Wow Emma...Thats all I can really say...and...Keep up the good work, although I should read the updates...

i havent been to the gym today , and i havent been on a walk neither however i found at the house party on saturday isnt happening so i will only be consuming half the alcahol calories.. ill still be going to the gym for the rest of the week other than thursday i think because i need to go clothes shopping.. suprisingly i have consumed quite a few calories today most of it whilest picking at foods , many people have regular "cheat days" but id rather say its been my only "treat" day because when you cheat, the only person you cheat is yourself

Breakfast-
1 slice of toast and one free range boiled egg
bowl of chopped bannana,grapes and strawberries
=320kcals

Lunch-
smoothie [necterine,pear and apple with a dash of milk and apple juice]
=220kcals




tea- chicken fillet , with a corn on the cop and two plain jacket patatos = 550



exercise = 0 , i have had a lazy day



snacks
2x cup of soups -100kcals ,3 jammie dodger-200kcals,slice of bread90kcals,pack of crab sticks - 60 kcals (320 kcals worth of snacks wtf?)
=320kcals

total for the day = 1610

Don't worry too much about a lazy day, just get back in the gym tomorrow!

Breakfast- 2 weetabix and semi skimmed milk = 250 kcals

Lunch- tuna sandwhich with a squirt of salad cream and a slice of cheese = 400

tea- spaghetti bolognase with cheese = 700

snacks - raisens = 40 kcals

total daily intake = 1390 kcals

hi, i Thought i would give everyone an update of what a failure and a complete plonker i am (or have been).

the past 6 weeks have been a nightmare for any dieter and i really fall back into the rountine of my old ways , along with moving back to my old town which i was gutted about my life has been pretty sedentary and of quite a few ocasions i dont even have the motivation to get dressed , waking at lunch and binging on high calorie snack .

i know that for some subconscious reason i yo-yo to punish myself i try so hard that im verging on obsession and put so much determination in to it .. and then just give up all together.

However luckily im getting back into healty eating before its to late and i dared to weight myself a few days ago
so i stood on my scales in the bedroom pacing myself for the expected weight gain however the numbers infront were 13st 14 a pound less than when i weight myself in june thankgod i decided to stop weighing myself at the beginning of july or i would have been gutted! .

Thank f*** for that ,although i think my body was starting to prepare for the sudden weight gain and everything is not quite as toned however that moment gave me the
inspiration to take up the healthy lifestyle again and not give up so easily my me ,my mind and body have to work together on this one

i have downloaded quite a few fitness videos and i find jordans to be the best so far i used it yesterday and this afternoon plus im sore all over and i havent felt this at peace since july when i was at the gym every day lol

p.s i also have some really good news that i have been accepted into the college i want to go to , and on my last course i recieved a distinction whooo top marks

xoxoxox em

4 pounds down since last week and i am now 13st 10lb, yey!

-Emma xoxoxo

i have never had a boyfriend really, and then with the weight loss i began to start loving myself , dressing fashionably and feeling comfy in my own skin.

with all this postiveness a guy came on scene about 3 weeks ago , we went to the same college and had never met before. every night we spoke for at least 2 hours he knew everything about me ( including that im a virgin , and also the weight loss ) then we bumped into each other 3 times in college when finally he invited me on a date.

i assumed the date had gone really well, he payed for everything , we kissed on the cheek at the end of the night and he thanked me for a nice time that night and i was meant to be stopping over at his on wednesday i told him i would do however i wasnt willing to do anything sexual as im a virgin and hadnt known him that long.

afterwoods he stopped speaking to me , then 5 days after i saw him in the canteen with about 7 of his friends.. i saw him look up and he just blanked me and his friends sniggered and laughed, and as we sat down they shouted 'boom' i felt like crying , Although he looked up twice to smile at me as if he was to embarresed to actually say hi.

about 30 mins later the group of boys were outside of my teaching block and as me and my friend walked in they called out "HES FREE TONIGHT IF YOU WANT A PIECE'

one i got home i went onto msn and he asked if i was okay, i tried to ignore him but he then went on to say the whole its me not you phrase.

'your the most lovliest, geniune down to earth girl i have ever met and are to good for me '
im just not attracted to you and dont want to lead you on. blah de blah.


i thought everything was finally beginning to make sense and i felt good about myself for once, now he has told me how he feels about me i feel like an ugly, in-adaquate girl (although i should of realized how he was, seeing as he has like 600 girl friends on facebook)
and i have done nothing but eat all week as my appetite is out of this world!

everyone i know is telling me im a 1000 times to good for him , but i think thats just a biast opinion they have,