Hi my name is slicka-slicka-slim shady and I am about to rant. Blow some steam off and generally let it out. I feel the need to do this as I begin this quest for health, beauty and control over my wieght and my life. Please, if you don't like me or what I have to say just move along. I am making this thread primarily as a way to pep-talk myself and blog. I say that only because I need positive people in my life so I really appreciate the sincere, intelligent and positve replies. All others are not appreciated.


About 14 years ago I was a hottie, I was 125 lbs of lean , mean sexual chocolate. I could work all day, run for miles, and everything I set my mind to I did and did it well. I didn't always do the right thing but at least I did something. I took it all for granted, at 21 I had my first child and delivered at a weight of a whopping 235, I got down to 187, had my 2nd child and went right back. I finally got sick and tired of being s & t, and began to Tae-bo, drink lots of water, took vitamins and cut way down on my junk intake. I lost 68 lbs and got back into a 12 dress, then tragedy struck. My newborn son became extremely ill, household calamity followed and 6 years later I was 215,drugging, drinking, my husband after having a nervous breakdown and becoming very abusive ran off with a very smug ex-best friend and left me with the shame, the blame and the guilt for everything. Yes, some of it was my fault but it's never all one-sided. However I have been carrying this now for about 3 years.

I have been clean of all substances for 2 years, now. I am in college. I have a wonderful boyfriend but I weigh 220 lbs. The life I want to live is not in this skin. Inside is the hot, sexy, energy ball I used to be. And today I will begin this journey to reclaim that image and those abilities that belong to me. I am tired of getting no respect because people judge me on the outside, thinking I am lazy and out-of-control, you know what, they are right. I am sick of not having the energy to get down like I want to. I am tired of making excuses to my now almost teenage daughter for why I can't accompany her when she wants to go play! What am I CRAZY? I have a daughter that WANTS to spend time with me and I decline because I am FAT? I am doing something about this today right now.

I have already begun preliminaries. I checked my weight, used the calcs, informed myself of my nutritional needs and intake/ output requirements that I must meet to make my goals a reality. I have made a pact with myself, and I declare now that:

1. I will follow these guidelines. To reduce my intake of junkfood, fast food and other unhealthy eating habits, eat at least every 2 hours, drink water instead of sodas, have a mutivitamin everyday, and exercise every weekday (Tae-Bo MWF& Walking briskly for an hour TR)

2. I will be kind to myself when I slip, and get right on track again.

3. I will weigh in every month.

4. I will visit this forum and speak my mind.

5. I will reward myself with the things I want that are non-food and within my means.

Alright, that said, I have set a goal for 150 lbs. I know that I can do this, but I have not set a time frame, just a strict no-excuses bar for following my declarations above. Let's see how long it takes.


OK, now if I came off edgy, I apologize, sometimes it is important to me to get that way to make my point. To whom??? TO MYSELF. Happy Losing all!!!

arrgh arrgh arrgh

Today, i got down to business and worked out, but I didn't eat, I am goingnow into the kitchen to eat some raisin bran probably w/ whole milk. Beause that is what I have. I might have some tuna but that would taste awful together. I dunno. It's 1:38 pm and I am not really that hungry but I know I need to eat. had 46 oz of water and about to drink some more. It is reall hot in this place. I feel GREAT after working out, accomplished, energized, and beautiful. Time to take a shower and get ready for school.

So far the tracking is not an exact science, though I know what I am taking in is not what I am putting out.. I am excercising and developing that habit. I am happy overall, I am getting it!

YEAH!!!!

Welcome upsidedown. What do you mean by tracking? Are you talking about calorie count and energy expended? If so, I suggest signing up at fitday.com or a similar site to track your calories/nutrients etc.

Good job getting clean and getting on track.

Thank you for directing me to fitday! I appreciate that very much. Happy losing.

Good new is I am exercising and drinking lots of water. I am still determined and relatively happy.

The bad news is that I discovered that the scale I used to weigh myself in initially was 10 whole lbs short. SO, I am beginning at 230, wow. I have to admit that set me back a little, but I am on the road again!

I will weigh in on the weekly. I need to buy some scales of my own, but I am a little afraid of having them in the house, I 'll be checking them like e-mails!

My stamina is increasing by amazing strides in the last week I have gone from a 10 min workout to a 40 min workout. Granted I am sweaty and icky and floppy at the end BUT I AM GETTING THROUGH THE DANG THING!! Yeah!!! and not a moment too soon, I have a strange pain in my bellybutton that I suspect was a hernia trying to happen....I say hell no to that..

Still not eating quite right, but I totally intend on just redirecting myself everytime I flub. This has worked for me before...and I try to drink alot of water before I get hungry, this seems to help alot. REMEMBER THAT, UPSIDEDOWN!!!WATER HELPS!!!

Just wanted to welcome you to the forum . Best of luck reaching your goals.

You go girl! Fight! Fight! XD

I like your spunk, you'll do great

FIVE POUNDS!!! YEA_AH ...ok????? I weighed in last week @ 230 and today I am at 224 and some change....Tae bo, lots of water, I am only half heartedly watching the intake of food, though. Mostly because I tend to obsess, then crave, then binge. I say screw that! This is working! I am taking a multivitamin everyday to supplement...I want to get a ticker but like others I am running into issues that are slowing me down! lol..but when I get slowed down and can pay more attention I will come back and do it.

Yeyey!

PS....don't sweat the petty things...pet the sweaty things!!!

The week is not out yet and I weighed in at 224.5 lbs. I changedthe goal dateto my birthday which doubles the weight that I must lose per week but no pressure on me, just incentive. I keep forgetting to drink water. I am convinced that the weight loss slowed this week because of the lower amount of water that I have been drinking.

Total 16 lbs so far...today the scale says 214, I am drinking lots of water and staying active but not pushing myself like I intend to in the future...I am building up. I push myself a little harder and exercise a little longer than the day before but I am gearing up for an intense workout soon. I know that the output has to be more than the intake for weight loss...but I think there is even more to all of this and that is listening to my body...I found out that alot of times when I thought it was saying it was hungry that it was really thirsty. I found that getting up and getting active gave me lots of energy during the day and helped me sleep better than any benzodiazepine. I also found that if I drink warm water before meals I eat less. It's a wonderful thing and I am still moving right along. 16 lbs is 16 lbs dammit