This is a cycle that I myself am familiar with. Well, WAS familiar with. That mindset is counter intuitive/counter productive, as you already know. I would recommend reading an acticle I posted on the forums that I found in a magazine called "How to avoid the backslide". It gives great insight on how/why this happens and how to avoid it in the future.

As far as tryin to be supportive of the boyfriend, unfortunately, there is nothing you can do that will make a change in him . . that has to come from inside of himself. It's great that you don't let his bad habits effect your choices, btw. All I can tell ya is to be as supportive as ya can with the good choices he makes. For myself, my hubby swears he "has to lose a little weight" but will wolf down a whole bag of rice cakes (@700 calories one sitting) which I just say to him, while rice cakes are a better choice over chips, eating that many is NOT healthy or necessary. That's jsut one example. But I'm sure we both share the struggle to maintain a newer/healthy lifestyle and have to be in company of others who make unhealthy ones and make us "face" temptations. Kudos to US!

Only seeing my boyfriend on weekends is really starting to bother me. We are in a serious, committed relationship, but I only seeing him one or two days a week. He works out of town, so mon-fri he is gone. I had a bit downfall today. I had to work 7-3, and he left around 1pm to go to the town he works in.. so I didn't see him at all today. I came home from work exhausted, and all I really wanted was to spend time with him. Since he wasn't here I turned to food. It was almost like a mini-binge I guess. 2490 calories later... I feel awful. I hate how I turn to food when I am bored, lonely, tired, or whenever any kind of negative emotion occurs. It doesn't help much that we are out of food right now so we don't have any fruit or dairy in the house... even the veggies are limited to broccoli and spinach. I thought it would be healthy not having alot of food around, but it's the opposite. I just end up binging on the few unhealthy foods we do have (ex. popcorn and granola bars). Anyways... I am meeting with a personal trainer tomorrow. I have never been the sporty or thin girl... and now I know why. I love food, I am obsessed with food. I don't know how to not be this way. Seems like my goal is farther and farther away. I want to stay hopeful, but it is seemingly impossible. Counting calories is accurate and makes sense... but it is annoying. Who wants to track everything they put in their mouths! Well, I am going to get going. Gotta figure out how I am going to survive the personal trainer tomorrow.

There are going to be days like that. At least you recognize your weakness . . what triggers your bad behaviors.

I hope you can step outside of this for just a moment, and focus on long term results . . that it IS possible and you CAN do it, of course it will take some work for sure. And realize that there will likely be "slip-ups" along the way, but dont use those slip ups as excuses to continue bad behaviors that continue from meal to meal, day to day, week to week. Pull yourself up by your bootstraps and get back on track. Seeing a trainer is a good thing, but not a total solution. The desire has to come from within!

As far as the calorie counting goes, you are right it can be time consuming, but as time goes by, you are creating new habits and getting a true understanding as to portion sizes, estimated calories etc, and that will help you make healthy choices and decisions when it comes to food intake.

You can do this . . YOU ARE WORTH IT!