Hey! So, I'm really getting into this treadmill thing. I just got off- 535 calories! (or at least that's what the thing said...) I was on for an hour and a half, at a 6% incline, 2.5 mph, 3.75 miles!

Wooo!!!!



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Annie I'm soo happy to see you incorporating exercise into your daily routine AND LIKING IT!!

You are awesome

WAY TO GO!!!

WOW, an hour and a half!? Feeling good yet ??

I'll be checking in on you to make sure this habit sticks!!

I think it will!

I just got off- 7.7% incline, 1 hour 30 minutes, 3.75 miles, 2.5 mph, 604 CALORIES!!


It makes me feel so GREAT!

Only problem is, how much should I up my calories while still losing weight? Do you think I need to at all? Fitday says with the 604 burned by exercise I burned 3,010 today. I'm eating around 1500. Is that too much of a discrepancy? I don't want to be unhealthy! But I'm really enjoying the workouts!

Thanks guys!
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Heya!

Glad to hear you're enjoying it. What a GORGEOUS new pic of you!!!!

I think keep your eats the same and see how the loss goes (if it's way too much, then up the cals a bit) and if you get super hungry... and then go up to 2000 on any days that you are hungry.... just my opinion

Yes ma'am!
Sounds good.

Happy Valentine's Day! Now here I sit, surrounded by marshmallow hearts and sugar-free peppermints (thank god no chocolate!!), but I'm not all that worried.

Just popping in to say hello. All is well.
Thanks for reading, especially you, Anke!


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Annie,

I'm glad you won't be too tempted with the junk food today. Everyone is bringing something sweet to work today and I was thinking of something healthy I could bring instead of chocoates and sweets. I LOVE chocolate and really have to practice some discipline today because it's going to be a test! PRAY FOR ME EVERYONE! LOL

Hey I just had to come by and post. I saw you're other pic the other day in txsqlchick's diary and then the new one you just posted and ZOMG! You look AMAZING and SO different!! And yes, you are seriously pretty and cute! I can't wait to find my face again underneath all these layers. You're very inspiring and good job on losing FIFTY pounds! Oh and

Happy Valentine's Day!!
~Lisa

Well, I fell for something sweet for breakfast. I had three pancakes from McDonalds... and some marshmalllow hearts- only 200 cal worth, though! Hahaha... I'm already at my usual daily limit- and it's not even dinner yet.

And don't worry, I'll pray for you haha, I think we all need a little divine intervention today.
AH! THANK YOU!!!!! That makes me so happy!
You're so awesome.
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I did the treadmill for 1hr15min, around 500 cal... Hopefully that'll offset the damage done today.

The new pic is the first thing I noticed! Absolutely too cute for words!!!

Haha thanks so much. It really helps boost my self esteem to hear people say that. I'm always SOOOO self conscious... I really need to work on being more confident, my low self esteem is the side effect of 1)being overweight most of my teenage life and 2) having a sister who is amazingly tall and slim and beautiful who could eat whatever she wanted without worrying about gaining any weight at all. Ever.
Guys never wanted me, except for the really really weird guys, (one eventually turned out to be gay, one has a child at 17, and another won't graduate high school until he's in his twenties <he really isn't very bright.>) and so I've never been the "popular girl". I had to get my ged at 16 because of some mental instability, and so I never had any high school social experience. I'm always really awkward around people. I can't talk on the phone because I feel like I never have anything interesting enough to say. I have one actual friend, but I never see her. Plans never work out.

I never felt comfortable in my own skin, but as I've gone through this weight loss process, I've been increasingly comfortable with my body. I also had some health problems to avoid (I was prediabetic with high bp) and luckily that has all been solved. I'm not losing weight for anyone but myself, because it is my greatest wish to feel comfortable with my body.



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I had vegetable beef soup for dinner- 60 calories! Very filling, too.

Awesome. I took my sister's dog for a walk before it started to sleet. I feel so great! I want to get on the treadmill again, but I don't need to burn any more calories!

Thanks for reading my weird thoughts.
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I can totally relate although I'm ALOT older than you. But I was always heavy and school was a real hardship because of it. I laughed when I read about the one boy ending up being gay...that happened to me too. And I always attracted the mentally unstable ones or ones who could not speak english...well until I met my husband. Well whether he speaks english is still up for debate :X. Anyway I was SOo self conscious but my mom got me a job in customer service and as long as I was behind a counter it made it easier after I got used to it...cuz then I was doing my job and it wasn't about me....the counter was my safety net. Then I finally took it further to when I wasn't and I'm fine on the phone cuz they can't see me. Usually in other situations but sometimes I am in a public gathering and feel like I want to crawl in a hole still and have to stuff it down. So it's still a battle. I know once my weight is down it'll make a huge difference and I admire you for tackling it at such a young age. You should be so proud of yourself. And I know I said how cute you were before but I LOVe your hair that way. It really looks good on you ~Lisa

hey now, you're never too mature to relate
I think it's because I take it as my personal philosophy to smile and be nice to everyone, even if I think they're really weird. I think they get the wrong idea... yeah, but I can't really get a job. I go to school (almost) full-time AND I can't drive. (which sucks, but I just can't get anyone to go with me. And I can't really get motivated. I think it scares me, that I'll be in control of something that could kill someone, and that I won't have to rely on my family to drive me around, which is something I really enjoy because we always talk and when we don't it's just nice to have someone there, for the company. I know EXACTLY how you feel. I want to go to a concert of my favorite bands with my friend, but I just know I can't handle the crowd That's what my mom says. She says if she had gotten her weight under control when she was younger, she would never have had to have her gastric bypass surgery. I'm quite happy I'm doing this now, while it's easier.Thanks. I need to get my hair cut now though, it's been a while since that picture was taken, and I'd be mortified if someone mistook my hair style for a mullet. Heaven forbid!! That's a pretty name! I don't know any Lisa's! Beautiful!

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Ack, I'm munching again... time for bed.

You guys are so awesome. I mean that.

I'm nice to everyone too...it's like because I'm heavy I have to be to compensate. In cali it's normal to be friendly or....weird I guess but once I moved to Ohio I got alot of flack for being "nice". People thought I was up to something...go figure. And don't stress about the license....I didn't get mine until I was 23. I was terrified and the longer I waited the worse it got. Plus my mom was not the best teacher...you had to peel her off the car roof before the engine started and she'd panic and yell.

As far as huge crowds go I can hide in those so that's not a total problem unless I don't want to deal with the noise. But at party size gatherings I've always felt out of place. It's taken me 3 years to feel comfortable around my husband's family during holidays and it still sneaks up.

But ya know...it's great to be in this forum and not be the ONLY one. Not that I'd wish weight problems on anyone but the longer I'm here and know I'm facing the same stuff it makes it alot easier. Also confirms my thoughts about how much it IS my weight holding me back. I always bought into that "being thin won't make you happy" crap. Well why not? It's the only thing that's making me unhappy! Anyway hope you have a great rest of the weekend

Love the new pic of you; you look GREAT!