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I can TOTALLY relate to feeling frustrated by the scale! I have been dancing around 188 for the past 3 weeks or so, really making me mental. I have increased my walking, make sure to drink all of my water ( and then some), and even joined the gym, for crying out loud! But I think I have learned NEVER to get weighed in at night again...LOL I am sure if I'd gone in the morning, I'd be a full pound less rather than just half. *sigh* What to do, what to do. Keep at 'er, girlfriend! Good luck!

Today has been a good day (thus far) food wise... I actually probably haven't eaten enough.

On to the topic of this entry. I am so sick of my closet being in turmoil. I am sure that many people know what I am talking about. For the past three year I have been buying things that are necessary for the time, but I do not buy more than I absolutely need. I don't buy more that I need because I keep hoping that I will be a smaller size soon. I am so sick of this! I look through my closet every morning and I see very few things that I like to wear (and make me look good) now. I pretty much rotate the same few tops and have one pair of jeans that fits me well now. I have some slacks... but sadly most of them I bought when I was ~ 10lb lighter, so they do not fit very well. They make me look like a balloon. I did just stock up on hooded sweatshirts for the school year... I love hoodies! There is nothing better to go to class in.

I can't wait to be able to go out and buy things to fill my closet with. Nice, small, cute things that I can choose from each day. Not only will they be cute, but they will make me look good! And I will have lots of options. This is going to happen! Next year... this will happen!

OK, that is my rant for the day. I think the rain might let up so I can go for a walk/run tonight. We will see how it goes since I haven't worked out in two weeks.

Thanks to everyone who checked in. I need the support!

Food For the Day:

Breakfast: 1 small banana (90 cal), 1 orange (64 cal)

Snack: Go Lean Chocolate Shake w/FF milk (310 cal)

Lunch: 1 serving five star mushroom soup (cal unknown) ... its a creamy soup, I am going to guess like 300 cal.

Snack: Apple (80 cal)

Dinner: 1 serving instant oatmeal, Optimum Plus (150 cal), cantaloupe (50 cal), whole wheat English muffin (130 cal), 1 tablespoon peanut butter (100 cal)

Total (w/out soup) : 974
w/ soup ~ 1,274

I am a little low today, but I didn't get to go on my run . Sad day. I was feeling really motivated, I just didn't get a long enough break. I did get a paper edited though... always a plus to get things done on a Friday night.

our weather is gonna kill me tiffany lol its already so gloomy! I better not let it get to me we have another............what 6 months of this???

Sounds like your friday we pretty good osrry you didnt get to go on a run perhaps you did this weekend? Keep on going! Hope all is well.

This weekend was a good (much better than last) weekend food wise. I did have more wine than I should have, but I didn't indulge in other things that I could have. I didn't get to work out . I was working on school stuff and running to social events most of the weekend. I AM WORKING OUT TONIGHT. Today I had a few thoughts of "I can't do this while I am in school"... I am eating healthy, but it is difficult to tell myself that I HAVE to workout when I have soo much stuff to do for school.

Well, just as I was having a lot of these thoughts I got some pictures of me at a wedding a couple weeks (I think 3 weeks) ago. OMG! Some of them are horrible!!! Pretty sure I look pregnant in a couple!! It is bad. I will resize a couple and post them on here later. After viewing those... I HAVE to do this now. I look icky! I will walk (at least) tonight for 30 min. I WILL. UGH! I don't know why I keep thinking I am not that fat. I have these thoughts a lot. I feel like I carry my weight well, but then I see pictures and understand that I am just kidding myself!

Anyways, I will try to post pics later (AFTER my walk/run).

I got my workout in today!! When I came home it was raining really hard, but I told myself I was going anyway. The rain ended up stopping while I was running which was nice! I did 10 laps in 30 min. My new shoes are AWESOME! My feet didn't go to sleep at all! It was amazing. I ran much longer than I did before.

So, attached are my pictures. The first one I HATE! (that is my hubby in the background).

The second one makes me look prego (me standing with my mother-in-law).

The next to are just to get a better idea of what I look like.

I guess these are my "before" pics. I think I was about 185 on this day.

Anyways, hopefully I will make it to the gym tomorrow. I need to do something tomorrow and wed to make my goal of working out 3x this week.

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So, first of all: Your husband seems, um, funny, lol. Second- you do NOT look pregnant!! Third, I'm FREAKISHLY jealous of your hair. Its super pretty
Glad you decided to keep going tho- sometimes its hard to do what you need to do with everything else on top of it, totally easy to put it off for later, but somewhere in the back of your head there is a litttttle tiny voice screaming atcha to keep going. I can't say it'll get easier- god knows thats not gonna happen - but keep it up. You've been doing too great a job to stop now!

Great job on getting that workout in! I know its gotta be hard to find time with your schedule. Good to hear you got it in.

I echo jess here you dont look pregnant! I think your goals are so reachable you just gotta keep plunking away at it you'll get there in time! Your attitude is good your realizing what you gotta do. Now the hard part of doing it! Hope all is well!

hey you,
sorry i havent been around! i saw those pics on myspace :P. i dont think you look prego at all!!! anyways, keep up the good work!

Well, I worked out again today! I didn't run as much as I did yesterday. I only did 8 laps. Partly because my muscles were hurting and partly because it got dark on me. I have late classes and I am a little afraid of being out after dark.

Food today was good. I had a protein shake this morning for breakfast (it had orange juice and a banana in it). Then I had a salad and an orange for lunch. Late afternoon snack was some FF vanilla yogurt and an apple. Dinner was a burrito with bison meat and a high fiber tortilla. I had thoughts of going back for seconds, but I resisted! I wasn't hungry, it was just so good that I wanted more!

Thanks for the comments on the pics. I think I am going to wear this same dress again in January to a wedding... so maybe I will have some good comparison pics! It doesn't fit me like the girl in the model pic.... .

One more day of working out to meet my workout goal this week! I shouldn't have a problem getting it in. I get home from work before 6 tomorrow.... hopefully it won't be raining. I have gotten lucky with the rain the last couple days... every time I go out to run the rain has stopped. I was looking forward to a run in the rain today though.

p.s. Jess: my hubby thinks he is funny. I am surprised that I got a picture with him not acting up. His mom took the good pic though, I think he was trying to behave.

lol! to funny... guys can get away with that I think... I'm to busy trying to tilt my head at that "special angle" to avoid 19 chins, no room for misbehaving hehehe.

So how do you make your protein shakes? I work at frickin gnc and I always mix my protein with milk... no excitement. bleh... gimme some ideas!!

So far so good today. I had a protein shake (with orange juice and banana) for breakfast, FF cottage cheese for snack, a small salad (with left over taco meat and refried beans on it) and an apple for lunch, and I just had a ff yogurt a few grapes and two slices of turkey meat for my late snack. I'm not sure what dinner has in store, but it should be good.

I don't know if I am going to run tonight. My body feels tired and I have a lot of stuff to do for school. I might not go tonight and hit the gym in the morning. I need a day of rest. I am really craving some wine. Is that bad?? I am going to have to talk myself out of having some. If I wasn't weighing-in tomorrow I would have some. I might have a glass... it was a stressful and frustrating day at school... we will see. Maybe I will enter my calories today to see if I have some left over .... .

Jess: I do a couple different things with my protein shakes. I used the kashi go lean mix for two reasons. 1) It is high in fiber and 2) it is soy (Whey protein gives me instant headaches... it doesn't matter how much I have). I mix the vanilla with orange juice and a banana. It is also good with pineapple juice. I mix it with juice because I don't really like vanilla, but juice makes it tolerable. The chocolate I mix with milk. I have been drinking it like that recently, but I do like to add banana and peanut butter to it as well if I am super hungry. It sticks with me longer. -- You should try some! Its nice to mix it up once in a while.

Anyways, I will let you all know how it goes. I might go for a small walk... we will see.

Today was weigh-in day!

I lost 2lbs this week! YAY! Its amazing what not binging on the weekend and getting a little exercise will do! I now have under 30lbs to loose! That sounds great to me!

I did end up having some wine last night. I needed it, school sucked yesterday. But, even with the wine my calories rounded out at ~1600. I am also thankful that I didn't run last night. My body feels much better today.

OK so goals for next week...

1) Be good this weekend (we are going to Levenworth for October fest, so we will see how that goes).
2) Workout at least 4 times.
3) Loose 1.5 lbs (on track to b-day goal).
4) continue bringing lunch to school (this has been super helpful)

Sorry I haven't stopped by anyones diary recently. School is crazy. I have a paper due tomorrow that I need to get a solid rough draft of done today! I will try to stop in this weekend.

Have fun at octoberfest I have heard that the one out there in Levenworth is crazy fun. I have been to Levenworth a few times but never for octoberfest.

Congrats on the loss this week you did a great job! Under 30 to go to your goal the end is in sight!! You can do it. Have a great weekend tiffany!!