Currently in the computer lab trying to write these essays that have been looming over my head for the past few days. So far it is not going very well at all! For starters.. the heating seems to be on full in this place which is making my stuffy nose and blocked head even worse.. Besides i hate this place. You cough and people glare at you for making noise.. so.. as you can imagine im getting glared at a lot. hehe

Christina- I'm practically already on a soup diet... had loads of cups of tea last night to keep me awake and to make me feel better. Ive been taking pills all day.. so hopefully i will be better.

Julie- Thank you so much sweetheart. I don't care how ill i am.. i'm still going to go tonight.. god damn it! hehe

I have it all planned.. fall over and hope he picks me up. Although i could end up with a lot of brusies. hehehe

aw be careful girl and your doing good!

Hey hun! I hope you get to feeling better! And... considering your sick I hope you have a good time tonight!!

okkkkaaayyyyyy....

The evening did not start out well at all. While i was getting ready my mum phoned and gave me some horrible news. Apparently my cat had kidney failure and had to be put to sleep. It's just so horrible.. I'm going to miss her so much. What's worse is that im going home in a couple of days.. the fact that she isn't going to be there is just.. i don't know how to explain it.

My housemate made me go ice skating tonight.. she thought that it would take my mind off what i had just heard.. which to be honest helped. Ice skating was fun. I only managed to fall over twice.. (which was pretty good for me..) But i did wobble quite a bit. hehe Rupert was there to catch me a couple of times, but he was pretty good at ice skating, so was off doing his own thing quite a bit.

We went to a pub afterwards and all sat there chatting. He did sit next to me which was nice, but thats only because it was the only seat left. Not sure if he would have sat there if he didn't have to.

I was going to say something to him all night.. But i didn't have the guts. Instead.. i got his number off a friend of mine and sent him a sms telling him that i liked him and we should go out sometime. Why? WHY did i do that? I haven't got a reply yet.. and i sent it about 45 mins ago. He does have to drive home first but.. ah crap.. why did i do that? I'm so going to get rejected. Soooo should have told him face to face.

Okay.. i got a reply. He doesn't like me.

This is what he wrote:

I think i should perhaps say no to the drink. Maybe a text isn't the best way to discuss things, but i don't feel the same way and i'd rather stick to just being friends. I'm sure we'll run into each other soon so perhaps we'll get a chance to talk. Rupert.



It really is not my day today.

righty then.. a new day.. a new start. Pick myself up again and carry on.. gaining full marks in everything i do. *nods*

Man my dreams were plauged with weirdness last night.

Anyways.. I was going to go for a run this morning, because i thought that i was a little better but when i woke up my nose was so blocked i could hardly breath. So.. the exercise is a no no.

Currently about to wrap myself up warm and catch the bus to uni. Spending the whole day in the computer lab.. lots of sitting down.. not good for my diet. But i got lots of water with me, and some healthy snacks that i'm allowed.. so hopefully i will be okay.

I kinda blew my diet last night when i was feeling very down in the dumps. But.. im not going to let it effect me. Everyone has downfalls once in a while.. picking myself up and getting on with it.

As a friend of mine once said.. 'death is going to happen.. you can't do anything about it.' And 'You will get rejected in life countless times.. it's part of life. ' *nods*

I am the almighty pinky!! I am a stronge, beautiful girl and i am sooooo worth it. Screw anyone who thinks differently. hahahah

Girl you are so right! You are a beautiful young lady and Rupert doesnt know what he's missing.
I am so sorry about your cat hun. I know how it is. Our first doggy died a few months ago. When I went home to visit it just wasnt the same. Buster was ther but Taffy was gone... Buster seemed so depressed. He's aged so fast now that his old girl is gone. So they got him a playmate... Boomer... Boomer is a bad dog.. .LOL he's a big dufus that towers over Buster and brakes eveything with his huge whiplike tail. but Buster keeps him in his place.
Just know this Pinky.... You're Kitty is in no pain. She is in a better place now. I believe all living things go to another place. maybe except for plants, that may be a little overboard.
I have 2 cats in my house here. One was constantly getting sick. Every damn time it cost us about $400 to save his butt.. Pets are just like kids. we love them as family. ....
I'm here for ya girl...
take care... MORE SOUP!!!

Awh Christina.. thank you so much.

Boomer sounds cute tho.. what breed is he?

I'm going to miss Mini so much.. but i guess i should have known it was coming soon. She was old. *sigh*

Anyways.. I'm now on the look out to find someone else to obsesse over. hahaha only kidding.

LOL Pinky! Don't focus on one man.... Yer young... enjoy yourself... Play the field... I'm so bad heh? LOL
Boomer is a Yellow Lab. He's 2 and Buster is 8... buster seems so old though... he's all gray in the face now and he has lumps everywhere and he limps and stuff. But Boomer knows that Busters the boss man. Buster is a mutt... He looks like Boxer/lab/pitbull.... I may have a pic....
I'll post them in my dairy so I dont take all your space hun!

Pinky was so hoping to come in here and see good news and I stumbeled on sad news. Honey Im so sorry to hear about your poor kitty. I know how that is I had to have one put to sleep and it about killed me. And About Rupert he has no idea what hes missing. You are a beautiful girl and any man would be happy to have you and you are young so have fun while you can. Hope your day is better today honey. you are in my thoughts.

Hey just thought I would drop in and say hello, so sorry to hear about your cat hun.

Sorry about your kitty!

hey girls.. thank you so much for the words of encouragment.. it makes me feel so much better and happier.

In terms of my diet i'm afraid that i have put on a couple of lbs.. subconsiously i can feel it.. i haven't even bothered to weigh myself because i know what the results will be. Going to have to try really hard tomorrow and sunday before my weigh in on monday.. try and loose the 2lbs or more that ive put on (i know i have.. from my slip ups this week..) so that i haven't gone back up. Got to keep going.. got to keep going.

Would have thought all my work would have kept me away from the food but it didn't really work. oh well i guess.. onto another day.

Its about 1:30am here.. Ive just got back from work and have been trying to write my essay. only 1,000 words into the 3,000 one that i have to do by tuesday.. havent even started my 6,000 one for thursday. im working every single night next week too.. god knows how im going to get it all done. argh! Oh well.. if i am really good on my diet next week then maybe i will loose a lot more because of the stress and worry that i have. hehe

Hey Pinky, Just checking in on ya,..I'm so sorry about your kitty...I'm also sorry about Rupert ... You deserve better then him anyway!

Hang in there it will be all worth it once all the study is over.