Awesome Job! I hear ya on the indulging every once and a while-- I mean we are human arent we!! Hope you kicked the treadmills butt

Indulging is one of life's joys... learning to indulge in moderation, now that's tricky

Okay. I WILL do the treadmill today!! GAHHHHHH.... I feel like I did when I first started. Although I am at 205.6!
Granted, it will fluctuate, but just a little, if at all.
Bleh. I'm so nervous about starting college up again, and to compound my nerves I have to get 2 overrides to get into classes that are full. One of them I SWEAR got paid for but then somehow got dropped (this is my dad's class-- he's the professor) and to top it all off I got the bitchiest woman possible on the phone when I was trying to get the overrides. I felt like screaming in her ear "SHUT THE F*** UP! YOU'RE BEING A BITCH AND I DON'T APPRECIATE BEING TREATED LIKE I'M A F***UP! SO SHUT YOUR GODDAMN MOUTH BEFORE I SHUT IT FOR YOU!"
sheesh. Some people just really piss me off.

Sooo.. yeah. I really do need to get up there and get moving on that infernal contraption.

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HOLY HELL. I just got the call back from "Eileen" at the college and she was actually quite nice to me. Jeeeeeezzeeee, make up your mind, bitch.
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okay, well, bye!

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So I just found out that "Eileen" is a good friend of my dad's and apparently I've met her before and she was really nice and I loved her. The world is all topsy turvy!!

AHHHH!!!! haha... enough of that.

I went to red lobster tonight. I almost got a full plate of crab linguine alfredo (I looked it up, over 1100 calories!! <eek!>)

Sooo... I got a half plate with 12 fried shrimp and mashed potatoes. Needless to say, that wasn't any better than the full plate AND I could have gotten fresh fish instead, but old habits die hard. Gah.
Still haven't done the treadmill

byes.

Hey Lily, I like your thread. Noticed you go to school in VA, and you dad is a Prof. Which one? I went to W&M in Williamsburg. VA has some great state schools.

He's a professor at Shenandoah University and Lord Fairfax Community College. He's like a super dad- he works three jobs just so we can afford to go to the beach. He really is amazing. He's really caring and he's always there for me when I need it. He never once got angry at me when I was going through all that crap. He understood. I love my dad!
I am currently going to Lord Fairfax and just taking it a step at a time. I think there's some anxiety woven throughout my problems, but I'm working really hard at it.



Thanks for stopping by!
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Sounds like you dad is super hard-working and very kind. You're lucky to have such good people in your life!

Oh yeah, I really am lucky to have such great parents!

haven't eaten so far today (just woke up haha). I don't know what the day holds, grocery store perhaps? The grocery store used to be my caloric downfall. I would always get one bottle of soda to drink in there and then buy another on the way out for dinner. Now I just have diet soda .

Hoping to go out to eat for lunch, McD's maybe. You can actually get a relatively low cal meal there. Kid's nugget meal with apple dippers instead of fries. Although, I have to admit, I almost always get fries

Haha... You must be online right now, David. Thanks for giving me something to do

I Totally know how you feel about overrides-- I always have to run around and get signatures from my professors to get into a lot of my classes because I dont have the pre-requesite or because theyre full or whatever, its sooo stressful! They should really just create more sections and times to be more flexible with so many students trying to fit a class into their schedule. But at least Eileen ended up being really nice, maybe she was just having a bad day on the phone

haha... They set me up in my classes then dropped them for non-payment even though they SAID I have a grant (which I have no clue HOW I got, I don't remember filling out any forms...) and that I didn't have to do anything, that my grant money would cover it automatically.
I noticed this yesterday and I can't call because it's the weekend and nobody's there. GRR.
annnnnnyway... Lazy sunday before class starts tuesday... I'm so nervous. I think my medicines kind of dull my moods (Thank god!) so I'm not jumpy or anything, just anxious. Oh well.

My mom's making peach jam. Smells amazing. We're having hamburgers and corn on the cob for dinner. I might even try some zucchini/squash/other veggie I don't think I like. It's something about the floppiness of cooked squash and zucchini and the texture that makes me gag, but I'll try it, just so I can say I tried.

My brother's back at VT and we went to Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2 yesterday with Megan (his ex). They're on friendly terms, and my sister and her have become like best friends. They kind of leave me out which makes me sad, but I guess I have my own friend. Yes, friend. Singular. She's the only one I see and she's the only one who makes an effort to see me. I hate how all my friends never initiate conversation or ANYTHING. I'm always the one who has to strike up the conversation, and I run out of things to say relatively quickly, so I'm left hanging while they talk to someone else. Grr.
205.4!!
that's over 25 lbs!!
hahahaha YAYYYYYYY!

Thanks for reading my babbling messages guys, I dont have a therapy appointment until the end of september
Byess!

THANK THE GODS!
I FINALLY did the treadmill. 30 minutes, 1.25 miles, 5.2% incline, 168 CALORIES!!
I think this allows me the snack (that I was going to have anyway haha) of my choice. I just opened a NEW bag of Ruffles chips and I picked 5 unbroken chips. Fitday says: 63 calories
YAY ME!!!
Oh, haha, I also burned off my dessert (Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich <140 cal>) That makes me feel good, especially since I didn't REALLY want it.
AHH I JUST FEEL SO DAMN HAPPY!
I wish this feeling would never go away.

Alright, thanks for reading, I suggest you all go work out so you feel as good as I do!
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Congrats on the exercise and the weight loss--way to go!!! Im so happy for you!

205.1!!

only 5.2 lbs until I reach the 100's!!

I got my dad to call the college because I got REALLY frustrated with this moron named Dave- or was it Doug?
Anyway, he was a major jerkface.
So my dad called them from work and he said that he was on the phone for a solid hour, maybe more. BUT he got all my classes sorted out and it's all good.

OHHHHHH!!!!!! I FOUND THE BEST DIET FROZEN MEAL EVERRRRR!!! Lean Cuisine Salisbury steak and macaroni and cheese. Holy shizmoley. 280 calories of pure DELICIOUSNESS.

That's all I have to say for right now!
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Thats so awesome, you should defintely do something cool when you reach the 100's its a major landmark! And that lean cuisine sounds delicious..I really like the panini sandwiches chx ranch club *yummm*

McD's does have a few healthier options. I always go for the grilled chicken sandwich with no mayo, and the grilled chicken snack wraps are not that bad either (I get them with no sauce). I opt for no fries though, and of course none of the soda drinks either. I find that a lot of fast food places do have healthier options. I like to research nutrition info on each restaurants websites so that if I have to stop at one of them I know what I can order and all it's nutritional info. Try it out .