Clearly court orders are too hard and vague.
I wouldn't know though. Always been a good boy

At least it is only 30%. Could be worse.


Bandage changed. No vomiting or pulling of stiches. Yay- or darn if i wanted some drama this afternoon.

Sometimes drama is good, sometimes not. This stupid thing at work has messed up my day and now a good portion of my weekend. So much for a decent Friday...

Sorry to hear that Ali.
I hope you enjoy a good prtion of the weekend.

Eat well and exercise.

I will try to do both...sorry to complain

I need to find a routine I can do at home when I can't get to the gym so I can get this stress out via exercise rather than chocolate.

Have a great weekend - if you are around, say hey

Ran for 35 minutes tonight. 3.68 miles. Experience tells me this is around 600 cal. Left knee hurts a bit. Think i ran too much this week. 5 times is way over, usually it is 2 tops and then the elliptical or arc trainer the other days.
Eating wise I am good, I hope. I am at 2400 cal with 600 burned. Seeing as it is 1030 here I think I am done.
Great bargains to be had! Wal-mart ha a clearance Golds gym bench with some bells and whistles for $39. I almost fell over, it is usually a $120 bench. Found 210lbs of weight and an Olympic bar on Craigslist for $150. Pickling them up tomorrow hopefully. Just need some dumbbell maker things from Dick's and I will have an alternative to the gym.
I am happy, sometimes on Saturday/Sunday the gym is a pain in the ass. Home is nice and right here.

Really do not care about eating today. I know I need to refocus and rededicate, but I really do not want to today. I ate only healthy items but to the tune of around 3000 cal. Some exercise walking around shopping and the like but no formal. Today was my day off exercise.

Tomorrow I will jog and hopefully I will be able to WT starting wednesday.
I did not lose this week and am not surprised. I was pretty sure I would break even- I had too many binges this week and quite frankly do not care that I broke even.
I need Spring to come!! I would have done so much more today if the weather is decent. I have so many projects I need to start.

Got my weights today! 300 lbs for $150. I now have a treadmill, bench w/ incline capabilities, olympic bar and 255lbs in weights. All I really need are some dumbbells, squat racks, and a pull up/ dip station and i could cancel my gym membership if I want to.

The school my wife teaches at is having a "biggest loser" competition.
Cash prize every week and a final payout to the winner of at least $650.

I am so trying to motivate my wife. She is 5'8" 244lbs. She has a lot to lose and we could win this darn thing. I am setting up my basement as a gym for her and am trying to set up an exercise program for her. She has been eating well with me and has lost 10 lbs and several inches already without a lot of exercise.
She hates going to the gym.
I think it would be great if I can get her to win, or at least come close.

Just wanted to get this on here to record the day I found out. She is not sure if she is going to do it.

Great to hear about all that gym equipment...if you can stay motivated and work at home, that is a great thing. Myself personally, I can't do it - it is way to easy to talk myself out of doing what I need to do if the only effort I need to make is walk downstairs. I have no idea why that is, but if you are able to do it - that's great...

I hope your wife tried the competition, my husband has no real desire to lose weight, he is 6'4" probably 250-260 or so, in short, he is a pretty big buy (no pun intended). Like myself, he has gained weight consistently through our time together but his job is just physical enough that he feels like he can eat what he wants and maintain his weight. I have given up trying to get him to do something so if your wife is willing to give this a shot, I think that could be a great thing. It may help with the fertility issue as well, who knows?

I think that every once in a while an off day isn't a bad thing - my problem is that I end up beating myself up afterwards so for me, they are few and far between.

Hope you are having a good weekend ~

This may turn into more like a week off. I will never go back to how I ate before but I am tired of reducing quantities and watching every little thing.
I have alot going on right now that is making me not focus on this as solely as before.
I need to be able to do everything 100% to do it.
I will be fine, still going to exercise and all just may not watch quantities as much for a week or so.

Weekend is going fine overall- just almost over. Again!

OK- screw this.

I am NOT going to sit here and wallow in self pity. I am going to prove myself ad everyone who knows me wrong, 100% wrong. I am going to restart tomorrow with a renewed sense of want. Fuck this shit. I am sitting here feeling pissed and freaking sitting in the shit. Tomorrow I begin anew.

You know, I was sitting here trying to think of a diplomatic way to sort of kick your ass into what you wrote above and it turns out all I had to do was wait and you figured it out on your own...

Good job! Back to it!

New goal.

My brother today looked at me and essentially told me that I could never lose all the weight I wanted to. He has no freakin idea what I have been doing. He is scared to look at me and see what I am doing. He is always going to see me a fat, out of shape younger brother. He is 6'1 around 250-270, not sure. He didn't think i could quit smoking- still doesn't believe I did- and does not think I can run 5 miles. I can run freakin 5 miles you ignorant dillhole prick!

I am going to shut his ass up. I am going to run the frickin Chicago Marathon this year in October. I am not going to win it- no shit- but i am going to complete it and get one of those freakin plaques. I am then going to copy it and give him a copy everytime I see him.

I understand I am his 'little' brother. But good lord I am 34 freaking years old!!!
Motivation up the ass!
Restart tomorrow. Write everything down. Cardio 5 times a week. As soon as I can do weights I am resuming my program. To hell with sitting here saying it too hard!!

Done.



How is everyone else's day?

Neve worry about being diplomatic with me. Call a spade a spade and a lazy man crying in self pity a lazy man crying in self pity.

Thanks Ali.

Good to know I can kick your ass if it needs to be kicked

Anytime.

Ok.

I woke up this morning actually happy that I am recommitted. I have been down for almost 2 weeks and enough is enough. Cynical and moody is one thing, depressed and lazy is entirely another.
I am committed to eating 2000-2500 calories a day. This is a little low overall but I have been high for 2 weeks so screw it. I will only keep them this low for a week or 2 to get myself back on track.
I have been looking up marathon training this morning and think I can do it. It recommends 20-25 miles a week to start and increasing no more than 10% a week. I can do this. Once I can run outside I will increase my total times so I can get used to running for 2 hours or so. No problem. 24 weeks to train for the marathon. Not sure if 6 months is enough but we will see.

Bandage should be coming off my hand Wednesday. Insemination should be tomorrow or Wednesday. My wife and I will most likely be doing a 'double insemination' this cycle. That is when the procedure is done twice in a 2 or 3 day span to ensure it hits at ovulation. We will most likely do out own insemination on Friday just to be sure .

Weather is supposed to be better this week. Wednesday is supposed to be beautiful, Sunday too. If all goes well I will be golfing Sunday- that will really help my mood. Hopefully I can start WT Wednesday also- again really help my mood.

I am back in control. I still am not really concerned about the weight but I did feel out of control the last couple weeks.