Gymchica has a good point. Either method is valid, I think the important thing is not to freak out if you're heavier one day than you were the day before. A lot of things can contribute to weight fluctuations. If you were on course for that day, stay the course for the next day and the day after that. Your weight will trend downward over time.

As for my nick, I'm afraid I don't have a particularly interesting story behind it... I just picked it while I was coming up with a username. I have used the same one for years but I wanted something different. I was surprised it wasn't taken. Pleasantly so, for I have grown to like it.

Hello my lovely ladies. Thank you for the comments and sorry I haven't been here for a while. Things have been hectic with school and college preparation to keep up with! I am back on here now and will try to update as much as I can. I really like the idea of averaging my weight loss weekly, and continue to weigh every day.

I have gained a little bit but I think it is just water retention.

I had such a revelation today. I went to the mall to get some new clothes. Of course, after picking up the stuff I wanted I had to go to the dressing room and try it out. They have these small dressing rooms in Zara with lights and huge mirrors on every wall around you, even the one where the doors are. I took my clothes off and stood there in my underwear. It suddenly hit me. That's me in the mirrors. I just saw this huge, huge girl with fat everywhere. I know this sounds harsh but that's how I felt in that moment. That has never happened to me before. I was never really the type of girl who would stand in front of the mirror and evaluate every inch of her body. But in that moment, in that dressing room, my eyes started tearing up at the bare sight of how I look. I suddenly felt every pound I carry and started getting dresses fastly.

This is probably so overly dramatised but it has been such a revelation to me. I really desire to be fat free and this will make me work really hard to achieve my weight loss goal. I know that I never want to look in the mirror again and feel this way.

I love you girls and hope you everythings been going on great for you.

<3

I can't believe it took me until just now to realize you're keeping a journal! I feel so terrible cause I LOVE keeping in touch with you.

Your story has really touched me. I can relate to you in so many ways. It was a medical check-up that made me re-evaluate my life as well. I'm very, very sorry to hear you're having medical complications because of your obesity. The best part of this whole thing will be, that those problems will vanish the healthier you become. Isn't that exciting?

I agree with Trev, Skim. RESIST stepping on the scale everyday. It's a terrible habit that can be very depressing. Just because the scale says you haven't burned off enough calories, doesn't mean it's true. What you see in the mirror physically, and how you feel should be the REAL pointers toward how well you're doing with this new lifestyle.

Honey, we've ALL had dressing-room-mirror-moments. Even now, when I'm so close to my goal, I'm still not satisfied with what I see staring back at me either. You're not overdramatizing it. We all understand EXACTLY how you felt at the PRECISE moment. It's how we've all felt and at times, still feel.

I'm so very, very sad to hear that you're dissapointed with youself so, but you know what, as you keep this up and as you lose the weight, your confidence in yourself will build miraculously. Though mine isn't at a huge level, I've more self-esteem then I did a year ago, heck even two months ago. It just FEELS awesome. As you will and are going to.

I don't ever want to look in the mirror and feel a sense of disgust ever again. I know EXACTLY what you mean. And you know what hon, you'll achieve your goal and we're here to keep you motivated. We've so many commonalities, that we're everyone's inspirations.

Much love, chica. I hope today is going without guilt, disappointment or frustration.

Keep us updated, kays?!

Invariant,

I love how you called me chica. Only once person calles me like that and that's my best friend Lenette who I haven't seen in almost seven months as we live across the ocean now. We are still in touch, of course -- life without her would be almost impossible, but it always makes me smile when someone calls me like that.

I am feeling much better now but I still haven't got my feelings from the other day out of my mind. Looking in the mirror feels so much different now. See, I take my pictures so they flatter me as much as possible (I even look skinny on some of them! I can really hide my weight in photos) so I do not really have a realistic view of myself. I always had problems in building one. I always felt fat, even when I really wasn't. I am looking at some pictures now, from a while ago, when I was so much thinner but also so much more opssesed with how I look and losing weight. My self-bodyimage was always distorted and it is hard for me to percieve how other see me. That's why that dressing-room-mirror moment was so powerful to me. I finally saw myself through the beholders eye. It just made me more motivated to reach my weight loss goal.

That's also the reason why I undestand you perfectly when you talk about losing weight but still being that 'chubby-friend-material-to-boys' in your mind. Sometimes it is all in our heads.

I was just cleaning up my closet and throwing away some stuff. While I was at it I tried some of my old summer stuff and... Mygoodness. Fitting into my old, skinny white jeans was so... orgasmic! It was almost religious. Nothing feels as good as feeling good about yourself! I am so happy you are feeling better darling! I can't wait so see some more of your pictures!

Lots of love to all weight losers. Every good day is a won battle toward the better, more beautiful us!

Mwah.

Chica, I can relate to you completely. Everying you've just said, is EXACTLY how I've felt in the past too. Unfortunately, I didn't possess the power to make myself look thin in pictures, I did however possess the power to refuse my picture being taken...which I did on numerous occasions...quite ardently. LOL.

Doesn't it feel different? Sometimes I find it hard to remember what I felt like looking in the mirror in what seems like a lifetime ago when I was 132 pounds heavier. I'm so proud of myself now. I could be more confident though and I'm working on it. It's a mountain climb. I know for absolute certain you can familiarize with that.

It's so sad it took such a depressing moment to motivate you, but I'm glad you've gotten inspired. You swore to yourself you'd NEVER look that again and you'll never *feel* that way again when you look at your reflection. I know you do cause that's EXACTLY what I promised myself years ago. And you know what? I don't look like that person anymore. It's so exciting to have kept a vow to myself. It really makes me feel accomplished.

Skinny Jeans are made of awesome. NOT ONLY are they sexy, they make us feel ten times sexier. It's so exciting that you had an orgasmic-skinny jeans-moment!! I had that in a dressing room the first time I was a fourteen. I screamed, called my dad and left him a voice message, then screamed again. Ah, beautiful memories. LOL.


You're absolutely right, nothing feels better than feeling GREAT about yourself. It makes the whole world pleasureable. The days I feel really, really sexy are the days I'm in the best mood of my life.

Btw, I've never been thanked for calling a friend 'chica' but I like the smile you put on my face when you told me that. I'm glad I could make your day, sweetie!!

I hope you're having an awesome Wednsday, Skim!! Much love to you, darling!! ((huggers))

I loved the story you shared with us in your journal. It was so touching! I don't want to repeat myself, you'll see what I wrote about it over there. ;-)

Today was okay.

Lets see...

I had:

Breakfast:
Activia

Snack:
Half an apple

Lunch:
Two pieces of toast
Two eggs
Fat-free cheese

Paprika Salad

Snack:
Half an apple

Dinner:
Mocha Coffee
3/4 Chocolate Muffin

So I could have done it without the muffin, but I am not feeling too guilty about it. I was quite active today as I went downtown to do some shopping and later to the mall (where I had coffee and the muffin) so I am feeling okay.

I am feeling so sick! I hate it! :-(

I also updated my ticker so it matches my avatar! Huh, I am such a Virgo. :-)

hey
Thanks for leaving a message on my journal so I thought I'd pop by.
Its inspiring to find someone who is so determinded to make themselves fit and healthy.
I've started to feel seriously demotivated hte last couple of weeks and I've eaten so much crap its awful.
Sweets, chocoalte, crisps.
So heres to us all losing weight and becoming what we al want to become.
Thankyou for inspiring me.
I feel as though I am now back on the road to where I want to be.
I've decided to go travelling in September and am determinded to be fit and healthy for when I go out there.
so good luck and pop by whenever you fancy and I'll defo by poping back!

How's it going, Skim? Was thinking about you today so I wanted to check in!

I'm with Squeak, come back to us Skim! We miss you chica!! Let us know about life!!