breakfast: cake (sounds wierd yeah, but its all that was there. was unfrosted... white cake... and that was all)
i dont know what else really. um.. might have had special k, and... some tostitos with cheese.
then for dinner i made some homemade mack n cheese with elbow mack and cheese soup with colby sprinkled on top.
almost thru the gallon from the other day... and the green tea...

Got my yoga video today and tried it out. gonna have to do it a few more times before i really digg it. anywho. thats all for now.

Keep it up girl!!! You can do it! *waves pom poms*

yay for new friends.


anywho. i found this on someone elses diary and thought id do it too. Im a sucker for surveys... and i got some time... so here goes



-- How much weight do you want to lose?
150ish total would be great. short term is 35 from starting wt.

-- What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight?
for the short term.. i think sometime during summer is acceptable. long term.. well, over a year.

-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)?
Exercise and eating healthy.

-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal?
being accountable here... i think the warmer weather will make things better and once some pounds come off things will get easier.

-- How realistic is your goal?
fairly realistic.

-- When will you start?
April 1

1. What is your current height and weight?
5'2 282.5

2. If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be?
150ish. idk i havent looked into what is reccomended yet.

3. At what weight would you like to be at four months from now?
250

4. Why do you want to lose weight?
health, appearance, to become who i know i am

5. Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? If so, when is that event?
nothing specific, but i am graduating and after summer moving on to the 'real' world

6. What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals?
partying... lack of self confidence

7. Why do you think that you now have a weight problem?
I have had wt problems all my life and have been relatively comfortable and accepted. but... now its just getting to me.

8. What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight?
walking. food choices. etc
9. Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight?
nope.
10. Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back?
i didnt care. mom was pushing it and naturally i wanted to go against what mom said.
11. What, if anything, has not worked for you in the past in helping you to lose weight? Why do you think it did not work?
specific foods, bored/sick of food, used to go to curves with mom, but she always gave up, and im not one to go by myself.

12. Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time?
Yes.
13. Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook?
um. yes and no
14. How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go?
Not much
15. What are your three favorite foods?
ice cream, chicken, dairy
16. What are your three favorite restaurants?
noodles and co, applebees... and... idk
17. What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food?
no junk, more good stuff and... portions
18. If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different?
shape and size
19. Do you eat when you are not hungry?
sometimes
20. Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)?
sometimes
21. Do you hide your food or eat in secret?
no. i live by myself really, so theres noone to hide from..
22. Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed?
sometimes
23. Do you eat as a reward?
hrm.. dunno
24. Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer?
yes. my desk is my table
25. What do you normally eat for a meal?
there is no usual
26. What type of snacks do you eat?
since dieting... tostitos
27. In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing?
walking more, beginner yoga
28. Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym? Home?
home, or walks
29. What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise?
no favs :P
30. What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals?
a better me, attractiveness, happiness with my self
31. Do you have rewards for certain goals?
Not at the moment.

in general. food wise I did ok. almost went for a walk, but was pretty down, and didnt feel like it. basically hung out in front of the computer all day. not sure whats eating at me. maybe tomorrow will be a better day.

Hey buddy,
I think it's normal to have an off day like you described, I'm proud of you for still watching what you ate and being careful, when I got upset like that the first thing I would reach for is junk food. Chocolate was a must. Emotional eating is something I'm trying to get away from. Anyway, hope your day tomorrow is a lot better, I'm sure it will be. See ya later, alligator!

ok, so the past couple days have been stressful and i kinda lost my apetite (sp) for doing anything or eating... so im worried about the 'starvation' mode thing, but today looks good and ive only had a bowl of special k since i woke up at one (worked 12a-4a) so im going to try and find something here and head back into work from 5-8.

and the scale just said it was at 280... so im gonna update my ticker for that ))

Yay for five pounds lost! I'm sorry you haven't been feeling so great lately. Good nutrition and exercise can help lift your spirits though, so maybe consider going for a short, easy walk? I hope you feel better soon..

thanks!
today was really quite a bit better. I talked to the person that i needed to get something resolved with and I feel a whole lot better. At work I stayed on my feet and rocked out with the tunes a bit just so i didnt have to sit for 3 hours. The weather was beautiful today and if it werent for this last minute shift I would have been out there. Im pondering a walk to the gas station for a thing of water as im out.. but overall a good day.

special K and 2%milk.
Turkey on wheat with american cheese, lettuce and mayo
sunchips (210cal)
water

so far thats it. im thinking about cooking up some chicken to have ready for the week. in fact... ive got some pineapple. mmm pineapple chicken?? i think so...

ttfn

Hey,
I'm so happy you had a better day! Pineapple chicken sounds so good! Special K is really good too. I love the one with the bits of chocolate in it, YUMMY! I also like the 90 calorie bars, especially chocolate drizzle...hee, are we starting to see a pattern here?

Starting back up on metformin and Essential Boost... herbal supplement .We'll see if that does any good. More later...

ajo

I weighed earlier today and im holding steady at 280. its all good.

food diary....

breakfast... (certianly wasnt fast enough to get to class on time...)
Special K chocolate delight or whatever.. around 1030. 2% milk
first dose of pills

lunch... special k and milk again. after one.
second dose of pills

snack... ok, after my 530 class and walking up the hill to get to my car (10 min walk?) i was beat. i think it was mostly the case of the mondays... but also the pills acting funny on me. during class i felt sick and afterwards too. I got home exhausted and made a jelly (on wheat) sandwich, 2 slices....
about a half hour later before i headed out the door i grabbed just 2 plain slices.

walked (15ish mins) to class... and about the same back.

'dinner' instant potatoes (far less butter than i usually have) with pieces of the chicken i made a few days ago in it. I think i still have the munchies... but i think im thirsty...

im not sure but sometime tomorrow should be a yoga time. ill try for it.

Hey Buddy!
I've never heard of the supplement you mentioned, but yay for the 5 pounds off!!!!! You are doing great! Keep it up!!!!

mmm. 2 eggs and some katchup for breakfast... gotta find some water.. and then off to work by 830.
goals for the day... get all my pills in, walk to my evening class weather permitting, toss in some yoga...

again, steady at 280 this am. wavering betwen 278 and 282, but resting the longest on 280 or 279. until its obvious..ill stick with the 280

ok, so i need a new scale... cuz this one wavers too much.. in 20 seconds, i saw anywhere between 281(split second) and 275. it was around 277/278 most of the time... so im gonna go for that... and hope its rightish.

as for yesterday, the walking to class didnt happen as the sky opened up and dumped water everywhere... and no yoga... i got distracted by photoshop... : /

Keep up the good fight, girl! You can do it. I need a new scale too! It can be off as much as 20 pounds sometimes, blah!!!

*SINGS* It's the eye of the tiger it's the thrill of the fight!!!!* hee.