I always support a person's right to choose

Nice realization...

and there's nothing wrong iwth indulging in a high calorie treat if it's something you want and tastes good... it's only a waste of calories if you get no enjoyment out of it

hey allI said was good morning jeesh don't have to get all pms'y on me

But did you stand over me asking about my night, asking about my dinner, asking about my drive in, asking about why I am eating oatmeal, how you hate oatmeal, how your son likes oatmeal, you had a dog in orlando named oatmeal.....?

Not before my second cup of coffee. By 8 I can handle anything, give me and hour and a half and I am good.

Good morning mal.

Some people are only alive because it's illegal to kill them... That's way too much conversation before my 5th cup of coffee...

Little something about my old eating habits, pretty sure I have not posted here about them.......

My eating used to be completely horrible. I would not eat anything until 5pm or so when I got home form work. I would then consume a very impressive amount of food between 5pm & 10pm. Binge eating at its finest. If Binge eating was a sport I would have been one of the best in the world. Or of course I would do the opposite and eat huge quantities of anything I came across throughout the day. I used to drive long distances for my job, still do on occasion but it used to be every week, and would eat fast food in the car & hotel. My body never was put on a regular schedule for eating.

I now know that this was pretty horrible for me- go figure. I still do not know how my cholesterol is as low as it is. Exercise was sporadic and done without a purpose or goal.

This has changed now and while I am still learning how to eat I am doing so much better- I think. Should start posting food here..........

BTW- avatar picture is of Harold. Harold is my cat, 5 years old.
I want one week in the life of that cat- just one, I am not greedy.

My wife has a second cat, that one is not worth mentioning further as she is evil to all except her.

Note to self, buy lock for office door.
Install and use said lock.

Alright-

I think I am starting to figure some things out here again. I am in some sort of funk. I do not know if it is the weather- frickin snowed yesterday- or just too many changes in too short of time. In 3 months I have gone from smoking 2 pack a day, weighing 260 lbs and eating crap to not smoking, 233 lbs and exercising 5-6 times a week and eating as well as I am able to right now.
I am leaning toward too many changes but 35 and snow on march 27th cannot be helping my mood.

Yesterday was good overall- 2465 calories with nothing hurtful included. Just good stuff, kind of large dinner.
45 minutes in the elliptical- no wt yesterday.
I have noticed my balance is getting better. Not that it was ever horrible to begin with- but now I can use the elliptical for an extended period of time without holding onto anything. When i first started using it I could not- this has to be a good thing right? Working the core and helping balance and all that crap.

Playing golf on Saturday- I do not care if it is going to be 45- hopefully that lifts me out of this semi-funk I am in.

All in all not bad but it sure as hell could be better.

it can always be better - you did great though...

and being able to use the elliptical without holding on is fantastic progress balanceis an important thing to have and tough to work on getting...

Have fun playing golf...

Thanks Mal.
Just need to work on my complete lack of flexibility now and all will be aces.

I shall enjoy golf regardless of the weather!

as long there's no snow on the ground - (or just use neon pink golf balls) it's all good

flexibility is a huge issue for me still- takes forever i tell ya

Ok.

So I lost 2 lbs this week and am at the lowest weight I have been in 9 years or so. I can not even really remember the last time I was under 230. Mind you, I am not overly excited about it. I am not sure why, maybe I just don't need to be anymore.
I played golf Saturday, 53 for nine holes, walked the nine and did not smoke. That is more important to me since I have never golfed without a cigarette. Plus I have not walked even 9 holes in years.
I ate a little more than I feel I needed to yesterday but I still do not believe in depriving myself on the weekends. I do not want to go overboard and eat bad but I ate a lot overall. I did not get to the gym Sunday but still ran 3.6 miles in the basement in 35 minutes. I am more impressed with the fitness goals I am reaching than the weight.
I was cleaning out my closet this weekend and fit into several t shirts that I could not last year. Actually I almost threw them out since I did not think I would ever fit into them. This is also a bigger deal to me than the scale. I actually looked good in them, not the sausage I looked like last year.

Something is going to have to give soon about my job. We are not busy and my old boss at another company is, he wants me to come over there. I am one of the best in the industry at what I do but have invested a lot of time into the company I am at and am not sure I want to move.
However if the company goes out of business I am screwed- always best to act before you absolutely have to but how soon is too soon?

Eh, it will sort itself out I think soon enough. Maybe I will call him today just to get the offer out there- everything has been done via email so far due to a non contact agreement he needed to sign when he left here.

Confused I am..........

I hope you get all of it figured out here soon

Hey, WTG on that weight loss!!! I'm happy for you!

One way or the other it will all come out in the wash- while I know it is pointless to worry about it, I do. It is a very competitive industry but so be it.

On the weight loss, thank you. But know I really do not put a whole lot of stock in it. Sure I weigh myself and all that but that is not the focus anymore. With all due respect to anyone on this forum, weight loss is simple. I can not eat and lose weight, I can take laxatives and lose weight, I can vomit every meal I eat and lose weight. Losing it is easy. Losing it the right way and getting fit and looking good is harder than hell.
I am thrilled I can run 3.3 miles in 30 minutes, thrilled I can finally bench my weight and thrilled that clothes are looking better on me, I would not really care if I weighed 260 still and all these were still true. I am stronger in the traditional sense and in better cardiovascular shape than I ever have been. This is what is important to me in the overall. Weight loss is a by product of all of this- I am simplifying it I know but oh well.

It took me a bit to get to this attitude and actually I did not really 100% embrace it until this weekend.

Thank you though Newbride02, I appreciate your good feelings.

not simplified at all - those are all major victories...
That's awesome -tehre are some people who never quite get to that attitude that believe the number on the scale is the be all and end all... well done..