It's been two days of eating healthier and I've already faked my body out and lost a pound. Yay! I don't rely on what the scale says though cause I know weight fluctuates daily, but to get me excited about what I'm doing I'll just tell myself I lost a pound.

I need warm weather to come so I can go outside and doing some walking/jogging.

Cutting back on eating out is really going to help my savings account also. I think when this is all over I'm going to treat myself to something wonderful like the 2 tattoos I've been thinking about. It will be nice to put them on a body I feel comfortable in as well. Can't wait!

Hi! Way to go for joining the board and committing to this journey, I'm a newbie also! I have warm weather, but I wish I could get motivated to get out there more. Good luck and keep up the hard work!

yay!! we can do this! One pound at a time!

Since Sunday I've lost 3 lbs unless the scales are lying.

I think I shocked my body by completely changing my eating habits. I haven't purchased anything outside of what I bought while grocery shopping. I usually hit up Wawa at least once a day. This is definitely an improvement.

I am also writing down everything I eat. I'm not doing that for caloric intake or anything, but rather for the knowledge of knowing what I'm eating and if I am making conscious choices or not.

I made an effort to get to the gym last night and do a half hour of cardio and a light arm workout. I'm going to workout again tomorrow morning or when I am done work. I can't seem to wake up early so that may not work.

Friday's are going to be my treat days... at least for breakfast because I must have my fresh lox and cream cheese at least once a week.

That's all for this evening. I'm tired and I just want to go relax right now.




Thanks for all the support!!!

... I will succeed!

I f'd up the last time I started working on me and did not continue to keep up with my weight loss. However, 2009 will be a big change for me. I have realized a lot about myself recently and why I am overweight. It's a difficult realization but I am glad I noticed it.

Maybe some people can relate to me with this one...

My dad has always been a picker and an eater. His side of the family has always been obese. My grandmother was probably 400 or so lbs and my cousins are all above that. It's scary. I never thought much about it as a kid, but once my cousin Chris had gastric bypass surgery it all came together (he was close to 600 lbs I believe).

Anyways, that's not really the root of MY problem. I have always loved food but my father has always picked at my food and whatever I made that looked delish he had to have. He would always take my food from me. He'd grab it if necessary. Granted he was always doing it jokingly but it somehow got to me and I began to hoard the food to myself. I would bring home pizza and hide it or eat the whole thing before he knew I even had it. Now, don't get me wrong. I've always been good with sharing but this was at a different level.

Not to mention, I can't go into my kitchen without 20 questions. "What are you doing? What are you making? How? Who? What? Why? That's quite a bit. You're going to eat ALL of that? Oh, you brought me pizza..." The more he made comments the more upset I got and the more I'd eat. The more I ate out so he couldn't eat my stuff. Then there was college where I had all the freedom in the world to eat whatever I wanted. Not to mention buffet breakfast lunch and dinner anddd fast food... beer.... liquor... 3 AM pizzas... etc. It was crazy. I really packed on the pounds.

Daddy, here's to you. You messed me up a bit but I am glad I realized why I am the way I am. It's important to me to become aware of myself and what I am going through. I love you and I love you for trying. I will conquer this though and I will let you know when it is all over why I am able to do this now.

So, here comes the problem with dealing with it. I either move out and deal with it on my own or I accept that he likes to eat my food and look at his sharing of my food as a way of reducing my portions. For now, I'll go with the latter because I can't quite afford living on my own right now.

I have begun to eat healthier though and I don't think I will see him picking at my food quite as much since he'd rather pick at the junk food I used to eat.

Anyways! Onward! I have big goals. I am currently at about 246 lbs (lost a few pounds this week). Around Christmas I was at my highest of 250 lbs. I am 22 and 5'6 and my goal weight is between 140-150 lbs. I will be happy with that but ultimately I would like to be about 130 lbs.

• I am going to eat healthier.
  
• I am going to exercise.
  
• I am going to lose this weight.
  
• I am going to do it for me and me only.
  
• I am going to push myself to accomplish my goals.

I am lucky to be surrounded by several people who are supportive of my goals and I am extremely lucky to have been working in the fitness/healthcare industry for several years. I have access to a free gym 24/7 and a wonderful friend and personal trainer who wants to help me achieve my goals and won't charge me a dime to workout with her. My boss and several others I have worked with in the past are also to willing to help at no charge and I am going to take advantage (but not too much that it hurts them) of their offers and train with them as much as possible.

I think that is enough for today... I will keep you guys updated as much as I can with my busy schedule. Photos are coming. I need to work up the nerve to share this bod of mine.

I want to thank everyone for the inspiration though. There are so many people on this forum that I admire. You guys keep me motivated. The before and after pictures get me through each day. You guys have really achieved a lot and should all be so proud that you have the strength to push through and conquer your weight loss journeys.

I want to say thank you! It's belated but your comment was much appreciated!

Thank you so much for the support and encouraging words! Hope you are doing well with your journey!

Today I did pretty well.

Brunch -- egg beater omelette w/ mozzarella, weight watchers pita, banana w/ table spoon of all-natural peanut butter

Snack -- couple sourdough pretzels at work

Dinner -- whole wheat wrap w/ purdue chicken slices, light honey mustard dressing, lettuce, a handful or two of pirate booty, chocolate yogurt for dessert

I need to work on spacing things out a little bit more and eating every 2-3 hours rather then every 4-5 hours but I have felt great the last few days and am excited for my workout with Diana tomorrow.

I work for a chiropractor and we have a small gym in our office. We are working on starting a program call The Big Loser Challenge (a takeoff on The Biggest Loser). Noelle (the other receptionist) and I have decided to do the program with the teams and will be participating in the workouts twice a week with them. It will be great to get involved and work with other people on my goal.

The Big Loser Challenge is on hold. We're starting CrossFit and it's getting popular so we have to hold off on the Challenge. I would love to get involved with CrossFit and I think I just might once I get back into the swing of things. I don't think I have the endurance or stamina to keep up with it right now. Even though the Challenge is out Noelle and I are still going to workout with Diana bi-weekly and I will be able to get in my cardio and other weight training on the off days.

My stomach feels great. I have been eating so much better and I don't feel as bloated as I used to. I am really trying to stay away from fried and salty foods completely. I have opted for healthier things like chicken wraps, granola, fruits and salads and limited the amount of cheese (no more american). I am using the laughing cow wedges for now. They are delish and only 35 cals each. I also use veggie slices instead of american. It's a good way to fake my taste buds out.

Now to cut back on the beer and sugary drinks when I head out with friends. This will be difficult cause I do love beer. Yikes!

I am going to go see if there are any good concerts coming up cause I could definitely use a night of dancing!!

Hi!

Thanks for visiting my diary! Congratulations on your 4 pounds too

Sounds like you're off to a great start. We'll get there!

David

Hi! Glad to have you on the forum! Your attitude ROCKS!!! You know where you are coming from, and you have a keen eye on where you are going to. I love the gratitude you have for the wonderful things in your life too, like good people and even a free gym!

My question is, what the heck is "a handful of pirate booty?" Eeek! Sounds x-rated or something...

Best wishes on your journey!
ABBA

pirate booty is delish!

Pirate Booty from Robert's American Gourmet

see there! you can find it in the organic isles at your grocery store. i work in a childcare room and the kids started bringing it in. i had to try. it really is awesome. check it out. the little puffs are so light and the aged cheddar taste is awesome!


thanks so much for the support! my workout today was fantastic. i feel great!

whooh^^ you look like you are doing great^^ keep up the good work. i am totally loving reading your diary =P

thanks so much! i slacked a little keeping updated these past few days but i'm back and ready to keep up with the diary.

This weekend for the Eagles game kind of sucked. The food was great but I really wasn't watching what I was eating.

Friday I did well and had a great workout with Noelle. Hung out with friends and drank some wine afterwards. Played Wii and had a really good time!

I drank a TON Saturday night. All wine and vodka... but still A TON. It was a very interesting night. I had a good time though! I ate well most of the day but then came the drunk munchies and I ate a small bowl of kraft mac n' cheese. I don't even like that stuff but I think I was a little too drunk to realize it. The following morning hurt. Ouch.

Sunday was game day. 1 beer... I had quite a few clams (most of which I did not use butter). Good choice, I suppose. High cholesterol though... Tortillas and fresh salsa... Tiny slice of lasagna... Chris' special inside out burgers (burger with 2 slices of american cheese inside on a kaiser roll w/ ranch & mayo).... THAT was the worst thing I ate but it was oh so good.


Back on the bandwagon!

Monday I ate pretty good until I had a craving for nachos at like 11:30 PM. Bad choice but I made a small plate. Too much cheese though. Need to nix the late night cravings. But I did work out earlier that evening.

Tuesday I did well. Worked out with Diana. I'm totally sore. My hip is killing me.

Wednesday, today, I ate well so far. Eggwhite omelette with a veggie slice & slice of rye bread & light butter. 1/2 a Chicken salad wrap with lettuce for lunch and one slice of turkey cause Tyler made me try a piece when I was buying it at the deli. Before I hit the deli though I had another great workout with Diana. I need to do cardio tomorrow and then Friday we're doing pilates.

Tomorrow I start classes so I need to work out some sort of plan for dinners cause I'm in class from 4 to 9:30 PM. Boo... I'll probably bring a wrap or something with me and some almonds to snack on. Maybe I'll hit the gym between one of my classes and get a little workout in.

That's it for now. I feel like I'm just babbling and spitting out everything I missed out on this weekend. Enjoy your day!

Support is welcomed! I love those encouraging words.