are having funnn.

Hey dear,
Glad to hear you're doing better. I wouldn't worry about your hair. I lose a ton of it everyday, and mine is still really thick. LOL@Paul worried about balding. You don't look like you have anything to worry about..lol. If you're not balding at all by now, then you'll be fine.

I just read that women who get the munchies at night often do b/c they don't get enough to eat during the day. This article recommended eating frequent small meals throughout the day to keep the hunger monster at bay.

Hi Brandy! Good job on cals! You are doing well! I was surprised about the coffee! 240 calories seems like so little when you see venti in front of it but I double checked and that's what it is! I have to eat breakfest too. Right now I am like the Kashi Go Lean cereal with raspberries and Splenda. It's so good!
I hope you have a great day today! Only 2 more days until Saturday! I can't wait to jump on that scale!!

my head has been spinning. I am so busy, and it seems so hard to find a day to sit down and comment on all the diaries and stuff. I can't believe it.

I am going to eat healthy all week. YES... not even one mistake. And I am also going to join a gym. Swimming is GREAT exercise, and I really love to swim. So... I think thats what I want to do this week. THats my goal. Unfortunately, I need $100 to sign up with. I think anyways. I will check this out in much greater detail. I have to go to work in 1.5 hours. So, I am going to do my hair/makeup, and plan out my food for the day.

I am happy with this week's bonus, because I think I might be able to keep my head on straight.

But do Lean Cuisine Pizza's count??? They are delicous. ONLY 310 cals for a french bread pizza. Let me know...

I need to go balance my checkbook as well. There is so much that I want to write about.. but I won't. Cuz I need to do a lot before I go to work, tonight when I get home... I have SO much to talk about.

Today's Food:

Breakfast: 100 cal peach yogurt, 190 cal of Raisin Bran Crunch, and 130 cal of 2% milk.

Lunch: Nothing. I was at work. I didn't have any money. I didn't bring anything there. *Slaps self on hand* But I didn't think I would even have time (which I didn't) and that is why I had such a big breakfast.

Dinner: Chicken Cacciatore... which is only 200 cals per 7.7 ounces. I might have 2... so count on 400 calories.


I guess that is it. I need to figure out if popcorn is junk food. and if it is... I'll stick with an apple.

I am excited for such an awesome dinner! ANd its healthy!!! I need to get in some exercise. There is just so much going on, and I'm stressing so badly over money that it is ridiculous. Tonight I have a lot that I want to get done, and then 6:00 am tomorrow I have to be at work. I like being a little busy. It keeps me from snacking so damn much.

HI There! thanks for stopping by my diary, I can use any support I can get that's for sure, so thank you soooo much! You asked if popcorn was good to eat, it is IF.... you eat the one with no butter, or light and only eat a small bowl and not the whole bag, which is the hard part in my eyes. I try to stay clear of it, even though my hubby buys those huge boxes of butter popcorn from Sam's club, he does that for the boys, and some how I'm not tempted, I don't know why. I would rather grab a frozen ice pop for 15 calories instead, but that's me and I know it's hard to beat the cravings for some foods trust me, I'm a sucker for fresh baked bread! AHHHHHH Looks like your calories have been in check lately so great job!! I hope things get better for you on the money front I know we can all use more of that, that's for sure!! Take Care and good luck to you How tall are you by the way?? When I started on this March 30 I weighed about the same as you are.
Kim

I am 5 foot 7 inches.

So today was good. I went to the YMCA down the street from me to get some information on the cost. I am trying to convince Dan's mother to sign up for the family plan. But if she doesn't... I'm going to do it myself. I can't afford to tomorrow or anything, but I am going to do it as soon as I find myself with an extra $50. Which will be in a week or two. I need to catch up on over-due bills. Thats all. Hopefully it will be all over with soon enough. Now that I don't have to pay for school...(it is 1/3 me, 1/3 dad, and 1/3 from mom) I am going to have plenty to pay my bills and stuff.

But if I joined the gym, I would definitely go ALL THE TIME. There is so much fun stuff to do there. So if the family plan falls through-I will join in 2 weeks.

I need to sit down and plan out my day for tomorrow.

I hope everyone's day is going well!

Morning!! I'm 5.6 1/2 so we are close to the same height. If you need to hold off on adding another expensive to your monthly bills, then don't worry about the gym. There are a lot of things you can do at home to lose as well. You can ALWAYS do daily walks, I tell you that is a good way to lose weight! Also, you could purchase from Walley world some free weights and maybe a workout ball and do exercises at home, add crunches or maybe find a cheap ab roller like I use and make yourself use it every night before bed. Don't go broke by joining a gym, because that will add extra stress on you and you don't need that. I know video stores sell cheap used tapes, sometimes you can find a good workout video for less than 5 bucks, sometimes those can be fun. I hope your day is a good one, and I wish you the best of luck this week on your weight loss!! Take Care
Kim

Thank you KIM for stopping by!!! I have an ab lounge. I like using that. I do it when I remember, but I think I will try in nightly. How many should I do to start off with? like 30?

Well, today is going to be fun.

Breakfast/early lunch: a vegetable stir fry thing. Don't know the calorie amount, but I know it was good.

I'm not sure how the rest of the day is going to go food-wise, but i'm trying to keep it to fruit/veggies/ wheat bread/ protein.

Exercise: I'm going out today to a reserve to walk for about an hour. Maybe 4 miles? I might do more... depends on how I feel, and how Dan feels. I am also going to use the weight bench and my ab lounge tonight. And the yoga DVD probably. Because Dan is going out to wait for HOURS to get the Halo 3 game. So that leaves me time to exercise my butt off!!

I also have to remember to get that damn homework done.

I won't be disappointed if I can't get the gym membership with the family. I really want it, but I can wait until I have extra money. I can walk/play DDR/use the weight bench/do yoga/use the ab lounge/other things.

I just LOVE to swim, and being able to swim would be great exercise, and I would ALWAYS be in the mood to do it.

I just left you a message in my diary. Good luck on your ab lounger!
Kim

OK... now for the running tally of what I have been eating:

Breakfast: the veggie stir fry.
Snack: Orange
Lunch: Grilled cheese sandwich on Whole Wheat bread
Dinner: Small Turkey Sub with lettuce, bacon, american cheese, and tomatoes.

For dinner the fam is going to order pizza. and I chose the healthiest thing on the menu that sounded like it would cure my cravings.

Healthy day so far! I even resisted icecream and apple pie!! I am very very happy. Well, here comes dinner!!!

Hi Brandy-
Great job on resisting the ice cream and apple pie!! :]
I'm hoping to join the Y soon as well, hopefully it'll work out for both of us.
You're doing awesome hun, keep it up!
xoxox

Sorry to hear about having a rough time with the food!!ME 2 I have been on and off so many times I can't count I really bucled down a coule nights ago.
Girl you can do ,you made it under the big 200 thats a HUGE step.I am rooting for ya and I will stop by more!Tammy

Thank you all for stopping by. I really need some cheering on. Last night I was just so depressed. I couldn't think of a reason why, but Danny just held me, and I cried. I am better today though. My weight is plateauing. I think its because I've been eating so much food. Not junk... but a lot of food still. I need to take it easy. And my exercise has been crappy. I have been trying to get into strength training just a little bit. I mean take 5 minutes of every night to do 25 sit ups, and 25 bench presses. I've only done that 2 times this week though. I don't know why. I have a severe head cold. And All of yesterday I slept. I couldn't get enough sleep.

I want to go see my father tomorrow night, but I hate leaving Danny. I need him to sleep next to me. But I want to see him because Next weekend I am going to new Hampshire. I'll figure it out-whatever I plan on doing.

Tonight I need to finish some homework, and then do my strength training. I need to think of something else to do because Dan has taken over the TV with Halo 3, and it is too dark to take a walk. So cardio is looking harder and harder.

I need to kick my butt into gear a little bit more. ahha.

Tomorrow will go well. I'll make it go well.