You're welcome...you don't have to show yourself off if that isn't your thing but I am glad you posted the pic, I like to have a face to the name.

You are good looking though so get used to it

I will accept charming and could be talked into handsome.

Cute is for pretty boys, I am not pretty. You see pretty boys all the time where you are at Mal- no comparison.

and where i l ive - all the pretty boys like the pretty boys.. not old hags like me

pretty boys are overrated -

cute boys aren't pretty boys - cute boys are more about personality with good looks thrown in...

pretty boys are just 'tards

Thank you ali. I do appreciate the complement and the understanding.
Who knows. Maybe this weight loss will open me up a bit. Tall, fat, socially awkward & imbecilic is no way to go through life. I can fix fat, imbecilic and maybe awkward.

Well fat anyway.....

I can understand b/c I am the same way to an extent. I used to be a very bad wallflower, the type who would rather be invisible than speak up. That has been changing, albeit slowly. It is due to a marked lack of self-confidence and there are many days where that is my norm. I am slowing realizing that I am not as hideous as I thought I was and that my body isn't necessarily something to be totally ashamed of.

Those pics in the beginning of my thread? A year ago you couldn't have paid me to post those, now I am proud enough of what I have accomplished that I don't mind, it shows how far I have come.

You'll see, the changes are subtle but I bet as you start losing more, you will open up a bit

Ever have a day start off perfectly fine and then a bunch of little things happen to make it go to crap before 730?

Holy hell-

First off- it is a lovely early fall day here, flurries later. It will be nice to see snow again, its been so long. The temp is not bad for early October so.....wait its April 10???

I do not know if people drive any stupider than in the Greater Chicagoland area. The damn tollway I need to take in and out of the sticks everyday- I88- is now under construction.....again. Why can't people get the heck over instead of going all the way to where the lanes merge and then expect you to just let them in. Dont they realize that if they got over 1/4 mile back the traffic would flow easier?? This is at 615am!!
Spill 1/2 my coffee while avoiding one of the above idiots at 618am. Coffee good, Brian needs coffee. Coffee was gone.
Then I get into the office and annoying office girl and irritating IT boy for some reason are freakin upbeat, loud and want to joke around at 635. They are the type for cutting/witty remarks that you used to hear on Friends. I hated Friends so I hate their comments.
Then I have a stack of papers with a post it to 'go through'. What the hell does that mean??? Go through- hell, I went through them all right..

Plus my boss who put them there is not responding to emails......

743. Give me strength......

I just hate it when people are upbeat and joking around at 6:35am.. don't they know they're supposed to be grouchy grumps

The interesting thing is that I never really cared that I was fat and didn't care about pictures.
Sure I could tell i gained weight but everyone gains as the age right?
I am also starting to realize that I am not the same person I was as a child. I may be attractive, witty, athletic and such. I just have never heard these things from anyone other than my wife and mother. I will always be the guy who couldn't get a date for prom- or a date period-, was humiliated on multiple occasions throughout his childhood and generally hated life until several years ago.
I may open up solely because where I live no one knows me from my youth. I have retained 1 real friend from my adolescence. Maybe that will help.

Bah- bad mood today. Need to something to get me out of this- or accept it and wade into it.

635 am is not a time for upbeat unless you are paid to be or are coming off one hell of a night.
Grumpy is the way god intended people to be at that hour.

I do not disagree

I've never quite understood my parents -my mother you cannot talk to in the am -until she's had 2 cigarettes, a cup of coffee and the new york times crossword puzzle... My father, jumps out of bed singing... he got many things hurled in his general direction when I was a surly teenager when he was on Mal slept thru the alarm you go wake her duty

Morning cheerfulness is just all kinds of wrong..

OK. Not getting any better. Slightly worse if possible.

I have decided to wade into it and enjoy a truly shitty day.

I now have to train a new PM to do an achingly simple job. I really do not have time to put up with this kind of BS right now. This guy has no communication skills- sends emails like he is texting. This is a huge pet peeve of mine. He refuses to understand why people want to see 'you' instead of 'u'. The denseness carries over into other aspects also.

I am running 5 miles this evening to get the toxins out.


I just realized this has nothing to do with weightloss......

Good lord it is only 1015....

you have hit upon a huge pet peeve of mine -while the caps lock key isn't always my best friend - emails we don't get charged by the letter -and even if you're typing on a blackberry - it's not that hard to type out the entire word.

there's nothing more frustrating than having to sound out messages from people to figure out what the hell they meant...

watevr do u mean?

Huge issue with me. You know those phone commercials where they are talking in 'text speak'? They honestly make me want to find the executive that had that idea and disipline them.

Ooooo, 11am. At least the Cubs won yesterday......

Has your day progressed any better???

Mine is in the shitter...

Is it Friday yet?

Nope.
I am riding to wave of crap now and just letting it play out its string. I will leave here eventually. Wife has grad school tonight so it is just me and the cats until 9. I actually am excited about not dealing with anyone for around 4 hours.

Friday isn't til tomorrow silly. Today be Thursday- sucky sucky Thursday.