Hee, hee, If falling off a cliff was exercise I'd be jumping off myself. What a fun way to burn calories. Too bad running isn't as much fun as falling.

Tehehe, running is falling... except you fall onto your feet... over and over!

(actually "flying is falling and missing the floor" - Douglas Adams)

Another day, another accomplishment. I woke up at 5am and went to gym. Walked (fast and incline) for 20 mins... really didn't feel up to running yet. Then I did a full body workout with the resistance machines.

Now I'm playing hooky and chilling at home... Bad, I know.

Will do some belly dancing later.Might go visit my mom (she's in hospital - psychiatric clinic, to get intensive therapy for 3 weeks... borderline personality disorder and all that)... not so fun. I am so happy about exercising today!

Now just to keep my eating on track for the rest of the day!! This week will be full effort and no getting sidetracked!

I am sooo tempted to give belly dancing a try! I hear it's a great workout, and it seems like a blast!

Sorry about your mama!

I'm glad you are so pumped for your workouts. I wish I had that enthusiasm all the time!

Oh, I am sorry about your ma, but if that is what it takes to make her better, it is the way forward (my mom could really do with some care sometimes too!).

Great workout yesterday it seems (5 am wow!!! I went to bed at 4:30!), I am going swimming today, you totally motivated me!
Have a great day, Camy

My grandmother has BPD pretty severely. My mom has finally learned to deal with it. She says this book helped her a lot: Amazon.com: Understanding the Borderline Mother: Helping Her Children Transcend the Intense, Unpredictable, and Volatile Relationship: Christine Ann Lawson: Books

:hugs:

Thanks. My mom's had "problems" since I was young, so I'm pretty used to it. Thanks for all your comments though!

But Daiseeangel, I am certainly NOT always so enthusiastic! This is the first time I scraped up the courage this week

I'm glad you went swimming, Camy! I gotta go do that again!

Wow, right on, Madness. Thanks a lot for that link... I will have a look!

Ciao for now! (havin a stoner afternoon!)

Isn't it such a shame when you have to decide between endeavors that are monetarily fruitful versus self-fulfilling? Oh well, perhaps you can work for the NGO and volunteer at the hospital a few set hours? My mother is manic-depressive, so I am used to some episodes, but probably not to the severity you are. Ever since my mother has fallen ill she can control her urges and rationalize her thought process better. And that's a good thing, because I'd rather not have digital cameras thrown full-force at my head. I hope all goes well with your mother and that she can get out early.

Are you customarily an early riser? I wished I could get up as early as you to just work the hell out of my body. Alas, I have work from 6:00 AM to 3:00 PM. On my days off, I try to sleep in. Sleeping in is anything past 7:00 AM for me.

Great job getting your butt to the gym this morning AND wanting to do belly dancing too!

Hey!

Nope, I'm not a natural early riser... but since I go to my bf (faar away from home... ok 30 mins) I really love leaving that early to miss traffic and then I may as well go to gym! Some mornings I just say "screw it!" though!

Yay, my muscles are sore again... haven't worked them specifically in about a week and a half til yesterday! I ended up doing some dancing about in my room, but not much!

I was really struggling to not overeat last night... ended up having a slice of bread with peanutbutter too much! That's alright! But now I figure, I need to pace my food... it doesn't work for me to eat more in the beginning of the day and less later, it's gotta be spaced evenly (otherwise I start panicking about how little is left for the day! silly, I know)

So today I am being strong and waiting til my normal times to eat... Drink the water! Being at work again makes it easier, thank goodness! I am testing our systems latest changes right now.

Today I am a good tester. I can do this, I am overqualified for this in IQ, damnit! I will have an amazingly productive, successful and energy-filled day at work, at dancing, and at my boyfriend's place tonight!

Let's do this!!!

Sore muscles can be nice, at times. I made the mistake on my off day of Power 90 to do a Belly, Butt, and Thighs Bootcamp DVD by Crunch that I haven't done in two months... oh my goodness. The muscle soreness isn't untolerable. It just made me realize how much my lower body may have atrophied. Power 90 is much more upper body intensive, I need to work lower body back in afterward. Should help with slimming the thighs, packing more muscle on there. My poor gluteal muscles are experiencing the brunt of it. I do not particularly want to sit down, actually. If I weren't so lazy I would stand all day just so I wouldn't aggravate them by squishing them with my weight. There would be times where I would just want to massage them but couldn't because I would be in public places, oh say work, and that is not the best footage companies could have of you, especially if you plan on being a famous writer! Drudging those tapes up would be harmful to my career/professional image, heh.

Hehe, oh Deidre... so obsessive!

But honestly, working in a few jogs (as I noticed you've tried!) will help with the lower body too

I gotta focus and get back into super exercise mode this week I am in need of a good loss to keep my motivation for this journey up!

I feel like I'm fighting with myself when it comes to diet, though... Whenever I decide to make a healthy choice, I get an extreme urge to screw it up... then when I screw it up I think "See, you can't do it, may as well screw up ALL DAY!"

Sigh... thought I had beat this side of me, but I guess you never really do... just gotta work at it again!

Oh goodness no, you can never beat it. It's waiting there to usurp you. To gain power over it you must appease it every once and a while, throw it a bone, do not deprive it, otherwise it will take over. I have been doing so well myself lately. Then I went to a friends last night. And consumed about ten oreos, some other cookies, chips, pretzels, dip, and pita bread on top of healthy items like red peppers, strawberries, carrots, and broccoli. I picked at a lot.

Eating healthier I have realized my body responding better to food. I am not sure if my system has been cleaning itself out and running smoother since I am feeding it a better caliber. But I can tell when I am full. And I have the will power to refuse. I think I eat less when I eat a lot of fruits and vegetables all day because I'm giving my body what it needs.

Hey Anke! Sorry it took so long to get my lazy ass over to your journal... haha I'm just so damn self-centered!

Honestly, you really are an inspiration to me. You do so much to make yourself healthier, so much exercise and such a great plan of attack!

Anyway, I just thought I'd let you know.

How do you motivate yourself to exercise so often, even with work and everything? I honestly struggle with that, I have no real schedule since school let out.

I just read all 9 pages of your journal. YOU GO GIRL! haha.

<3
Annie

I am there with you! I want to eat right, I try to eat right, but if anything changes from my routine or planned food, then I screw it up completely!
Like yesterday, I ate sensibly most of the day, then I go out and eat so much! I mean starter, main and dessert, all of them very caloric... bad bad bad bad me! But all you can do is smile and say "tomorrow will be a better day". I am going to work hard this week, I need to see a new low (as Omega says)... I want to be 59.9 kg for August 8th... don't think I can do it, but I want!!!!!!!

You only started a few months ago, it is great you have the exercise under control, now slowly introduce the food changes. For me it was the other way round, I could change my diet without major problems, but then doing exercise... oh man, so time consuming! And tiring!

Have a great day, Camy