Random thoughts on things that irritate me in this office:

Why do people walk around here with giant bottles of water, talk about the workouts they do and then order a giant pizza- mind you not even a good pizza- and sit in the kitchen and eat it all among the 4 of them? These people have not dropped a pound in 6 months and are still blaming that on Christmas. These are the same people who used to bitch at me about smoking- outside mind you- and used to comment on what I ate. They are now asking why I am not having any!
This pizza of course comes on the heals of the giant bowls of M&Ms and bagels that were placed in there this morning and are now almost gone!

I really need to get out of town or work form home.

well you do the workouts so you can eat the pizza

aren't we paying extra tax on those water bottles? so i suppose they're supporting the state...

m&ms are their own food group - especially if they're the peanut dark chocolate variety...

I like this diary, made me chuckle!
Good luck, though you seem to be doing just fine, all the right things!
Camy

ok, this diary may end up just being a really bad idea for me since it most likely end up being random bs by me- not too much to do with weight loss per se.

How often does one have to think about all the people who made fun of them growing up for it to be considered an obsession?
I have a speech impediment- read: I stutter- was always fat, and have last name that rhymes with a rather feminine sounding adjective- not mulva, points for whomever gets the reference- therefore was constantly made fun of and picked on throughout my life. Throw in 12 years of catholic school- 4 of them being in an all boys high school- and my life really did not start until I was 20 and somehow gained confidence in who I am despite all that.
I do not want anyone to be proud of me for realizing this nor do I want sympathy- I do however would like to find 5-15 of the morons who made my childhood and young adulthood a living hell and ask them why they needed to torment me.
It is not like I think about this constantly but I do think about more often then I think I should. I feel like Indigo Montoya from Princess Bride with an overdeveloped sense of revenge.
Does anyone else harbor these same type feelings of going up to people they know and just say " look at me know- you suck for how you treated me!"
I am 33 years old, relatively successful, married- why do I still think about these dill holes who made my life hell?

I like your diary...

honesty is good...

As someone who spent 9 years in catholic school and is now a recovering heathen... I can relate to the torment...

Whatever your motivator is to get you where you want to be -use it -and then - let it go - because anger just hurts you and those closest to you -- not the people you're angry at... just picture yourself sauntering int your 20th reunion looking all hot and sassy

I was never bullied, I was even liked (even though my memories from school pretty much exclusively feature me and my 2 friends... we were sort of "strange" because we liked to read), still I always always since about 8th grade, was thinking "one day we will have a reunion and I will be so pretty and so amazing that all of you will die of jealousy/fancy me to death!"
I think I resented that I was not one of the popular girls... I am not sure if that qualifies though!

I also still dream about going over to the jerk who I loved in high school and show him how beautiful and amazing I am and how much he lost by not dating me!!!!

The third "I'll show you" I did a year ago and it felt so goooooooooooooood!! My sister's friend's mom, used to use me as a bad example for her daughter (she would say: if you don't stay on top of your work you will end up like Camy!) because I did worse in school than expected (I was expected As in all 13 subjects, and I only got them in like 8... shame on me!!!).
Well last year I went to my sister's graduation and I looked very nice, I had a hunk of a boyfriend with me and a newly acquired medical degree, so I found this woman and told her all this, in a sweet sweet voice, then french kissed my boyfriend in front of her and did a wonderful theatrical exit.
She later told my sister "oh, your sister has done wonderfully, hasn't she!!" Mwahahahahaha!!!
Best feeling ever!! I am still waiting for my school reunion to happen! And until then I need to be married and skinny!!!
Camy

I don't think my high school reunion will ever happen- school closed in '98 or so I think.
I did go to my grade school Reunion for some yet to be figured out reason- why do they have 10 year reunions anyway for grade school- we were all only 24. I brought my wife and generally just sat there looking smug while all the clichés reformed and people generally slapped each other on the a** again. I then left and was actually quite happy that I was never a part of the crowd.
It actually felt pretty good to not fit in.
I do like that story Camy, and I do want to go up the the girls who made fun of me- in oh so many creative ways- and show them everything they missed out on. I really am a nice guy- cynical as hell and older than my age but a nice guy!
Oh an Mal- I rarely saunter, it would honestly take quite an event to saunter. I slink- it is more my nature.

brian the "bigguy" ooh did my my just wander on that one... could have a website and going to classmates.com - we could make sure that the links were placed appropriately - wide angle of course

Photoshopping if needed..

Let 'em eat their hearts out...

their loss is your wife's gain...

I do have large hands..........
Wait, that isnt what you meant was it?

i always heard that it was foot size...

until I dated a guy who wore a size 16 shoe...

man was that myth ever wrong...

This eating well thing is amazing.
I just cooked up a stir fry tonight that was outstanding. 3 kinds of peppers, an onion, garlic, bean sprouts and shrimp. The whole thing was around 550 calories. I really have no idea why I always ate either fast food or some kind of processed crap.
I consider myself lucky. I enjoy eating all types of food, not an issue if it is healthy or not. I prefer whole grain stuff rather than the bland alternative. I have a good sense of taste so I can cook decent, cant bake worth a darn though.
Went to the gym after work tonight-. Total body workout with 40 minutes of arc trainer interval cardio. The good thing about being big= read: fat- is that you burn more calories than smaller people doing the same thing. I know the counter is not 100% accurate but still- it gives you a boost to see 900 cal burned or something like that.
Thanks to the 'funny things you see in the gym thread' I am now looking around my gym. Lot of really odd people there- sure many of them will be featured here in the coming weeks.

Which incidentally- if anything i say in here is offensive to anyone I apologize in advance. I am well aware I am not perfect- well aware.
Most likely I am featured in someone else's diary on another site, or this one, regarding irritating people at the gym or in life in general.
My understanding is that this space is mine, within the boundaries of good taste of course, and I shall use it as I wish.
Please comment if you wish as you wish- that is not an issue to me. I have thick eskin and can take almost anything.
Thank you

Why does TV suck?
Not a good show to be had tonight.
Read or type all night I guess- least I am not eating.

So good morning and good day to all:

I have come to the realization that getting healthy is all about the choices made. I know some people have known this all along but I think I am just figuring this out. For example- I could have had a bagel that was in the office- and still are damn it- but I am choosing not to. I have decided that for today at least the calories in the bagel are not worth it to me. I do not believe in depriving myself anything, I do believe in choice. Tomorrow I may have something high in calories and oh so tasty, I do not know. But as long as I give myself the choice then I am doing right by myself.

The same goes for exercise. I have not been sleeping good for almost 2 weeks, not sure what this is all about, and was quite tired yesterday. I made the choice to go to the gym. I know I could have blown it off and driven right by it pretty easily but I did not- went in and had a pretty good workout actually.

I know all of life boils down to choice, I just really never applied this to losing weight and getting healthy until my drive into work this morning.

Does anyone else have the annoying person in their office that talks to them even though they clearly do not want to talk?
Oh my lord do I want to pop her head off, it is only 730 am and I want to pop her head off.
Literally the most annoying person I have ever met.