I dunno, that calorie burn sounds kinda high for a treadmill; I can walk on a treadmill at 3.5-4mph for 20 minutes and burn less than 100 calories. I think that's definitely a Steve question!

Yeah, but it's at a 8.5% to a 9% incline, so it's like a lot more effort.

Sounds good, I'll see if I can track him down.

True.

But Steve seems to know all sorts of good stuff; there's a big difference between how different sites calculate calories burned, it's weird! Hard to get a straight answer.

I got someone to help me
Karacooks? Very awesome.
It all makes a bit more sense to me now. I was sort of stressing about how to stay under cals and how much I should exercise... But now, I feel more freedom.

Also, probably can't do the treadmill tonight because my room has been taken over by boxes and boxes of stuff from the pantry and the kitchen and downstairs bathroom.

The floor guy came and he ripped up the floor, but we had to get the pantry, computer desk, kitchen, and downstairs bathroom completely empty and clear it out. I don't think I've ever seen our kitchen/computer room (they're joined together, really just one big room.) as empty as it is right now. Basically everything got shoved in my room because I'm the only one who has a room of her own. Crap is piled up 2 boxes high filling the entire main part of my room including behind the folded up treadmill so I can't put it down to use it. There's a passageway to my bed and it extends around under my bed so I can still use my computer.

By the way, I'm a friggin genius. I figured out that you don't have to connect the router to a computer to make it work. The computer got packed up and put in my room, and the router and internet box was attached so it had to be dismantled. We didn't have internet until noon-ish because there was nothing hooked up. I thought the router had to be hooked to a computer but I'd seen something in some magazine that implied you didn't have to have it that way, so I took the router and internet box, plugged it into the wall, and disconnected my tv from the cable. I plugged the box into the cable plug, and it WORKED!!!

So yep, I'm proud.

Also, I'm very proud of myself for a nice recovery to a little eating mishap today. I ate probably half a bag of chips, and I was walking around wanting more and I had a 100 cal pack of pretzels, and god I just wanted more... so my mom came home (it took that to realize how ridiculous I was being and that I was hiding food the way I swore I would never do again) so I sat down, put on a blanket, reclined, and had a nice long nap. One, I'm proud I was able to stop eating. I used to eat a whole lot more, even after my mom came home. And then we went to dinner at taco bell/pizza hut (they're combined) and I got a personal pan cheese pizza with 3 breadsticks (It's a meal...) and I started eating and I just told myself :"You're not really as hungry as you think you are. Slow down, offer someone a slice, and a breadstick."
So I did... but no one wanted one!! So that put me in a hard situation, because I don't like taking stuff home from fast food places (I don't know why, but I've never liked doing that.) Do I eat the 4th piece? Do I eat the last breadstick? So I bit the bullet and took it home.(And proud moment #2) All in all, I ate 3/4 of the pizza and 2 out of the 3 breadsticks... but that makes me so happy that I was able to recognize that I wasn't really that hungry, and made myself stop.

On the way into the restaurant, I got a phone call from my friend's mom inviting me to a surprise party on Saturday for my best friend's birthday!! I'm SO EXCITED!! Yay!!

Well, I'm going to take the chihuahua out for a walk to get all the exercise I can. I might take the bigger dog out too. I'm not even going to entertain the thought of taking Sam's bulldog out until he gets a tighter collar, because while it would be great exercise for me if he got loose while I was walking him because I'd have to chase him all over, he most definitely eat something he shouldn't and throw up all over the living room.

<3Annie

Just dropping in on ya to see how you are... and I have to say that I am VERY PROUD of you for recognizing and stopping yourself... Way to go!!! You keep on doing what you're doing, just think every time you're going to put something in your mouth... Am I really that hungry, and although you might eat it anyway, I'm positive that you won't eat as much as long as you think before you eat Well chickity.. until next time
Natasha

Thanks! I'm quite proud of myself too.
The guy's here doing the floor with that really loud saw, so I had to wake up at 7 AM. I'm ridiculously tired and I already had breakfast (1/4 personal pan cheese pizza from last night, and 1 breadstick.) but it doesn't feel like I ate anything because it's so early. I have to watch myself today for boredom eating... but I know I'll do alright.

It will help that they're all busy tearing up the subfloor in the kitchen so I can't just run in and grab something without falling through the floor... haha, there's a good deterrent.

Well, I'll probably end up playing Mah Jong or Solitaire on the computer all day.

Blah...

<3
Annie

Hmmm... Maybe I should have someone tear up my floor so I can't go in there!!! LOL! Just kidding... I hope your boredom hasn't been too bad and I hope ya didn't do anything too naughty today, but I know how it is when you're tired and bored... food just looks so great.. Damit!!! Anyways, I'm sure you're totally and I'll be checking in on ya to see how it went... By the way, thanks for stopping by my place and leaving all those encouraging words I really really needed that!!! Sometimes other people recognize how good we're doing more than we do and if feels dam good to hear it from someone else!!! well until next time...
Natasha

Some sites/machines use your basal metabolic rate plus the calorie burn provided by the exercise to give you the calories burned...others just use the calories burned over your usual metabolic burn.

Big difference...

Well... damnnnnnn... I ate and ate and ate ALL FREAKING DAY. 2800 cal... and that's the low estimate. God I feel so ridiculous.

Why can't I just control my eating?

We all have our good and bad days girlie... You're doing fine... Just pick yourself up and try again. Look at all the progress you've made this far... Don't beat yourself up over a bad day... just look it as you have room for improvement and tomorrow is going to be a great day! I'm still so proud of you and all that you have accomplished... you hang in there okay....
Natasha

Thanks. I'm hanging in there. Yesterday was a good day!

Has anyone seen the movie Up? Friggin awesome. I love Dug (doggy)! It was so cool!! And very sweet (as in sentimental).

<3
Annie

Hey Annie, glad to see you're doing good!!! I was worried about ya! No I haven't seen that movie yet, my son has been wanting to go see it, but I haven't had a chance yet... I joined this new site, it has tons of information and a food tracker, excercise tracker, pretty much everything you could think of all in one frkin site... its sparkpeople... if you check it out.. do look me up... comamasprincess... I'll still be coming in here and posting and checking on you all my lovely friends... Natasha

Soooo... Once again, I haven't been as good as I'd planned. In fact, I've been bad. I ate out 3 times today... had 3 granola bars, shitloads of caffeine (I've been trying to stay away from it so I can sleep at night and not all day)... Here's what I had today:
3 pancakes with 2 things of butter and 1 container of syrup
2 medium diet cokes (not caffeine free)
9" Cheese sub (basically lots of cheese on a white sub roll) and a small bag of Lays Chips (150 cal)
2 medium diet cokes (not caffeine free)
Nutrigrain Cereal Bar (Strawberry)
Cinnabon bar (like a little strudel type thing... they sell boxes of them right next to the Nutrigrain Bars)
A couple bites of Krab salad (basically mayo, a little celery, and fake crab meat)
A few bites of Lean Cuisine Mac & Cheese
Personal Pan Cheese Pizza and 1 breadstick
2 LARGE diet cokes (not caffeine free)
South Beach diet FiberFit S'mores Granola Bar
2 packs of candy cigarettes
Some Diet Sunkist (not caffeine free... and I'm STILL drinking it...)

So yeah... it was pretty bad today.
Ironically, I'm also studying some books on eating disorders so I can become an Eating Disorder Therapist.

Anyhow, I'm sorry I haven't been updating as regularly as I used to... The internet depresses me. I get on facebook and no one talks to me, I get on youtube and all there are are "thinspo" videos, I check my email and all I have is spam...

Well... I guess I'm just a little depressed. My friends graduated high school this week, and I had to miss one friend's graduation to go to another's... and I couldn't even call her to apologize because she must have gotten a new number without telling me (this is another slight because I wasn't even invited to her 18th birthday. So I don't know if she even wants to be my friend anymore because she's certainly not acting like she does. I've asked to spend time with her, but it never seems to happen. ). My real friend graduated and is moving to the dorms at William & Mary... and then I'll have no friends here.

I can't gather the willpower to get on the treadmill... I can't stop eating... God. I only get sad if I talk about it. I need therapy.


Annie

Snap out of it girlie... You'll be alright... Just need to get a little pep in your step... we all go through bad things sometimes... I hope all gets better with you and you refocus... Just take things one day at a time and remember that we're here for you if you need us okay Lots of hugs to you...

Natasha

Hey Sweets, I can completely relate to you, I know that doesnt make you feel much better but I Have been going through some tough Sh*t and I dont know how I make it through some days. But look at how far you've already come, youve lost more than 40lbs, and your still being concious about what your eating--which i always a good sign! As for your one friend, if she doesnt appreciate your friendship for what it is, itsnot worth it, trust me.I would rather have 1 good friend than a lot of people who just claim to be my friend when tis convienent. My food hasnt been fantastic either, we all go through loop-holes dont lose hope hun.