Sophie's Diary--Holding Myself Accountable

nataliejo · May 28th, 2008, 01:07 PM

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Originally Posted by jw372

Breakfast—whole-grain English muffin with fig preserves; Morningstar Farms veggie cake; fresh strawberries
Snack—coffee with skim milk and two tsp sugar
Lunch—waldorf salad with reduced-fat mayonnaise; 90-calorie bag of popcorn and half a bag of peanut m&ms
Snack—drink with honeydew melon, green tea, and lavender soda
Dinner—chicken breast and carrots in a soy honey glaze over brown rice; mixed green salad
Snack—pretzel slims, hot milk with ginger and one tsp sugar

25 minutes on the elliptical today. I wish I could get up the energy for the big long workouts like I was before, but on the other hand, this is something a lot easier to convince myself to do. So, balance.

And I'm very cross with myself because I'm getting slightly impatient. Losing weight at a moderate rate seems to take forever. I may have lost 25 pounds, but there's so much more to lose. I know I can do it, I just wish I could…fastforward or something. But that's stupid. I have to be patient because this is working. I've lost every single week since the middle of February. And I'm living in a way that I can manage long-term. This is good, this is right, but this is taking so fricking long. I want just a few of the really good benefits now. I want to look in the mirror and see something different. I want the damned scale to go below 260. I want to not shave my legs and think, "Christ, how fat."

Oh, I'm seeing progress. I put on a dress yesterday that was tight in January, and it was just a perfect fit now. Things in my body are definitely changing, but again, must be patient, and I don't want to be. Bleh.

Hey Sophie! Losing it slow is good, or moderately. I have gained back up to 271.2 pounds, kind of down, but I am going to win this thing for my whole life. This is it, u know. I may fall back like I have, six pounds, but I shall lose it..

You are an inspiration to me ...
I read your diary and think, yea I think I can do that too lol

Keep trecking hun
congrats on the dress!
Keep trecking
love yas
always
natalie jo

jw372 · May 29th, 2008, 12:36 AM

Breakfast—oatmeal cooked with skim milk, fresh blueberries
Lunch—leftover chicken and carrots with brown rice, one date nut bar
Snack—blood orange soda, fiber bar
Dinner—steamed artichoke, turkey breast
Snack—low-fat frozen yoghurt with fresh strawberries

Heather, you've been such a wonderful person to interact with here, because it's amazing how you've managed to keep your focus in the middle of so many incredible things going on. I guess we both have to remember how important our endurance in the long term is.

Natalie Jo, that's so sweet of you to say. You inspire me too when I think about how far you've come. I hope I prove to have your endurance.

nataliejo · May 29th, 2008, 02:27 PM

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Originally Posted by jw372

Breakfast—oatmeal cooked with skim milk, fresh blueberries
Lunch—leftover chicken and carrots with brown rice, one date nut bar
Snack—blood orange soda, fiber bar
Dinner—steamed artichoke, turkey breast
Snack—low-fat frozen yoghurt with fresh strawberries

Heather, you've been such a wonderful person to interact with here, because it's amazing how you've managed to keep your focus in the middle of so many incredible things going on. I guess we both have to remember how important our endurance in the long term is.

Natalie Jo, that's so sweet of you to say. You inspire me too when I think about how far you've come. I hope I prove to have your endurance.

Hey are way over my endurance. I am lagging lol You are doing awesome Sophie!! I wish I had your endurance. I am running a little low on endurance ... Well I walked three and a half miles today in the hot sun and ran out of water, I was a sucker today... and got kissed too lol what a day... I will put it in my diary lol

but you sound like you are doing awesome!!
You go girl!!

love yas
always
natalie jo

jw372 · May 29th, 2008, 09:21 PM

Breakfast—fiber bar, two cups coffee with fat-free evaporated milk and four sugars
Snack—fresh blueberries
Lunch—turkey breast tenderloin; tomato and corn salad with a splash of vinaigrette and some crumbled cheese
Snack—apple, whole-grain roll with one tsp butter and grated chocolate (very little, less than an ounce), coffee with skim milk and two tsp sugar
Dinner—spaghetti squash with tomato sauce, grated parmesan and Italian sausage
Snack—fresh strawberries and low-fat frozen yoghurt

Natalie Jo, in the larger scheme of things, you're not lagging. You've been doing this longer than I have, and you've already managed to drop and keep off so much.

jw372 · May 30th, 2008, 05:47 AM

Right, I'm going to be away from my "home" scale for a few days, so I'm doing my weigh-in today, smack on the nose at 260. So I've begun a new ticker, and I'll be ordering my makeup as soon as ever I can! My next mini-goal is the divide between morbid and ordinary obesity.

nataliejo · May 30th, 2008, 12:37 PM

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Originally Posted by jw372

Right, I'm going to be away from my "home" scale for a few days, so I'm doing my weigh-in today, smack on the nose at 260. So I've begun a new ticker, and I'll be ordering my makeup as soon as ever I can! My next mini-goal is the divide between morbid and ordinary obesity.

Sophie!! Make up, cool..and new ticker! awesome! I think I am going to get a new ticker, getting tired of the old one... ugh ..
but you are right, I have been at it for a year or so and have lost 51 pounds and have kept it off. I just am getting ughed out. ITs taking forever and I want the scale to bust down more lol How I want to be 259 again, size 20.. I am getting there, some of the 22s are too big ..

but you go girl!
You are doing awesome!
Keep it up
love yas
always
your friend
natalie jo

Invariant · May 31st, 2008, 06:51 AM

Sophie honey, I can understand your impatience, trust me. Not only was I frustrated in my head with those same thoughts, there are times when I still am. We just have to remember though that there is nowhere to go now but up, well, technically [I]down[I] in terms of the scale, but you understand what I mean, I'm sure. Impatience will always and forever be there, in our weight loss, in our education, and overall in everything in life, we just have to make a postive out of it.

If you continue to do what you're doing, you can ONLY lose from here on out, regardless of how slow the pounds are coming off. Just remember that, chica. I'm so proud of you for getting this far. You're pretty amazing.

for you, love, party for you.

jw372 · May 31st, 2008, 07:38 AM

Yesterday's record:

Breakfast--two roasted nectarines, vitamin water
Snack--coffee with sugar and powdered creamer
Lunch--Italian sausage, a whole-wheat roll and mustard; two apricots
Snack--a nut bar, dried cherries, small pieces dark chocolate, and almonds
Dinner--chicken soft taco, chipotle salmon cakes, and a salad; pomegranate panna cotta, coffee with cream and sugar (groan)

I'm visiting my family now, hence the restaurant extravaganza last night, but on the plus side, I went for a bicycle ride this morning. Only about twenty or twenty-five minutes, but believe me, muscles, lungs, etc. were all protesting. So I maybe at least burned off that panna cotta.

Anyway, I'll also post this morning's food so far, since I don't know when I'll get on again. I had coffee with half-and-half and two sugars, orange juice, and two muffins for breakfast, plus two strawberries when I came back from my bicycle ride.

Natalie Jo, new tickers are good. Seeing a fresh one always cheers me up for days--then again, I'm easily amused.

Rachel, it's good to know I'm not the only one getting irritated and thinking, "Isn't this DONE yet?" I know you're right about just keeping in the right direction. And I know the longer I keep going, the easier it will get.

But, I will tell you all very frankly one thing: There are going to be barbecued ribs and fried chicken tonight, and I did not fly hundreds of miles to my father's birthday party to ignore the chicken and ribs!

jw372 · June 3rd, 2008, 08:17 PM

Sunday's record:

Breakfast—horrid eggs florentine benedict, coffee with milk and sugar, fruit salad
Snack—iced mocha, lemonade
Lunch—half of horrid roast beef and provolone wrap sandwich, vitamin water
Snack—Lara bar
Dinner—Lean Cuisine frozen pizza, single-serve macaroni and cheese

Yesterday's record:

Breakfast—apple
Snack—fiber bar
Lunch—salad with small portion sliced turkey breast
Snack—Clif bar and vitamin water
Dinner—chicken and steak fajitas, small portion cake

Today's record:

Breakfast—Lara bar
Snack—small mayan mocha, biscotti
Lunch—lovely vegetarian sandwich, french fries, small cake ball, cupcake (wince)
Dinner—mixed green salad with small portion sliced turkey breast, handful blueberries

25 minutes on the elliptical today, which I surely needed!

Obviously, things have not been precisely stellar lately. But I managed to visit the grocery store this evening, so I at least have some fruit now (along with enough moisturizers to revive a mummy—I met a twenty-year-old with lots of fine lines around her eyes and was scared straight; I've been pretty good about day cream for a while, but now the nighttime routine is going into high gear). And I made time to exercise. So that's something. One day at a time, always.

Invariant · June 4th, 2008, 05:34 PM

Hey Soph,

Just stopping by to say hello and keep up the good work. Of course there are periods of time when things aren't going to go stellar for us. I'm going through one of those right now, in fact. Since I've started working night shift, my body is confused by my new eating habits. I sleep during the day and eat and work when I usually sleep. I'm slowly getting used to the transition though and am growing less and less horribly hungry during my shift. I can't wait until I get used to this.

Don't fret about the fine lines and wrinkles, honey. In my own opinion, there a sign of wisdom and experience. Women are a bit touchy about such things though. I suppose when I get older, I'd want to look as young as I possibly can as well. No matter what, you'll always be beautiful Soph, that's something right there, chica!

jw372 · June 5th, 2008, 07:42 AM

Yesterday's record:

Breakfast—coffee with fat-free condensed milk and two tsp sugar; two roasted apricots with half a cup of light, sugar-free yoghurt and a few raspberries
Snack—vitamin water
Lunch—green salad with small portion turkey breast, blueberries
Snack—100-calorie bag of popcorn and half a serving of peanut dark chocolate m&ms
Dinner—spinach and mixed lettuce salad with grapes, turkey breast, green beans with pine nuts, basil, and a little bit of olive oil
Snack—hot skim milk with a dash of vanilla

Rach, thanks so much for stopping by. I'm glad to hear you're adapting to your new schedule; it's always so hard when our set routines that we've made healthy and sensible for ourselves get disrupted. As to the wrinkles, I don't worry about them terribly, but I also don't want to be one of those women who looks like a handbag by the time she's forty! So moisturizing is important.

Invariant · June 5th, 2008, 12:30 PM

You know Soph, a good SPF is also very important, not only does it even out skin tone, it prevents premature skin aging. I never realized how well it works until I went to Florida. I used Hawiian Tropic SPF 50 for faces, and it worked amazing. Not only did my face not burn or peel, it actually EVENED out my skin tone and made my skin soft because of the vitamins A and E inside the sunscreen. What's great about it, is it's non-comodegenic so it won't cause breakouts or anything like that. Basically, it's just a whole bunch of minerals combined into amazing protection. I love it, actually. I wear it everytime I'm going to be in the sun. Just thought I'd throw that out there for ya, chica.

I hope your Thursday is going alright, honey. I'm excited because tonight is my last day before I get two and a half days off of work. I'm telling you, I don't think I could work 3rd shift for more than 5 days straight, I'm really starting to feel it. Haha.

Big hugs to you, deary!!

jw372 · June 6th, 2008, 09:31 AM

Yesterday's record:

Breakfast—coffee with skim milk and two tsp sugar; high-fiber cereal with skim milk
Snack—raspberries, POM light tea
Lunch—whole wheat roll, turkey cheddar bratwurst, coffee with sugar and powdered creamer
Snack—blueberries, one wedge Laughing Cow light cheese, fiber bar
Dinner—spaghetti squash and parsnips with olive oil and grated parmesan, turkey breast
Snack—strawberries, 90-calorie bag of wheat sticks, coffee as above

20 minutes on the elliptical.

Rach, I totally know what you mean about the sunscreen, especially living here in Texas. My day cream always has SPF protection—right now I'm using Aveeno, which does even out the skin tone nicely and makes me feel really soft. I'm also becoming a devotee of cold cream for cleaning at night. I hope your days off are absolutely wonderful and that you get to do lots of running!

jw372 · June 7th, 2008, 06:22 AM

Yesterday's record:

Breakfast—coffee with skim milk (a full cup of milk) and two tsp sugar
Snack—blueberries and one wedge Laughing Cow light cheese
Lunch—low-fat turkey tetrazzini made with whole-grain pasta
Snack—fiber bar
Dinner—spaghetti squash and parsnips with olive oil, pine nuts and parmesan; turkey cheddar bratwurst
Snack—coffee as above, 90-calorie bag of cracker sticks, dark chocolate

Hooray! Scale at 258.4! I ordered my reward for reaching 260 finally yesterday—some nice makeup brushes, a bag, perfume, and lip liner. I think perhaps my next reward will be…I'm not 100% sure. Maybe $50 worth of clothes, since I haven't bought any since I started, and I could use some tops that fit a little bit better and at least one new skirt, since all mine are absolutely frightfully worn.

jw372 · June 8th, 2008, 08:17 PM

Yesterday's record:

Breakfast—coffee with fat-free evaporated milk and two tsp sugar, fiber bar
Snack—skinny latte with sugar and a Dutch apple bagel from Panera
Lunch—salad with mixed lettuce, avocado, blackberry, toasted pecans, and goat cheese
Snack—blackberry cobbler
Dinner—turkey breast tenderloin, sweet potato salad
Snack—blackberry cobbler

Today's record:

Breakfast—blackberry cobbler and coffee with skim milk and two tsp sugar
Snack—one Starbucks vanilla bean truffle
Lunch—low-fat turkey tetrazzini
Snack—fiber bar
Dinner—barbecued beef, coleslaw, potato salad, one slice bread, half a slice of pecan pie

Approximately 25 minutes on the elliptical. Oof. Not a good day, though, but I really didn't have any choice at all at dinner, unless I wanted nothing but beans and coleslaw which, realistically speaking, wouldn't have been <I>that</I> much better.

Oh, well, nice healthy lunch packed for tomorrow, and I'll probably finish up the cobbler for breakfast tomorrow, so it won't be around to tempt me anymore!

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