HI my dear friend!! I smiled when I read your entry about starting this diary due to a NEW start of your life now, AHHHH that makes total sense and I'm proud of you, you've come quite a way since I first logged into this website! your a power house and you'll make it through just about anything I'm sure of that!! You do have your hands full right now, I don't know how you keep it all together. Kids alone are a 24-7 job, let alone caring for others who need your total attention too, WOW you just always amaze me. Well, I wish you the BEST of luck in your NEW start and journey, I know you'll make it there. Lots of love and hugs girl!!
Kim

Came by to shine some sunshine your way! Smile life is too short not to!!

Howdy Cerella, Just poking my nose in to see how things are going?Hope you are getting a break and you are in the bahama's or somewhere like that hahah OH well it's good to DREAM!Have a nice day Tammy

Hi Cerella! I'm so sorry I haven't checked in on you for so long.

How's everything going?

Cerella, wishing you some love and giving you some virtual energy!! I hope you're making healthful choices and looking forward to hearing from you more!

Cerella doll...

wanted to drop in to check up on you. So did the girls dress up for Halloween? Did you take pix?? I hope you're doing well. That beautiful face of yours is being missed, damnitt.

-Sheryl

hm.. MIA again?

or is she the invisible woman for halloween! Hope all is going great.

Hey cerella, gotta love chatting with you on msn and through text. Its a blast when both of us aren't super busy or tired. lol anyways, hope you are doing well and can't wait to chat with you again soon.

heather

Have a great week Cerella!!

where R ya???????

Thanx everyone for checking up on me and for caring...Well restartign didnt get off on a good foot...I do truly mean it and I will...I will fill you in on my life lately...

For starters I just finally finsished my last shift of nights that I have been doing for two weeks....this has screweed up my whole family life and my kids...my oldest is flying outta control cuz im not around and when I am I am sleeping and or exhausted. My youngest is all outta sorts as I am not really around...she doesnt understand I go to bed wh en I come home and she is always at the daycare adn so on and so on...lol...

it has become a true proven point - my household falls apar when I am not consistantly there...

Also and ok this is big and I am not sure how ppl will react but time to get it out there...

The x and I are seeign eachother again...things have been going really well...we are communicating and working together we are getting along and spending a fair amount of time together...he is beign a good father...an involved father...

We have gone out on a few dates and have spent family time together...he go over there to visit and he cooks and takes care of the kids...it has been nice...we have had a cpl mishaps of miscommunicationa dn such but he resolved it by talking through it and such - he hasnt run away and neither have I...

I am truly happy and we ahve decided that we will continue on as we are and let things progress at tehre own pace and naturally and see where it goes...I want this and he seems to be more serious than before and making efforts...I have seen some great positive changes...it hs been a cpol of months now...

IU honestly never thought I would ever go back...never ever...but here I am and it has been workign so far...Im pretty superstitious and havent wanted to jinx it so I havent said much to many ppl...plus we arent really offically back together just seeign eachother...

I honestly think if things can continue on as they have beent hat we honestly have a good chance of gettign back together...I can see it happening and I want it...and i really feel he does this time - like he is ready finally to grow up and make the effort...

He is the man I love and hte only man I have loved and wanted for years...only tiem will tell but so far so good...usually he sees Taneesha once he have sex within a cpl of days and he is gone...this has been a cpl of months now...and the sex is better than ever!!!

We have both told eachother htat our hearts cant take another round of everything in the past and are focusing on talking abt things and through them...

I will refocus and restrart on Monday - I need too...Im gonna cry when I post my startign weihgt i have gotten up there...crazy ass shifts rarely home and so on...

Anywy Im gonna start putitng my efforts back into the diaries of those I liek and who support me and on loosing weight by eating properly and exercising!!!

I am back!!!

HI Beautiful!
Don't fret the weight. I really hope that your children can behave themselves and I'm sorry the little one is having trouble not having you around Have a fun time with John and let us knoe how things go!

Howdy Cerella,
Glad to c-ya back safe and sound,you sound like your drained but by MONDAY hopefully you will start to feel better and less sressed.As far as your "X" follow your heart you know if things don't workout he knows where the door is and if things do continue to work out that would be so gr8 for you and your kids.I am sooooo glad your back,Tammy

Hey cerella, you know how i feel about the x situation its all up to you and john to really make it work. So far things seem to be going great and while i know you don't want to jinx it just having the support from friends and stuff helps a great deal. Believe me most of my family wasn't happy when i decided to continue my marriage to dh but now that i am working on it and we are really happy again. I know that you and john can be that way too as long as you continue to work at it together.

I'm happy that your finally restarting working out and i'll help you in anyway i can as far as challenges or whatever you want to do. I'm so ready to say seeya to the 230's and hello to the 220's if not lower. So lets do this... i know we can.

heather

Thanx Heather

Weight 225 - eeewww