HI! I am back, and I have made a new journal. I have been trying SO hard to lose, but sadly enough have only been able to keep off 10 lbs. EEW! I haven't updated my old journal because I have been SOOO stressed out. So even my stress weight is back. I have been trying to lose lately, and realized that I lost the most weight when I was writing in here every day, or more. So i am back. With a plan for success. And I know I can do it. Recent events have proved to me that I can get through whatever it takes to make myself happy.

FRIDAY: Breakfast- 1 bagel with cream cheese, and a glass of milk.
Lunch- yogurt
Dinner- NOT SURE YET.

Exercise- Using the weight bench with added weight to the bar. 50 crunches in my ab chair. I am also in search TONIGHT of other exercises that will work well.

I am going to FORCE my boyfriend Dan into losing weight with me. It would be good for the both of us. And i'm tired of being lazy about caring about myself.

I am 18 years old. And recently have started to think that I really would love to have a baby. Give looks if you will... But i truly want one. I have done all the considering about it. And I truly think i am ready.

But I want to prove it to myself even farther. If I lose all the weight i am trying to, then I know that i can raise a baby well. I know it has nothing to do with each other. But, I have been over weight ALL my life, and have NEVER had a completely successful diet. But to prove to myself that i am as strong and ready to have a baby as I feel I am now... i will lose the weight and get from 210 to 140. Thats 70 lbs away.

I also am upset that I don't have a baby now... its what I want more then anything. Just something about me. I want nothing more then to take care of a son or daughter. Well, needing to lose 70 lbs in a healthy way, is the method i am using to put off having a child.

yes, I've talked to my boyfriend about it, and he wants one too. But we also want to finish college.

Anyways... the past few days I have been resisting my snacking urges. YAY for me. That has always been the hardest for me.

I'm back. And i'm going to kick my own butt into shape. I will post every/every other day. And i will write EVERYTHING down. That way I can get things off my chest, and talk myself through the stupid binging urges i get so often.

hey good luck bmohearn! Keep us informed!

Hi everyone!!

Here is my day SO FAR:

Woke up at 6:45

7:15 Breakfast- 1 bagel (270 cal) with cream cheese (180 cal all together) and a glass of milk(130)

1:45 Lunch- Ham and Cheese sandwich on wheat bread (293 cal all together), a small salad consisting of lettuce, 1 slice cucumber, and zesty italian dressing. (100 ish calories altogether.) and a bottle of water.


That means i am up to 973 calories for the day. Breakfast could have been healthier. Tomorrow I will have yogurt instead.

I'm not sure what is for dinner. Or i would be looking up the calories for that. I want to save room for a snack later on of blueberry yogurt. (only 175 calories)

I'm really only supposed to have 1500 calories. But I think I am going to aim for 1600-1700 calories for my high's. I think i will have trouble fitting everything into the 1500.

I haven't exercised yet today either. BAD ME. But I had work from 8:00 am to 11:30 am (I left early), and when i came home I had a really bad stomach ache... so I decided to lay down until 1:30, and then I went to eat lunch. So not really much time for it.

I DO plan on going on a short 15 minute mile walk. Probably after dinner. And then I will use the weight bench, and a few crunches. I will update tonight to CONFIRM i did all of these.

Since I want to lose 70 lbs, I have decided to cut it up into 10lb increments. I get overwhelmed seeing my icon moving so slowly, but thats just because I am looking at such a wide amount of numbers.

Have a great afternoon!

Hi Bmo lol Brandy!!! Welcome to your new diary! I remember the "baby urge". Nothing would've deterred me!! I had it for 4 years and finally had a baby with a person that became my ex-husband 2 years later Don't get me wrong I am not saying anything about Dan but wanting a baby is such a strong urge and my best advice is enjoy the time you have! Your 20's, which you haven't gotten to yet, is such a great time! A child is a blessing but there is so much time! I did what I wanted to do and I am sure you will too but just wanted to let you know there is so much more for you to do before you have a child! Glad you are thinking about waiting until you are out of school. I would have been so screwed if I didn't have my degree and my job!!
However I digress. Welcome back and I wish you luck with your new program. A great breakfast idea is a low cal/fat yogurt with a 1/4 cup of grapenuts stirred in. Keeps you full. Also a new love of mine is a spoonful of peanut butter with an apple! So good! Talk to you soon!

Howdy,Welcome back,sounds like a great plan for gr8 progress!
I have founf mini cinn/raisin bagles for 100 cals and reduced cream cheese for about 50 cals so 150 and it's pretty fillng also weightwatchers makes 100 calorie mcmuffins so yummy and you can put alot of different thinks on them I have done peanutbutter 1 day(190 cals)the other day egg beaters and canadian bacon 190 cals all under 200.Gl your going to do gr8!Tammy

Thanks for the note on the door! I finally made it to the right diary.

Wow! A baby? For sure lose the weight first. I wish I had. It's so much better for your body (health wise and looks wise), and sometimes even for the baby.

What a lot of great food ideas people have been coming up with here too.

Great move on the snacking!!!!!! Well done!

Mishi- I DEFINITELY appreciate your advice. I feel weird only being 18 and wanting a baby. But I have worked something out. I am not going to start trying to have a child for anther year. and then when I am pregnant I will be finishing college. Which means I can have school, have time to save up for a baby... and everything works out. So many people get married and have a child too early. And i understand that. I don't claim to be able to see the future, but I have a gut feeling, and instincts tell me that it will be a great idea. I like advice, its not like I can talk to my parents about this. I want real advice about an unbiased person. Thank you SO much. YUMMY yogurt idea too. I eat yogurt so slowly for some reason that it keeps me full. I don't know if its my imagination, but if I eat slower, I stay full longer.

Tammy: your bagel idea sounds SOOO good. I think I will go get something like that for myself. I love bagels and cream cheese.

Felici: I am definitely going to lose weight before having a baby. I am planning on trying for a baby in a year from now... So I will be able to lose a lot of weight. And it is definitely a way to keep me on track. I have been doing a lot of research on it, and being a healthy weight while pregnant is very important.


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I have been eating pretty healthy this weekend. I made sure to make lunch at my dad's house so i made a chicken caesar salad. Better then the burgers they would have made. And it was delicious. i was so proud of myself afterwards. I took the healthy option.

As I said in the reply to Mishi.. I am planning on having a baby in a year from now. I am very happy. I figured it out, and I will be able to finish school before I have the baby, and even get an apartment. I feel like my life has made a turn-around. And it is very important to me to have a healthy pregnancy, so i am SOOO determined to lose weight. i will not be deterred.

Tomorrow I have work. Breakfast is going to be a yogurt. Lunch will probably be a granola bar. I am going to start drinking LOTS of water.

I am so happy, and determined, and proud.

Now I need Dan to get a job... So he can help me save up money.

OH YEAH.. MISHI- YOU are so damn close to your goal. HOLY CRAP! great job. i have been away for FAR too long. I'm happy for you.

It's interesting that you think eating slowly keeps you full longer. I am convinced that it helps me feel much more satisfied and able to be happy with less food.

I guess with your brother being so young you have had the experience of seeing up close, how the overwhelming domination of a child impacts on a mother.

Good morning! I wish you luck for the year! You have a lot to do! Make sure Dan gets that job! Babies are expensive! Thank you I am close but it's the last few pounds that are so hard to get to! I have been stalled all summer and I know it's my own fault! I am getting married in a year and I want to be in the best shape when I put on that dress so I will make a new goal in December Hope you have a good day!

Howdy Boam,
Congrats on 3.6 lbs lost so far your off to a great start!
So whats on the menue today?Hope you have a wonderful day
Tammy

Felici- thank you for stopping by. I like eating slowly, but its hard for me. For some reason I always feel short on time when i eat.

Mishi- trust me, Dan WILL be getting a job. And I am working extra hard this year to save up money.

Tammy- I may be completely clueless... but whats boam? lol. I had a bad menu today. Disappointed i must say.

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I had a HORRIBLE day today. But tomorrow I will be so much better.

Schedule for tomorrow: Work out video in the morning, shower, key lime pie reduced fat yogurt (170) for breakfast, Work from 8-3. Dinner: 1 bagel with cream cheese. Lunch: probably a granola bar.


i have to have Danny set up the VHS player to a tv in my exercise area, so i can use the ANCIENT, but affective work out videos. What is a VHS??? hahaha. how long has it been? What will by kids think of a VHS? lol.

I need a good night sleep. A solid 8 hours. Soo... good night.

Hey there Bmohearn,
WOOOHOOOO got the name right I swear I see the name boam everywhere I think it is boam46 and I just wrote her name down for the challange and I guess I typed it here too lol my blondeness is showing.
Ok a bad but like you said a BETTER day tomorrow it gets easier and you can do it!Hope you have a nice day and you will do great,Tammy

This morning is going great so far. I woke up around 8am ON MY OWN!! I went to bed around 10pm... so I had a BEAUTIFUL 10 hours of sleep. I woke up and played a game on my cell phone, and I organized all the school stuff I bought last night at Staples. I'm excited for school to start. I planned out my food for the day, it is filling, and delicious. I laid out a pair of jeans I'm DYING to fit into. (a US size 13, but really the size of an average 11. I am now a size 14/15) I am proud of myself for still being determined. I really want to lose this weight. Even if it means planning out my entire day a week in advanced. I asked Dan's mother to buy some healthy snacks. (grapes, peaches, strawberries, reduced fat yogurt, reduced fat granola bars, veggies) No one else in the house wants to lose weight, but I am going to.

Here's my day:

Breakfast- 10:30- Sesame seed bagel with 3 slices of bacon, a slice of american cheese, and 2 slices of tomato. (a calorie filled breakfast that is semi-healthy i think, filling, and will give me energy throughout the day.)

Lunch- 1:00- a nectarine, and veggies if i can find some (celery I"m thinking.)

*leave for work at 2:00pm, work at 2:30pm*

Dinner- whenever i have a break at work- a granola bar and some fruit.

Leave work at 9:30, home at 10:00pm

I don't know if i really have time to exercise today, seeing as I need to clean my room. But I am going to search for an exercise video. One to do in the morning before work, or after work.

I am working every day but Saturday this week, and even on Saturday I have to go to my sister's party all day. I am working a lot, but oh well. I need to make some money. This past week's paycheck was so small, that I can't do anything with it. whatever I guess. I'll have to make do with what I've got.

I am doing my best not to spend any of my money, AT ALL. Because i honestly do NOT have a room for spending. Not if i want to pay for my bills, ad save up for an apartment.

I'm very determined to lose this weight, but I am not going to weight myself every day. i will eat as healthy as I can every day, but maybe weight myself once a week.

good luck today Brandy! Make sure you eat a decent dinner. You are going to be tired by then! Good job sticking with it even if no one else wants to diet. Every one has to do it on their own time and you have been ready! Have a great day!