Where are u girl?! Get your butt back on here!

Thanks for all the support ladies, I didn't know people would notice when I was gone. Haha. Sorry. I've been busy doing the outdoors thing lately. Well I am actually going to start the cleanse tomorrow cause I still need to get all my ingredients together. I had to drive down to another city to go to Whole Foods before I could find Grade B Maple Syrup. I am going to do this, I really need the motivation. I work out but I have a really big appetite and I eat a lot! Hmmm well I will update daily frm now on so that I don't feel ashamed of not keeping up with the support system. Thank you all and have a good night!

So I've dropped five lbs this week and although many think it's not healthy, I did it by changing what I was eating. I cut rice out of my daily meals. I've been eating greens from mom's garden with very very thinly sliced meat... think Korean lunch. I don't know how to describe all the weird things I eat. I've also stopped eating after 6pm. I get hungry but I'm so tired from work by then that I can just knock out. If anyone has any questions, since I'm really not acquainted well with anyone on the forum, just let me know!!

Man, this is NOT easy. I feel like just giving up, it's like an every day struggle and I only have so much will power. I've been struggling with this weight issue all my life and even though I can get on a program and lose some weight, I'll gain it twice of it back and then go on another diet. It's killing me, it's killing me emotionally and I don't know how long I'm going to let myself do this. It's one thing to live but to live with the thought of being FAT really takes the good out of life. It's a constant reminder every time I try on clothes, every time I look at pictures, every time I'm compared to my pretty and very skinny sisters. Sometimes I just want to say "FUCK IT" let me live in whatever form I am, if everyone was happy about that, I would be too.

Sorry about all the rambling, I'm just exhausted from work and feel like whining because I'm so damn hungry!!

ME IN THE RED!

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I have a freakishly skinny sister to, so I feel ya. Don't give up girl! You've been doing great- look at the five lbs you lost last week- I'm sooo jealous! Just keep goin, thats all you can do. As for being hungry- maybe you should make your nighttime eating cutoff like 8ish? You don't wanna totally starve yourself, just makes ya wanna binge more later.
Keep your chin up

I know what you're talking about. I've been heavy ever since I was 13. This time though, it's a lifestyle change for me. Sometimes ya just gotta realize, I can't eat the way other people can, my body doesn't work that way. So if I have to go the rest of my life without soda or fried foods, that just may be what I have to do.

I seriously just ate an entire pizza. BOOO!!

Hey girl, I've never been to your diary but here I am! HELLO!
Just wanted to let ya know that I re-did the Vegas Before and After Pics... take a look and let me know what ya think... let me know if you want me to add or delete any of your pics! http://weight-loss.fitness.com/before-after-between/24484-vegas-challenge-before-afters-party-pics.html#post494315

Good luck with your weight loss (NO MORE WHOLE PIZZA's )!

And by the way, we ALL feel like giving up sometimes.... BELIEVE ME! BUT you can do this and you will feel so much better about yourself! You are a beautiful girl and you DESERVE a healthy body! YOU CAN DO IT!! ONE DAY AT A TIME HUN!!! Tell yourself, "Just for today I'm going to eat (insert healthy food here) and NOT going to eat (insert unhealthy food here). IF I REALLY want (insert unhealthy food here) tomorrow, I will eat it then."

I think you'll be surprised just how many days you can go knowing that the food isn't gone forever and if you REALLY want it, it will be there... tomorrow! GOOD LUCK and I'm glad you stayed in the challenge! Can't wait to meet ya in Vegas!!!!