I'm new here and I thought that I would take the time to write a diary and hopefully some will read and and give me feedback. I am 21 years old and I live in Buffalo New York. I attend the University at Buffalo for psychology. I am 5'0 and weigh just under 130 and I'm trying to lose about 15-20 pounds. 110 is about the right weight for my height. This diary is going to start off on a bad note considering the fact that I go spinning 3 times a week but missed this morning. My alarm went off and I just didnt force myself to get out of bed. That is the lack of motivation that I need to get rid of. Not to mention the people that I am around dont help. The only person that pushes me is my boyfriends sister. Good thing we are going tomorrow. I need to get to the gym more. I need to get back on my 3 times a week schedule. Until next time....

It's the wierdest thing. I dread going for my walks/runs until I'm doing them at which point I feel f'n awesome! Then I feel even better when it's done. But sure as the day is long, tomorrow I'll be cranky about having to go back out.

The hardest part is building the new habits. While I may be cranky about it, I do need the exercise now. If I miss a day it actually puts me in a worse mood than I am while I'm getting ready to head out. And now I am constantly trying to do more.

When I first started I was just walking our dog around the block. Nothing much. Then I decided to be serious and get some real exercise. Well, the 10 minute walk turned into 20 minute walks. Those 20 minute walks quickly turned into 30 minute walks. Today I was out enjoying myself for 45 minutes. I got lucky and got off work early and used that time to squeeze a few extra minutes in and I loved every minute of it.

Yet despite all of that, there's this constant struggle to do it each time.

Good luck getting on that 3x/week schedule. And maybe you should tell your boyfriends' sister that you need her help in that regard and ask if she'll light a fire under your ass when you need one. My wife keeps me in line... while I'm pretty sure she just wants me out of her hair for a while, the end result is the same.

You can do it.

Hey, and welcome to your dairy! Maybe this will give ya a bit of an extra push in the motivation department. I also find that looking at my ticker and wishing there was a larger gap is pretty motivating haha.

What is your eating lifestyle like? Are you getting enough of the right foods to help give you energy? If not, that would be a definite thing to look into! Most people have their days where they just can't get up and go.. at least I do as well. Keep pushing yourself, taking your exercising one day at a time, and pushing yourself further toward you goal. We all have to start somewhere! Is there another time this week where you could go in place of today?

Thanks for responding. My boyfriends sister does push me to go. And I was on the schedule for a while but then when I missed one class I get in the habit of not going. And my eating habits are terrible haha I love pizza. And I'm going tomorrow instead of today so at least I can make up for it.

welcome!!

Any specific goals? daily meal plans? what's your overall weight loss plan??

Congrats on going tomorrow instead of today! Way to keep at it.

Have you ever tracked your diet? I use fitday.com You'll find that most anything is alright in moderation. I eat pizza pretty often too, just don't stuff my face as much as I used to.

yeah, and my boyfriend just made cookies. How wonderful of him.

Thanks for the comments. So today I forced myself and went to my spinning class and did my full body work out. It felt so good to actually break a sweat. Sometimes I realize how much I love going to the gym and then I get on a kick and go as much as possible. And then there are days when thats just not enough motivation. But I'm glad that I got my butt up and went. Now I'm about to eat a wonderful salad with low fat italian of course haha

Sounds like you had a good day. Keep up the work!