Weight this morning was 198.2 Bleah. Disappointing.

Better news was my measurements are less. I didn't post my measurements last week - too embarrassed. But, what the heck. If my weight is 198, I'm expected to have rediculously large hips!

Last week

Bust: 40.5
Waist: 37
Hips: 46.75
Rear: 45.5

This week:
Bust:40.25
Waist: 36.25
Hips: 46
Rear/: 45

Not sure where a person generally measures. Should I have measured arms or legs neck or anything else?

It's nice to see some shrinkage, even if the scale doesn't reflect it!

Great job on the measurements! That is exactly what happened to me this week. I showed I gained a pound on the scale byt my overall measurements went down 3 inches. At least it is something

Congrats on the drops in measurements. A lot of people do measure the neck and arms and whatnot, but it is really up to you.

Oh my Gosh.

I was wondering where the heck my period was. I've been feeling bloated and sore boobed for a week now. I became suspicious today and took a home test. POSITIVE. I was a frantic mess by the time my hubby came home.

I'm stunned. I wish I could say I'm happy, and part of me is, but I'm freaked out. I'm worried about starting pregnancy with so many extra pounds.

Let me say, I don't want to hear any remarks about how I ought to have waited to get pregnant till the pounds were shed.

My son was born in May 2004. By a year later, we were trying hard to conceive again. After two years of no success, I had lost weight, tried fertility drugs, and without going for anything more invasive, decided we wanted to adopt. I've always wanted to adopt, but with how expensive it is, I never brought it up with my husband until this point. We began a torturous 1.5year process, finally meeting our daughter this past Christmas day, bringing to her canada on new years eve. I gained weight throughout the process, and starting smoking a lot more. I quit when she came home, and was moving on to the weight issues.

I've not used any birth control since my son was born. 4 years. No particular reason given why we couldn't conceive, we were just told that the probability was very low after having no success even with fertility pills. So protection wasn't something that we've concerned ourselves with (obviously!)

Not only am I nervous about weight, but yesterday my brother phoned me - his wife, 6months pregnant found out in her ultrasound that the child has a fatal abnormality and will likely not live to term. And my other brothers daughter also has a rare genetic disorder which has her legs growing very bowed, and would likely have been fatal had they conceived a boy. So that's making me worry.

And, my pregnancy with my son was not very good. I started dilating at 25 weeks, was on bedrest till 33 weeks, and he was born at 34 weeks. Premature, and very colicky.

Plus my car can't fit 3 carseats.

And when I was at my mom's recently I joked about being pregnant (I was having a strange combination of food) and her response was something to the tune of "you'd lose your mind if you added another kid to these two tornadoes". Can I really handle 3 kids 4 and under? I suppose I'll have to, but it would be nice to have my family excited and supportive.

And I just had a garage sale and got rid of all my maternity clothes and infant stuff.

And I feel so guilty for not being super excited. I tried so hard for this, and I had come to accept that it wasn't going to happen. My dreams of what my family looked like had changed, and I was comfortable with that change. So many people I know from the adoption community would be ecstatic to be pregnant, and here I am, only able to think about the negative.

Diet-wise... I don't know what to do. I guess this is why I've been finding myself so tired lately. I binged today when I found out the news. 3 big samosas and some cheese. I think my cals today are in the vacinity of 2000.

I guess until I get into the doctor, I'll just try to keep walking, and eat healthy, upping my calories to 1800-2000. I'm just guessing in the dark here. I've actually been cramping a bit today, which is worrysome, so I'm going to rest tomorrow.

I can't even remember when my last period was. It would kind of be nice to know how pregnant I am. I'm guessing, maybe 6 weeks or so right now.

WOW!! That sounds like it is out of left field! Bless your heart. God moves in his time, not ours. I am sure the diet has moved way down on the priority list with this news, but don't forget about it. You can work with your body during this time and not let things get too far out of control. We will all be here for you during the pregnancy. You will still need to watch your diet just maybe a little different short term goals. The little things like clothes and car seats will work themselves out. And your family will come around. The important thing is you are going to have a beautiful, tiny, brand new, little person join your family soon. Congrats!!!

Thanks Swamp for your congrats and especially for reminding me that this is God's timing, even though it's not my idea of what would be the best. I needed that reminder! When we adopted, it was obvious to me that we were doing what God had planned, especially when we got our referral, and our daughter's given name was Elshaddai, meaning "God is Almighty".

I guess I had just grown comfortable and excited about continuing to grow our family by adoption. I guess one never knows, but my hubby probably won't want to adopt again once we already have 3 kids. He only wanted 2, but had warmed up to the idea of adopting again. For Elsha's sake, I thought it would be so good for her to have another child of the same race within our family who would deal with the same challanges that transracial adoptees inevitably have to face. It'll take me a while to accept that might not be the way it goes, and in some strange way it almost feels like a miscarraige in itself.

Life is full of surprises, and I will move on, accept it, and be grateful.

I went to the doctor this morning to ask for a referral to a high risk obstetrician (sp?). She told me to take it really easy on the exercise for now, especially as I have been experiencing some cramping. As to diet, I can discuss it with whatever doctor I end up seeing, but for the time, I'm just to try to eat a balanced diet, eating when I'm hungry with several small meals a day.

Still going to keep a food diary and keep track of cals, as I don't want to get out of control!

Today's weight was 197.8

I think that sounds like an excellent plan! Your focus would become more maintenance and health rather than loss.
My husband and I had been empty nesters for 4 years after the last of 6 children had moved out of our house. Life was good. Then 6 years ago we found ourselves in the position of needing to adopt our 2 year old grandson. It is his 8th birthday today. He has been with us for the last 6 years. Not what we had planned for this point of our lives. I felt cheated. Why do I have to raise another generation? My job is done. When is it going to be my turn? I have been a mom since I was 18! But God puts us where we are needed. And truth be told, I have grown from the experience. I enjoy him more now that I am older and I have more time to spend with him than I did when my kids were little. He knows he is our grandson and also our son...LOL...Seems strange to people. Even to me. But to him, it is completely normal. He just knows that he is loved and safe. Kids are so much more adaptable than we give them credit for. They handle things much better than we do!

Hi Celia, congratulations on the new baby. I know that you must be stunned and in shock at the moment, but remember, God will not give you more than you can cope with in your life, although it may not seem like that at times. You will cope brilliantly I am sure. God bless you all.

Hi Swamp, wow you sure did do your time with 6 kids, and I can totally understand why you'd feel the way you did about adopting your grandson. Raising kids is a lot of work, and the mom is always at the bottom of the priority list! And you're right, kids are adaptable. Elsha will be okay, I'll just have to make sure I get her out to all the events that I can that have people of her descent in them. It'll be hard for her to be one of the only black kids in a very white community, but all the hurdles can be overcome!

Soup, thanks for the congrats! I think God's idea of what I can handle and my ideas are quite different! But He will provide the strength and resources in ways that I can't imagine yet so I'll just have to trust!

So, dietwise, I've not counted calories in the past couple days, primarily because not everything I eat stays down. Morning sickness hit hard and fast! I think it's from taking those maternity vitamins. Feeling better today, though I've not taken any vitamins yet, but when I open the fridge and look about, nothing at all is appealing. I'll eat what I can, but I'm not going to stress about it at this point.

Weight this morning was 197.8

Today's weight was 196.2 Morning sickness sucks. I think I got down about 1800 calories yesterday (mostly by eating higher calories things - bagels, cheese, ect) but not a lot stayed. Everything turns my stomach at the moment. All my favorite foods are just not appealing.

Anyways, started this morning with cheerios and milk and a glass of juice. About 300 cals.

CONGRATS!!!

Maybe you can even use the baby as motivation to get more in shape... walking more and whatnot. It'll be good for both of you. I'm sure your doctor will have more ideas as to what you can do during your pregnancy to better get in shape, as well as how much to eat so that you and the baby are healthy, but not overly healthy.

That is such a miracle that after trying and being told the chances were low that you finally succeeded, even if it wasn't planned. Life throws you those curveballs, but sometimes they even turn out for the best. I hope your family is more supportive now that you actually are pregnant as opposed to joking about it. Good luck, and keep us updated with everything!

Hey Celia!
Just stopped in to say hi. I hate that you are not feeling well. I'm sure it will level out. Might even be a good thing, to break some old habits and then you can start newer healthier ones. Your weight is looking good. Is the family excited over the new addition?