Hey Brandy! I've been away for a little while. . . .I've missed you! I do want to tell you that no matter how many times you "restart", you're still restarting and you aren't giving up. I haven't read far enough back to see what the 100 day challenge was that you devised for yourself, but I'm intrigued! You're super close to onederland, I am totally confident that you can get there by the time school starts!!

sounds like a plan brandy!! i'm really proud of you

korrie and heather- thanks for stopping by. I need the support.

I'm having a problem. My motivation is practically non existent. I just can't seem to get up and go. I think I need to do something every morning to get myself in the motivated mood. I don't know what though. I haven't been gaining weight, but I habits are far less then impressive. I need to find my niche again.

yea, motivation is a hard thing sometimes....i wish i could help you there....hum...well, just think of my story..I lost 30 pds and was looking goooooood.....and then lost my motivation somehow and gained it all back plus 20 more pounds!!! Don't let that happen to you!

I guess this is where "lifestyle" comes in...making these things a habit will make it easier on days you don't have motivation...i'm sorry i couldn't give you any better advice...I'm here for you though, ok???

((hugs))

Hi Brandy!! Yeah Korrie's right. Motivation is hard and both you and I know it comes in spurts. I think no matter what you do just get out there and do SOMETHING. Even if it's just a walk around the block. Build those habits. Don't forget the 5K. If you sign up you are accountable. It has certainly helped me!! I hope you get it back. I totally know how frustrating it can be.

Hey doll! I absolutely feel you on the motivation thing!! I honestly think that motivation waxes and wanes for all of us when it comes to weight loss. The most important thing is that you came back to post about it here. It's definitely tough to keep on the "straight and narrow" as it were, but what is important is that you returned here to talk about it. I had to take a month's break to come back with renewed motivation. . . .so you aren't alone! You can do it! Keep that 5K in sight - I'm joining you on the Couch to 5K program so if you want we can be "buddies" as it were. You can do this!

Korrie- that is a great motivation. I know I'll be happier when I look good. And you are right...doing something is better then nothing.

Michelle- I filled out the form, but haven't mailed it in quite yet. I need to make sure my bills get paid first. Money is tight because college starts soon. I need to commit to something though.

Heather- it would be really cool to be C25K buddies. What do you think we should do to keep us motivated? I'm using your motivation of quitting smoking as my thought process for getting motivation. It takes a long time to form a habit. You work on staying smoke free until it becomes a habit of not even wanting cigarettes. Exercise and healthy eating are the same way. By the way- congrats on quitting!! I'm very proud.

Anyways, today we celebrated Dan's nana's 80th birthday. I look at the elderly as being wise and knowledgable. And I hate that people in our society that see them as a nuisance. Tomorrow I really want to try getting up early to run. Then I want to make myself lunch and snacks because I'm working 12 to 6. Then I need to come home and FINALLY get some much needed cleaning done. My goal this week is to finish my goals and priorities for the day before doing my leisure activities. It's important for me to learn to do that. I hope I can stick to my word tomorrow and go running. Well, wish me luck.

My morning run didn't happen...again. I'm still determined to get it done SOMETIME today. Like I said last night, I need to work on getting the important things done before I decide to relax. Because once I relax, I won't get up again. That's where I will start working on things. I have to leave for work in just a few minutes. When I get home I plan on doing dishes, laundry, cleaning, and RUNNING before I sit down to relax for the night. Wish me luck.

Good luck Brandy!! Hope your night at work goes well

thanks michelle.

My night did go fairly well. I got a lot of my "to do" list done. But I didn't get my run in, and I had a major chip attack. I ate so many doritos. I hate those damn things. LOL. I went to bed at 12, instead of 10:30 like I was planning. So I woke up at 8:30 instead of 7 like I wanted. Today I WILL exercise in the morning because I don't want to get too busy for it at night again. I have my meals planned out for the day, I hope I can stick to them. For right now...special K cereal for breakfast, and then my week 1 run 2. Then shower, and I will get to relax before work.

wow, you sound like a busy girl!! good luck excersizing today!! I believe in you

Doritos are the Devil. The very tasty hard to resist devil!!! lol I hear you. Hubby got fried chicken last night. Sigh. I had scarfed it all before I realized I should have taken the skin off and not eaten that many mashed potatoes. sigh. It's a new day though. I hope you have a good one!! I am off on a road trip back home today for some unpleasant business with the ex and I am stressing really bad!!! I am nervous! anywho it will be a good day today at least

korrie- I have been busy, but it might be good for me.
Michelle- good luck with the ex thing. Just stay calm.

I actually got some exercise in! I realized that I don't care for running. I went for a 20 minute walk this morning. 3 intervals of running in the week 1 run, but I would just rather walk every day. I really enjoy walking. But when I start to run it makes me wish it was over. So, I'm going to keep walking instead. Morning and night. I have to work again today. 12 to 6. When it's over I have a few chores to complete. I have to leave in 45 minutes, and I'm getting myself prepared to smile all day-maybe it will make the work day go by faster.

Woohoo. I've had a good night. So far. Work went just fine. I have eaten well today. Breakfast was a bowl of special K with 2% milk, and a glass of orange juice. Lunch was a tuna sandwich on whole wheat bread with just a few chips and VERY minimal mayo and half a sierra mist. Dinner was roar chicken, 1/4 cup stuffing or less, 2 scoops of summer squash, and 2 baked potatoes with VERY minimal butter and a tiny bit of ranch dip. It was SOoooo good. I've had 5 water bottles today, which is a bit over 10 cups. I already wrote about my 20 minutes of exercise this morning, but I also went walking again after work with Dan. We walked for 30 minutes!! I'm so happy! I really really enjoy walking.I really don't like running right now. I'm going to keep walking and enjoy my exercise. Dan wants me to start doing yoga again, and I might start doing it. I like feeling flexible. (so does Dan. LOL. :P) it will help me relax about things. And it's great exercise. If I keep having such great days, I just might get to 202 by Friday.

Now I feel like rambling about non-weight loss topics. I have been working really hard lately on trying to be a responsible adult. I've always felt like I was responsible enough. But I want to be a functionable adult. I am going to work as many hours as I can so I can pay my bills, and put money in my savings account for my future family. I will also make time for exercise above my want to sit and watch tv. I need to be healthy. In the future I want to teach my family how important health is, I have to be a good example. I have also been trying to get my errands and chores done before my "leisure" time. I've always been so lazy with that stuff. I've been making to do lists for myself daily. It's been going well for the past week. I feel like more of an adult. I feel I'm doing what I'm supposed to. I'm very pleased. I do want to see my parents more. I've been having trouble getting in touch with the entire half of my father's side of the family. I won't get too far into it, but I haven't seen them in 2 months (actually spent time with them) and I can't get them to return my calls. I feel like they don't want me to be part of their family. And I really miss my 4(almost 5) year old sister. It's just really depressing to think I'm not wanted by part of my family. But I'm really trying to keep that from affecting me too much. I've been keeping myself in a good, productive mood. And I want it to stay that way. But I do still hope my dad calls me back. I'm very grateful for having the family that cares around me. My mom, stepdad, brother, Dan,, dan's mom dad and brother. They all care about me and want me to be happy. My mother has taught me enough that I know it's their loss.

Sorry. This was much longer then I originally expected. I hope tomorrow goes well.

I like your diary! Good luck! You are doing GREAT!!!