January 28
Okay, here goes. I gained 10 pounds over Christmas. Before that I was more "comfortable" with my weight, no satisfied, but comfortable. Everyone kept telling me I looked like I had lost weight. From what point of reference I don't know. I have weighed anywhere from 133-180 in the last 10 years. The most popular weights for me are 137, 145, 153, 163.

Do you know that even if someone is 10 pounds too heavy it can be just as miserable as 20, 30, or 40. Of course if you have been much heavier 10 or 20 pounds over weight are probably more painful.

I haven't been 137 in 5 or 6 years. And then it was only for a vacation.

Sweets are my friend! No. NO What a lie!

Okay, seriously. ON friday January 25th I weighed 164
I decided around 1,200 calories would be a good kick start. The only rules for this week is 1,200 calories. I will add more stipulations later. Also, I'm drinking lots of water. I lost 4 pounds on day 1. Must have been water.
So night number three I woke up in the middle of the night starved and got a russel stover christmas chocolate out of my sons stash. I ate one, and half of the second one. I woke up with half a chocolate melted and smeared all over my jammie's. I thought, "I'm like a junkie" Sat, sun I kept it under 1,500 calories but ate candy both times. I've eaten 950 calories today, 630 of which were candy. Yuck! Tomorrow I will eat no candy!!!! One day at a time.
Weight this morning: 159.5
Goal weight:133 I think

Hi and welcome,

Why don't you just throw the candy away. If it is not there, then there is no temptation.

I'm also going to venture that you were hungry because you didn't eat enough food during the day? You'd be surprised how a few good well rounded meals can keep you full and fight off cravings. I haven't had (or wanted) any sugar in 28 days.

You'll get there, stay strong, plan your meals better.

hey
busy91 is right. You probably need to eat more than 1200 calories a day. You binged on the chocolate, because your stomach was hungry. Don't miss out on meals or possibly two snacks during the day. Cut out the sweets slowly, throwing them away is an excellent idea, no temptation. Maybe fill your house with fruits, but even those contain sugar, but are much better for you than chocolate. Umm... I used to binge a lot, now I don't. Once in a while I will eat cookies or chocolate, but more often I don't have any craving to touch them...which is a good thing...because I was the real binger. Its hard to quit. I used to get chocolate all over the blanket and pjs. I would have smeared chocolate on my face. My bf would wake up and find chocolate on the blanket ..make a mockery of me in front of his roommates and we would clean the blanket. But it was horrendous. I was so ashamed and felt so ugly, disgusting.

Don't do what I did. You can lose weight, Start thinking You know you will lose weight. Put it in your mind. Goal ... Write down what you plan to eat on one side of a sheet of paper and write for the next day what you ate. Think like a "thin me"... Think... "What would a thin me eat? What would a thin me do for exersize?"

I got this all from a food addiction book that was written by a food addict that lost eighty pounds after coming up with this mind altering program. Its not a diet. Its a way to teach yourself new behaviors toward food and how you think of food and the reasons behind why you binge or eat, Why you go to the fridge when you don't mean to ..etc ..

if you want me to tell you the book name and author ..just ask ..

I wish you the best of luck on your journey.

always
natalie jo

You two are probably right about me not eating enough. Honestly though I think it is more the addiction to sugar than the hunger. I totally blew it today. Stress. I'm so use to running to sweets. I use to be a drug addict ect.. over 7 years ago. I really think that part of it is that I am scared to be thin. I don't want to get involved in a relationship and when I am uncomfortable with my wieght I avoid men altogether.

Over eating for me is about a lack of self control, loving to eat, and fear of the opposite sex.

I have been writing down what I eat. I will take the good advice and try and plan my meals. I also will start to excercise again to help with stress and for fat burning.

Today I ate a large fudge round, nutty bar, three heath bars, pb and j, tgi fridays jack danials chicken strip appetizer, 1/2 lean cuisen, sprite and coke. Let's just say I've had better days.

God sure knew what he was doing when he broke life up into day and night. Tomorrow is another day!

I am not going to weigh in the morning or the next cause I don't need the disappointment if I gain.

I know all the things I'm suppose to do but I tend to be the kind of person that is impulsive. If/when I conquer this nothing will be able to stop me. I'm so tired of candy wrappers under the bed, all over the car. Feeling guilty, out of control. I will aim for 1,500 calories tomorrow. It will be hard b/c when I am eating healthy I'm not really that hungry. I will walk for at least 30 minutes.

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natalie jo