hello all!

AHH!! My diary... here goes... first of all i'll tell you a bit about myself...

My name is Nancy, I'm 24 years old, i've been married, uhm... 4yrs 7months and i weight too much. I used to not all ways been a "big girl". As a kid i was very thin, in middle school and high school i played soccer so i was always in great shape, super fit. Then my senior year of high school i dislocated my knee cap playing soccer. Running was my passion i ran at least 5 miles everday... =( So no more running for me... i couldnt run 1/4 of a mile without my knees beginning to pop.

I've been 5'6 since the 9th grade.... and i weight 130.. most of it was muscle...

after i got married in 2003 was where most of the weight gaining began... where in a 4-5 year span i've gained about 60-70lbs! -sighs-


im ready to make the change... i've been ready..
last year in november (2006) i actually started a very strict diet. that consisted of... egg whites in the morning... for lunch i would eat slices of turkey brest ham... or throughout the day when i would get hungry... and dinner i would eat a grilled chicken breast.. and also if i would get hungry i would drink water or eat slices of cucumber with lime and chili powder (mouth waters) mm... and thats it... i would hit the gym at least 4 times a week...
1st week i lost 7lbs
2nd week i lost 4lbs
3rd week i lost 3lbs
4th week i lost 2 lbs.
this diet went on for the whole month.. i with an occasional saturday or sunday salad... (just lettuce) occasionally lightly dipped in thousand island dressing.

then there was thanksgiving, christmas, new years.. tsk tsk tsk... lol
and being hispanic.. 'tamales' is the main food source. haha!

i maintained the 16lb weight loss for about 3 months. i felt GREAT!!!

but now i've gained it all back.. blah!

i really want to lose weight, not only for myself but for my marriage. i hate looking the way i do and i refuse to dress or undress in from of the hubby. he tells me im beautiful and i want to belive him... but how can i do that when i hate the way i look and i dont believe it myself.

-sighs-

i have to do this! I know i can... i just ... so frustraded.


face shots are my favorite cause it hides whats below the neck.

http://i29.photobucket.com/albums/c2...p/P6213705.jpg

its hard to find a full body pic since i refuse to take and or if someone does take one with my camera i will delete it. soo for now until i take one here is this one..

http://i29.photobucket.com/albums/c2...11_06_0726.jpg

you are beautiful... you should believe him...

Spend some time reading around the forum, especiallly the stickied threads - to get some information on a suggested number of calories and workout plans... you can do what you put your mind to - no reason to be frustrated... just take it one day at a time...

thank you! i am trying to go through as much as the forum as possible.. i'm addicted to it now. i plan to join some of the challenges as well.
im just excited i've found this site!

I totally understand the packing on pounds after marriage situation! My husband tells me I look the same as before, which I know is a blatant lie.

Good luck!! You will do great!

I love the first picture of you, you look very beautiful in it :-)

And you carry your weight really well. I am looking forward to hear updates some updates.

thanks girls....well that 2nd picture... i dont think thats a good picture... i mean to me its a GREAT picture cause you can notice all the fat everywhere which is proabably the main reason why i kept it and didnt delete it... but i promise i will take a picture where you can really tell!

grr...

im trying to find some candid shots where im proabably not sucking it in... which might be weird cause now "sucking it in" is like second nature to me... i do it without even knowing...


at home its really hard to eat healty since the hubby is not actually trying to lose weight... and he is extreamly picky and will NOT eat any kind of vegtable.. so i cook for him some yummy food and then there is me eating a grilled piece of chicken breast.... =| its very hard to not 'give in'. and eating healthy is expensive... i think. why is salad more than a steak!??! it doesnt make any sence to me. haha oh well...

oooooooooooooooooo yea... i meant to ask you all....
and this can be up for discussion in here if ya'll want...

i saw this friend of mine the other day...and i dont see her on a regular basis... so when i saw her i was like... akfdladjfkl
she had lost at least .... 30 lbs... and i asked her her 'secret' she said she had been seeing this 'acupuncturist' which really wasnt acupuncture it was more of these tiny little balls placed in certain pressure points... and that it was helping her lose weight... anyways... i was wondering if anyone else had tried that... im curious..

i dont want to give in to crazyness... could it all just be mental?

You should def. try to get a not sucking in picture. Get the most unflattering, realistic picture you can, because then once you make some progress and take another picture, you will see the results in vivid detail. You're very pretty and I agree you carry your weight quite well -- I never would have thought you weighed as much as you do, trust me that's a compliment

As for the acupuncture... I seriously doubt you can really attribute that kind of weight loss solely to acupuncture.

uh.. thanks. yea i dont think so either... i mean... she execised and tries to eat well... thats why i think its all in her head. i dunno.

I think the whole acuncture thing is just a placebo. She must have had some diet/excercise routine for that.

By the way, I was away for a year and when I came back I noticed all of my friends lost weight and I was the only one I gained. Do you get that strange feeling (not jelaousy but something weirder) when people around you lose/gain weight? It's just... It gets my attention more than anything else. Like I would notice more if someone lost/gained weight than if someone got some new clothes or something.

Ever had that experience?

yes!! i know exaclty what you mean. its like.. "oh really,.. you got your hair cut?" when im noticing if thier arms look slimmer or their bellys flatter...

ok.. well im in the car club scene and there is this girl that i see at shows sometimes... she's not my friend or anything... but she wasnt THAT BIG i mean.. she was maybe like i dunno a good 185 i guess... i would see her at car shows maybe like twice a month.. then one day she showed up and was like a freaking 130!!!!

adkfl;djf;dlkasjf?!?!??! wtf. what happened? where did it go? how did oyu do it? didnt i just see you like 3 weeks ago and it was all there?

sooo since i dont talk to her or anything... i sent one of my friends over that does talk to her to ask her what had helped her .. (very high school, i know!) anyways.. she had said... absolutely no sugar, which i find it very hard... and taebo. sure! i guess.

my hubby says im just hating. lmaoooo (ok maybe just a little bit) but i use that to motivate myself too.. im like... if she can do it so can i.