Hey! Just checking in. Glad to hear you are making it to the gym. I didn't make it once this week. Ahh... the woes of school. Maybe next week.

Hot arms would be great! I totally feel you with the friends sabotages. I haven't said anything about diet to ppl at school, but they look at me funny with all my "healthy" food. I just want to be hit on by random men again (I am married, but it just makes a girl feel good). I haven't been hit on at a bar or out anywhere in a long time... sad day. Maybe I am just old, frumpy and fat. Eh... a topic for another day.

I hope you are having a good day!

Tiff- I totally know what you mean about just feeling good when a random hot guy hits on ya. I dated this guy that looked like Edward Norton for a little bit( noone laugh. I think that guy is HOT lol) and it WAS back about twenty pounds ago, and I seemed to get more attention than my friends. Ahhhh, I loved it, hehehe. Well, Kinda I guess. There was a lot of unwanted attention too... *shiver*

MJB: Glad your back finally! I missed you


Ok, so again, today started fine, food was going well, then went to a friends house, ahem, and ate a crapload of nachos Why??? Why ME?? I don't understand my loss of willpower when I'm not even really hungry for that particular item... GAAA!

Gym tonight- first night I've done crunches... EEk. I'm fairly certain I'll be feeling that in the morning... Did 30 minutes of cardio, it SAYS just over 400calories burned, but we all know that that isn't neccessarily true. Did some weights again. Yup.

Friday night, being that its my first official weekend of not working at the gym, a bunch of friends and I are going out. Not gonna lie, I'm a little bit nervous.. I hardly EVER drink, but when I do, holy cow. I can pretty much drink with the best of them, not a good thing. Even if I say, ohhh, only one beer. It leads to three, then five, then a few shots. I DO NOT wanna regain the 8lbs I've worked my butt off to lose... so hopefully I can practice some willpower!

Hey Jess,
I used to and sometimes still do the same thing, like grabbing the nachos. Sometimes its a mind trick, where we think, we will never get to eat it again and grab for it and pretty much inhale it

or

there is because we are not eating enough during the day ...and binge at night...or just binge...

I have done both and it certainly is no fun! I hope you get control over it. .. I totally know how you feel... even now I have a hard time saying no sometimes ... its difficult ...

but anyway .. you kick ass on the eliptical ..lol .. I don't know if I could survive that thing ..lmao ...but I love walking and biking .. So I shall stick to that!

ttylater hun
love yas
always
natalie jo

Jess

Sounds like you did a great workout. Hopefully countered the, ahem, nachos..... ha-ha I know how you feel its hard that willpower thing is biatch. Right now its a pain in my house with the willpower. Apparently my roommate had a big party while I was away and there's a lot of leftovers, Chili, Ice cream, lasagna, chocolate milk all things I loooove and it is so hard to not have any at the moment.

Just gotta keep focusing on the goal and know that if we give into it its just gonna take that much longer to get to it.

Anyway im excited to hear about your first night out in a while! Don't go to crazy but do go and have a good time you deserve it! Hope all is well!
~Travis

Today was an uber crappy day. I've decided that I hate GNC. lol. No, the problem is that I love my job, I'm good at what I do, and my customers love me... I've been the manager for almost a year, and in that time, my inventory has been the best its been in five years(still trying to get the loss lower tho) my numbers are better than the last two managers, and again, I KNOW what I'm doing. But EVERY time I turn around, corporate is threatening everyone with something new. Your gold card % is low, up it, or your fired. Doesn't matter that our numbers have been hitting TWICE what the minimum is suppose to be for the LAST FOUR MONTHS. They'll just fire me if this week is bad.. psh. Rediculous. Its little crap like that. They micro-manage the hell outta that place, and it REALLY pisses me off. Theres already two people above me quitting because of everything going down, and I think I'm gonna put my resume out there and see what I can get. Shitty part is tho- what else am I good at?? I've done this for so long that its all I know, ya know? GRRRR. So I was just depressed all day. A friend called and wanted to hang out and I said, nah, I'm tired, just gonna stay home. And I watched like four hours of tv. stupid.

HOWEVER- a little good news, hehe. After work, since it was SUCH a crappy day, I wanted a giant mochachip blizzard at DQ, and I seriously drove maybe three miles outta the way just to get one...I get there, pull into the parking lot, and said to myself: You are sooo dense! Its not worth it! So, I turned around and came home. And had a bowl of peaches n cream oatmeal lol. It was good. But I imagine the blizzard would have REALLY cured all the worlds problems, and made me feel better. Ahhhh, life sucks somedays...hahaha.

Gym tonight: did some more crunches, weights, and only 25 minutes on the elliptical- about 325cals, 1.6 miles. I did cut a few minutes off my time, just cuz I'm beat, tired, wanna crash... But it went by really fast cuz I was watching Sorority Boys... HAHAHA! Oh my goodness, I love that movie.. Thank god I go to the gym at 1am so theres noone to look at me like I'm nuts for laughing like a shetland pony. (honestly- I don't know what a shetland pony sounds like. But I assume it would sound a little something like a fat girl dyin on the elliptical )

Alrighty everyone- not doing the gym tomorrow night- going out, gonna have FUN. Been a while since I've had it. Should be nice, yeah? I'll talk to ya all prbably Saturday

Hey Jess!
Sounds like the Blizzard was going to be "comfort food"
Good job on resisting .. I know those things can be OH SO good! lol
but anyway .

ttylaterz hun
I have to study for a midterm

ttylaterz
love yas
always
natalie jo

Jess that blizzard story made me smile! You are awesome, so proud of you to resist it even though it would have been so good. Ice cream of any kind is my undoing lol. Sounds like you had a another great workout too so overall a pretty solid week for you great job!

Have fun tonight and take some time for you!

As far as your job you have been managing for a year? then Jess you have a good amount of experience. Post all that you have done in a cover letter with your resume and I am sure you will find lots of people wanting your expertise. If you like I have a really great cover letter, obviously its catered to my skills but you could use it as a template to construct yours if you don't already have one. I'd be happy to share it with you if you like.

Anyway again have fun tonight rip up that town with you friends!

Travis- that would be awesome! Realllly. You know what else I hate about new jobs? I suck at interviewing. lol. Hate em.

So yeah- hurt my back again. Not as bad as the first time, but its aweful uncomfy, thats for sure..

Oh man. So, I had a weekend, thats for sure. I'm from this litttttle tiny town called Baker, its about 220 miles from where I am now, and my dad still lives there. Well, Baker is a class b school, one of the best football teams in Montana. They had to come up to the Billings area for a game, so my dad came to watch it, and my little sister and I went with him to the game. Ok- so a few things: I straightened my hair right before we left for the game cuz ya know, my friends and I were going out that night, right after the game. Well, by the END of the game, my hair was uber curly again. Crappy! (I don't know why tho, it wasn't raining or anything, maybe there was a little moisture in the air...) Anyway, that was a little off topic, lol. Also- the Huntley Project high school is RIGHT NEXT to a feed lot. EWW. We smelled like cow poop by the time we got home. It was so gross. So Lacey and I are standing on the sidelines there, and there was this BEAUTIFUL man. All by his lonesome. What I wouldn't give to be hot! I woulda marched right over and given him my number. Heckkkk yes. So pretty, lol. So after the game(Baker lost, first loss of the season) we get home, I RE-straighten my hair, which was a huge pain, and then went to our favorite place. I really didn't drink much, which was fine, not looking to get drunk at all... So anways, I told them about the pretty boy I saw earlier, sang some karaoke, went to perkins, and I ordered a cheeseburger I know... bad! But everyone made fun of me, cuz when it got to the table, I looked at it and said, Oh man. I do NOT wanna tell the forum about this... lol. So they laughed and laughed, and this really creepy guy at the table next to us says really loud to his friend- "Honestly, I don't care if a girl weighs 300 or 400lbs. Its whats inside that counts." And then stares at me. Ummm, eww? I don't weigh that much, yes, it is inside what counts, and uh, NO THANKS! So. that was my Friday night.
Saturday, my friends Chris and Katie and I went to watch another friend DJ at a bar, and we're sitting there, drinking water, and this really hot guy walks by. Katie notices him right away and points him out. I turn to throw a casual glance thataway, and GUESS WHAT. lol. It was Mr. Lonesome from the football game. Creepy right? hehehe, I thought it was. So me and my lack of confidence decides to ask him if he was there, he said yes, introduced himself, bought me a drink, blah blah blah. We all drank way to much then... Seriously, bad. We all go back to my house, he makes us omellettes( I didn't actually eat one tho...sad.) we all hang out and just have a good time, and then after he leaves, the alcohol really hit me. HARD. I ended up puking all over my bathroom, my clothes, oh my god. How embarrasing! Looking back on it- there were a few reasons for that...I really haven't drank in about a year, the only thing I ate was a friggin pretzel from the mall and a granola bar on the way out the door to the bar. Also- Usually when I drink, I drink a glass of water to every glass of alcohol... DIdn't do that either. SOOO. Today I had the worlds worst hangover, had a bit of cleaning to do(bleh) and got to listen to my other sister bitch at me for being so loud.

I had my weekend of boozin it up. NO MORE OF THAT! I'm sure I gained everything back with all the beer and stuff. Not pleasant at ALL. I definately have my work cut out for me this week...I leave for Missouri in 10days, and still need to get down four pounds. I don't think it'll happen. I'm gonna really hafta watch the food and get some major exercising in...

Well, thanks for letting me tell pointless stories, I appreciate it Sometimes I get carried away on the little details(like my hair, for gods sake!!) and if anyone actually reads all that- well, thanks hahah!

Ugh! Being hung over is the worst! I am so surprised that I wasn't. Puking is bad too... :S. Hopefully the scales wont treat you that bad!

Where do you live in MT?? I have family and used to live in Kalispell. My dad went to MSU too, so we spent a few years in Bozman.

Wishing you a quick recovery!

Thanks Tiffany! I live in Billings, bout 1 1/2hrs from Bozeman. I like Montana, except for a year when I lived in Minnesota, I've been here my whole life, and I decided its pretty much the perfect size for a city. 100,000 people is it, biggest in MT, but after being near Minneapolis, I've decided a little smaller is a lot better, lol.

Well guys- right now is about when I usually go to the gym...and I have decided that I'm not going tonight... I know, bad! But I just wanna sit in my sweatpants and chug water... tomorrow tho, I shall be there...
Anywho- off for tonight

So sorry you got a bit sick it happens. But overall it was a fun weekend no? Thats good. Get over that hang over then you'll be set for a good week and hopefully a great weigh in day!

I think i may still be a bit intoxicated from the seahawk game......man they look like crap. another story


I hope your feeling better by now!


ps: Shoot me a PM with an email address you want me to send that cover letter and stuff to

A bit sick? Oh no. This was UBER sick. It was horrible..I still feel a little bit icky today.
Travis- Sorry the seahawks were crappy... Always a downer. Good thing you had beer lol

So, I get to work today, think about alllll the bad food I ate, and allllll the booze I drank, and I just KNEW that I gained everything back. So I decided to weight myself on the annoying GNC scale(go to the mall, you'll see what I'm talking about ) and ya know what it tells me? DOWN 4 lbs! How aweful, haha! I'm thinking, wow, great job on those four lbs, but then I'm thinking to myself- damn. I only had to puke for a few hours to get it that way. Ugggh. I would rather have gained four lbs than puke it up I think. Anyways, I'm definately going to the gym tonight, but first, I'm takin some ibuprofen for this massive headache I still have two and a half days later, gonna read a skinny magazine, and just mellow myself out. I need it... well, really, I probably DON'T need it, but its something to look forward to, hehe.

I might be back later on to update my progress. Or not. I can't decide. Seeya later!

I DID decide to pop on and update my gym stuff. Eh, it was an ok workout... I did like sixty crunches, some chest and shoulder stuff, and then did 25min cardio. Overall: Coulda been better. Coulda been worse. So, I guess in the middle is better than not at all.
Off to bed now... work in six hours. Woohoo.

Hi Jess, hope you're feeling much better now! There's nothing worse than a really icky hangover.. (actually, there are LOTS of things worse, but it doesn't feel like that at the time does it!)

you late night posters are crazy!

Great job on getting into the gym. Any workout is better than no workout.

And big gratz on the 4 pounds that totally awesome! Even though it wa s painful way to get it that is a nice big loss that has to make you feel great!

Hopefully work for you went well today and I sent those documents over to ya hope they can be of some help to ya!