thankyou for posting in my diary!! its beeen a longgg time..

wow, i could not stay up on 6 hours or less of sleep lol, i am not a morning person. just reading hte other pages of your diary, but as im reading from the most recent post im getting it all in reverse which is very confusing...yeh i have no logic.

talk to you later

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Hey everyone! Food was pretty fantastic today...altho, I'm gonna admit, after I worked out, I was craving green beans.. Interesting, yeah? lol, so I had about 30cals worth of green beans they were tastylicious. Really didn't do me any good as a post workout meal, but oh well...lol.

Travis- thanks for those docs... I don't know that my experience will fill them up as well as yours, hehe, but I'm definately gonna try

Janez, Lexia: Thanks for showin support And yeah, I woke up this morning and still had a headache... ARRGH! I'm all good now, but I think I'm completely done drinking. FOR SURE.

Ah, it is late... four am. I'm beat.. I'm gonna go to bed, I'll talk atcha later!

Glad those documents are helpful. Its important to remember and I am sure you know this that with any job application you are selling yourself. So go that extra mile really sell yourself you deserve it!

OMG your a Nip/tuck fan like me too? haha I own every season on dvd I am a bit of a nut for the show. I thought last season was bleh but I am excited to see where they go from here. Such a guilty pleasure that show!

Anwyay hope you day goes well today! Keep up the good work!

Well, food was good today, I was right at about 1700cals, all relatively healthy to I will admit I needed some chocolate, and had two pieces of halloween candy- BUT- at least I didn't eat a whole bag, woohoo!! I REALLY feel like thats an accomplishment. Normally, I would totally pig out, no questions asked.
My little sister came to the gym with me tonight...HAHAHA!!! Oh my goodness, shoulda seen it. Shes this little 125lb thing(yeah, uh, apparently that doesn't run in the family ) and shes never really worked out. But lately shes been saying that she wants to get into shape, cuz even skinny people can be out of it. So, I had to show her how to use all the machines, and half of em she couldn't handle about ten pounds...hehehe. She looks at me about half way thru it and says- You do this every night???- it was great. So we did a little bit of arms and a little bit of legs- just so she could see how to use the machines, and honestly, eh, that was probably not the best idea. I say, lest go do cardio... Lacey says, Whats cardio?? hahahaha! Seriously. It was hysterical... We did about five minutes on the stair stepper- the big one- and we were dying afterwards. Then we did the eliptical for a bit- not VERY long tho, coulda been better, but Lacey was seriously about done with it, hahaha. Her skinny little arms were shakin like mad! Overall, it was a good workout tho.

AND- it was an early night. We went to the gym at 11:30pm, I usually don't go till about 1am..so I should be fairly rested tomorrow

I'm off, I'll post tomorrow!

Hi Jess!

Hope you've completely recovered from your boozy night out by now - sounds like you had some hangover (Oh..and don't be too sure that you'll *never do it again*...I can't remember how many times I said that when I was a student )

Good luck with the job-hunting - I can sympathise about interviews btw...I either turn into some kind of babbling nitwit and say at least ten things that make me curl up and die when I think about them later or I clam up and can barely remember my own name

Hope the weight is still going in the right direction - sounds like you're back on track after the weekend!

I kinda blew it today with food... Its because this morning I only had a protein bar at about 9:30am, and then didn't eat again until 7pm. So I went with 140cals all the way til then. Bad, I know... So, when I had supper, it wasn't so unhealthy- I had a grilled chicken breast, some au gratin potatoes, and some broccolli. Potatoes were probably the worst for me, and I DID have more than one serving, sooo yeah. So then afterwards, I reallly needed a chocolate fix! I'm sorry! I'm such a failure! So I had a medium mocha chip blizzard... but they did skimp on the mocha chips, lol, so there was a tiny bonus. After the gym, I had some peas(seriously, I have this crazy craving for veggies after the gym....weird), and THEN had two asiago cheese rolls... Oi vei. I've got some major damage control to do tomorrow...

The gym was pretty good tho. My little sister came with me again, and we did about thirty minutes of weights, and then did cardio... We did five minutes on the stair mill again, second night wasn't quite as hard as the first night then got on the treadmill. I seriously hate the treadmill, but when I'm with someone, and can't watch tv or listen to my music, the treadmills probably the best way to go. Problem is- I can't go more than 3.5-4mph! EVER! It took me twenty friggin minutes just to do a mile. Sad. But my butt feels it now, and thats a good thing I guess lol.

K, its four am, I gotta go to bed- takin my car in to get the oil changed at 9am, back home to clean, bleh, do some shoppin later- realllly need to find something cute to wear to that wedding. AND I gave myself the day off at the mall, so yay for that!

I will talk to everyone later, hopefully with better news than I had tonight...

wow, you seem to be doing really well for the most part... I wouldn't say you went to bad yesterday (But i don't even know how much you actually wiegh... so ignorance is bliss right :P

I'll say the usual supportive things, keep it up, stick to it, think of how it will be when you lose the weight you want & so on.

Finally. umm, what the hell is a medium mocha chip blizzard?

Bad weekend. Don't even wanna talk about it. Didn't go to the gym tonight either, no real reason...just being lazy.... Soooo, yeah. I leave in two days, have a ton of crap to do... probably not gonna get the stuff done that needs to be done exercise wise. Excuses, I know. But I'm hoping that this well timed mini vacation will help me a bit...
Will be back tomorrow.

its all good jess chalk it up to a bad time and move on. I didn't do so hot this weekend ether. So we can both just ignore those 2 days and get right back on track! Its a long process so we are gonna stumble once or twice. No worries just getting back on is the key. I know today at least its gonna be a hard run for me I am really gonna push myself. Do your best to get to the gym and really push In the long run it will make you feel better! Hope all is well and keep your head up!

I finally have time to check-in with everyone! Keep your head up on the bad weekend. Mine wasn't great... but I figure if I make up for it by going to the gym then it all evens out eventually... right?

Did you find something for the wedding? I hate clothes shopping right now. Most of the things that I have are loose, but I don't want to buy in-between clothes. That always makes me feel like I should stay the same size for a little while so it is not a waste.

Hopefully you had a better day today!!!

TIffany: Yeah, found somethin kinda cute to wear, even found shoes. I hate shoes. Wish I could just wear flipflops everywhere, lol.
Travis: I know, I know... bad weekend. bleh. I hate them!! After my little trip is over, I'm hittin it hardcore...I feel better when I workout, but when I don't workout, I just eat and eat....weird, yeah?

Well guys- today was strange... I'm excited to get outta Montana for a bit- REALLY excited, lol. Even happier to get away from my store for a while to, I need a break from that place, man! Bleh! Now GNC is saying they are taking all the commission away from employees and not upping the minimum wage base pay... I think thats crap, and I can almost guarantee I'll lose an employee or two over it. Grr. Soooo, break, here I come. Bad food, beer, spending money...AHHH!!! What a way to go, lol. So the stranger part is, I'm a little depressed today... Maybe for the same reasons? Not working out, feeling blah cuz of it, eating to much, and in general just wanting to leave town and never come back. Psh. Things will be better tomorrow when I land in another state, I know that. So, when I come back, everyone kick my butt, please??

I doubt I'll get to hop onto the site while I'm gone, so I'll see everyone in about six days

Have a good trip, Jess! Sounds like you could really use a break right now. With any luck you'll come back with renewed purpose (or there'll be some butt-kicking going on )

You CAN do it...we all can.

Have a good trip SOrry I haven't checked in before now.

I think it's good that, if you waver one day, you pick yourself up and get on with it the next, rather than presuming you've just blown it and that's that.

Hey Jess I think your back soon? I hope so and I hope your trip was a blast! I can't wait to hear about it!

Ah, the end of a vacation.... Glad to be home, sleep in my own bed, drive my own car, go back to work. BUT, now I hafta go back to work, deal with crap, work out, eat healthy...lol. No, honestly, the trip itself was fun, the wedding was really nice, and it was nice to get away for a bit. I had a few problems tho.. One thing I've been realllly proud of(even tho I'll have a hamburger and fries at perkins or stuff like that) I haven't been to a fast food restaraunt in almost two years- no mcdonalds, taco bell, taco johns, wendys, etc. and I have not drank any pop in the same amount of time, I love water, will drink it with everything. Problem: My sister and I ate at White Castle once, and Jack in the Box twice I am soooo mad at myself! I used the excuse that I wasn't going to eat anything that we have in Montana... and there are none of either of those in Montana. Also- Missouri has really crappy water...bleh. Usually a lot of lemon will help with that, but no. Not this water. I get chills thinking of how bad it was... SO I had one dr. pepper and a sip of my sisters sprite on the plane back. The rest of the trip I did just buy bottled water. And not to mention wedding food. Yikes! I ate sooo much chocolate that I don't know if I ever wanna eat it again! lol, I exaggerate. Psh. I'll want chocolate in probably a few days. Such is life, yeah?
Oh, and Friday night me, the maid of honor, one bridesmaid and another girl all took the bride out. We were in a pretty small town, couldn't find a friggin bar! WHAT???! So we went to Applebees- but it was awesome! Turns out I have this crazy skill of getting guys to buy all the drinks Poor girl puked a few times, I didn't drink that much tho- after the last time I drank, I think never again, lol.
My sister and I went to Branson Sunday night(we followed the newlyweds home, thats where they live) cuz we realllllly wanted to do SOMETHING touristy while we were on vacation, but we got there so late(I think it was 10ish at night) that we were only able to go to the wax museum and Ripleys believe it or not. They were both fantastic tho, so it was fun.
On Saturday my sister said she wasn't feeling to good, and guess what? By Sunday night, I caught the flu from her, and we're both miserable, and my muscles ache, and my stomach hurts, and my throat, arrggghh!! I don't wanna be sick... I hate being sick... Hoping I'm better quick tho, cuz I hadta fire one of my employees from MO! She decided not even to show up for her shift on Sunday(on Sundays only one person works the whole shift, only seven hours) and didn't call anyone, and the mall says they still have the old managers number, which I think is TOTAL crap, so NOONE called me, corporate, or one of the other employees to work. I'm angry. But, after that trip, I guess I could use the overtime, haha.

Anyways guys, that was a lotta babbling, I apologize Healthy food back on track tomorrow, hoping to work out tomorrow night, but I'm not gonna lie, it sorta depends on how crappy I still feel Thanks for checkin in on me everyone!