Now on a less serious note My food for today.

bob evens light breakfast sandwich-300

banana-100
dried fruit-100
light ice cream bars-100

Dinner out (first time out with hubby in AGES):

mushroom swiss burger-600
fries-492

STILL NO POP

total calories-1692

edit* later ate an orange so 1772

I'm probably going to have a snack later still so I'll be back to update. Tonight is my Friday so tomorrow I can catch up with everyone

Well that is absolutely horrific Lisa, so sorry you went through that. It makes me so angry to hear about you getting abused.

As far as the weight, I'm sure being judged is very difficult but honestly when you read about the metabolism and body functions it really hits home how very hard the excess fat is on your body. That's what worries me since you look very pretty in your pics. And that's why I'm routing SO HARD for you girl! If you have time, try reading some articles on wellnessresources.com, this guy is a clinical researcher and explains the body systems and how fat operates as a gland (rather than sitting there doing nothing like we thought) and produces dangerous hormones and system-wide inflammation.

Thanks Claudia But like I said all that really is in the past and I hardly ever think about it these days. My relationship with my mom now is a really good one amazingly because she's able to get the help she needed and work through stuff too. And honestly I don't want anyone feeling bad for me because as bad as it sounds like stuff was, I had just as many happy childhood moments too. So many other people have been through much worse and still chose to be happy positive people. I talked about it now only to show that we all do have choices of what we take with us and leave behind. It may be hard at first and we may have to make that decision every day to get past things but eventually it gets easier. It really is about letting stuff go so it can't hurt you anymore.

And ty for the link, I'll read it tomorrow even though I bet it's going to scare the crap out of me. The hormone thing is probably why I have pcos, and why so many people have it go away and their body seems to reset when the weight comes off. I'm glad to have you rooting for me and I really do feel like I've finally found a life style change that's going to let me lose this weight permanently instead of yo-yo-ing. Before I came to this forum I never had a way to look at what I was doing and why it wasn't working and get feedback and help from other people....well besides quack doctors who told me "just stop eating". Yea OK doc....cuz that's so helpful, lol.

So I'm had an idea for a new journal title...I'm thinking of doing something like "Project Happiness" ...some variation on that but maybe more catchy. Not sure though yet because I don't want to imply that I'm unhappy...but I think as I lose weight life will be alot more fun. And I still don't know if I just want to rename this journal or start a totally new one. But no rush...new year came and went so its not like I have a deadline, lol. Ok off to work, bleh

Project Healthiness?? Mission Possible??

Oh I like that first one too. I think somebody has the second one already though.

So this morning I didn't make the best choice. I took one of my girls to breakfast and had the lumberjack slam. I ate way too much but the good news is I'm not capable of eating like I used to. What makes me mad though is on the Denny's website it says the whole breakfast is 850 calories. Well I couldn't eat it all so I went and calculated off their individual menu and added it all up seperately accounting for what I didn't eat. So tell me why it came out more that way? I think Denny's is cheating because I think the higher calories is more accurate. So for breakfast I've had 1116 calories. The good thing is I don't see me being hungry the rest of the day and I'll just have to cool it at dinner, lol. And DENNY's, I'M KEEPIN MY EYES ON YOU!!!!!

Individual portions of eggs, bacon, etc. may be larger than what they put on your plate for the lumberjack slam. Denny's portions are notoriously stingy anyway; note how they arrange the paltry scrambled eggs to JUST cover the plate so you can't see the color of it through the eggs.

I've never even been to a denny's. I think the closest one to me is about 2 or more hours away.

So, you had a bad breakfast.

Tell yourself this:
"I am too positive to be doubtful, too optimistic to be fearful. And too determined to be defeated"

It was one bad meal, now dust off your knees and rock out the rest of the day!

Oh man, I hate resturaunts that do stuff to you! It absoloutely makes you feel out of control. Especially since you didn't even eat all of the meal, I hate to think what your calories might be if you did! I dont understand how resturaunts can get away with serving outlandish portions of food like that without getting their license revoked! Haha,I guess until then all we can do is sit and steam about the bad food decision we made unconciously and maybe send them hate mail wrapped in a buttery pancake

Posting calories real quick but be back later

Dennys-1116

Dinner-Tilapia fish-100
noodle roni-450
steamed zucchini & mushrooms w/ butter-100

Total-1766

edit* ate pudding and two pieces of licorice (from hubby ;/) so 1886

So I still have room for some s/f pudding or fruit later. I was so full all day I didn't eat anything else and dinner was low cal so it actually worked out good Surprising since in the past the breakfast out would have been a signal to me to just pig out all day and not count calories. It still shocks me I can eat normally and stick to the plan!

Excellent work going to breakfast and keeping everything under control! I know how that goes, I try to trick myself into thinking "I'll ignore calories, it's okay, its just one meal" but one meal turns into all day and blah! But as long as you know what works and what doesn't, you're absolutely golden!!

yea I was totally entertaining the idea about just blowing it the whole day. But guess I got some good habits going cuz I came home and counted the calories anyway...especially after I ended up giving half of alot most of my food to one of the girls. I just couldn't eat it all like I used to. Then I was happily full all day so no reason to cheat anymore. Dinner was going to be spaghetti but I woke up late and decided to fix the fish instead cuz it was quicker and low cal. Hubby was happy but he's so silly. I laughed cuz he was raving about it ...tilapia is great cuz it's not so...fishy. He was all "it's so delicate...like a butterfly" lmao. The zucchini & mushrooms I did with it I steamed in one of those microwave bags somebody on here told me about. It came out awesome. Anyway as usual I'm exhausted and rambling so off to bed I go. Hoping for a great weigh in tomorrow Gnite all

Making such huge changes Lisa! Counting calories, being honest with yourself about what you're eating, and still coming in low after that breakfast splurge. FUCKIN AWESOME is all I can say!!!!

ROFLMAO!! Somehow I was so tired I didn't see that part last night. I read it this morning and about fell off the chair laughing Speaking of buttery pancakes, they say "margarine" in the calories for Denny's on their pancakes. I know that had to be butter cuz margarine doesn't sit on a pancake like that!! Oh well An occasional breakfast out isn't gonna cog the wheel.