Morning Weight - 125.2 KG
Feeling quite happy this morning, cause at last, my weight started dropping again.

I read so many articles and especially wishes website weight-loss.co.nz that had so many usefull information.

I rectify my mistakes and well, im loosing again. even if its a small bit but to me, its a lot if weight. im so very happy.

Did 23 minutes on the elliptical..

sweaty sweat sweat...

Morning ate 2 medium eggs, protein shake in Milo

Lunch ate 2 saute fish

Snack - some crackers

Morning Weight - 124.8KG

Breakfast - almost a handful of mixed nuts. Orange Juice, 1 table spoon nasi bryani from 2 nights before celebration.

Lunch - a spoonful fried rice from 2 nights before balance.

On friday, we had a kind of celebration. Its religious in nature. It was held at my mum's place.

And so, my aunt cooked beef Briani and just as it sounds, its heavy in calories.

I decided I didnt want to eat it until tomorrow morning. Cause when its all over, it was almost 8 pm.

I had just dropped after a stagnant weight of 125+ to 124+ Kilograms. I just dont want it to go back to 125+

My mother and sister insisted for me to eat and said that I should just eat and not wait till morning since we are leaving quite early on Saturday to take a few hours drive into Malaysia. I said I didnt want to put my weight back on as I just lost some recently. My mum then kept to her food but my sister continued trying to seduce me to eating but well, my mind was pretty made up and the funny thing was, when I repeated that I want to watch my weight, she gave an irritated sound and was actually dissapointed that she didnt manage to seduce me to break my restriction.

So now this is what I face, I almost get no support when im trying to loose weight, its almost as if they all want to keep me fat just so they can look thin and when compared to me, people say, oh, she is the thinness in the family.

I only have the support of my husband right now who is also in the same boat as I am trying to loose his weight. Ofcouse, he is cheating cause the doctor precribe him Doramine.

I actually took Doramine before when I was 20 years old cause I wanted to stay thin while doing some modelling and entering some modelling contest but I must say that there was a major change in attitude when you take those pills. You become either very sad or very angry, pretty much like having a mood disorder.

I didnt want to take Doramine, the side effect are too too much.

My sister is also on Doramine and most of the time she is grumpy and when she is on it, I dont really prefer her presence cause she can be unpleasant, not to mention, utterly rude.

I will just go through my long journey of calorie retricting and excercise. Let the weight shed off slowly but I am not always in a bad mood, upsetting people around me all the time.

My husband is a funny guy, always making people laugh and it is really fun being around him. Most of the time I will be in tears laughing but ever since he started taking Doramine, he changed. Yes, he still make some jokes here and there, being goofy and all but he also can have his mood changed and be grumpy and angry with me for no reason at all.

Its really confusing sometimes.

Anyways, all my 4 boys are sick today, all of them got the fever and flu, one is crying as I type this. Time to go to them...

Im still at 124.8Kg today.

Fasting month started. So Im fasting like all Muslims should be.

My second boy ended up being fetched by the ambulance due and sent to the hospital for an asthma attack.

He is still there today, I cant be there with him but I sent my cousin who is also his most favourite auntie there to be with him.

I only managed 5 minutes on the elliptical today before i headed to the Hospital this morning.

I completed the book, think like a billionair by Donald Trump while waiting for the doctor to see him on this second round at 2 pm.

I rented it from the bookstore at the hospital mall. The sales lady was so rude. The book store is EMF. I wanted to tell her off but I just felt like there is no point wasting my energy on someone like her, trying to change the opinion is has over books like that.

So conservative. She told me that buying and reading those books doesnt make you a billionaire. Then she looked into my purse and saw that I had so many cards and said, do you really need so many cards. Such a stupid lady, well, it so happens that I have 6 different bank accounts, 2 personal, 2 business, 2 are accounts set up for getting funds from the goverment for having many babies, called the baby bonus. Well, I have many visa and masters but those are required by my business as I frequesntly need to make online payments.

I wanted to tell her, hey old hag, mind your own F**King business but I just kept silent as I really dont have the mood to respond.

When I returned the book, she said, so fast! I said yes, I want to get another book, which is the Donal Trump & Robert Kiyosaki why we want you to be rich. Still reading that one btw.

He said, well, what did the first book say, did it say its easy to be a billionaire?, I just kept silent. I told you right, you need to have a lucky break to be a billionaire, and a very rich father. Didnt the book say that! Its not that easy.. Finally I broke my silence cause I feel I should just say some bit. I told her, well, the book says that Mr Trump once was almost a bankrupt, was in debt of billions of dollars and pull himself out of it. She said, well, he is lucky someone threw him a line. I said, no one threw him a line, thats why you have to read to find out how someone like him can manage to do something like that, not just think about making money to be a billionaire.

Finally the b***h kept quiet.

I dont understand why people can be so shallow. Books like that are crucial for your own financial intelligence and people like me, who runs businesses. I want to learn how I can manage better and have better financial education.

In my heart, I was thinking, the reason why you are still sitting in a bookshop doing nothing is basically this. You have a wealth of knowledge all around you and all you can do is sit on your bumb and stare at the wall.

Back to weight loss

today

ate 1 granola bar 90 calories for sahur

ate 1 plate fishcake & spinach fried bee hoon +/- 300 calories

Drank so much green tea. aprox 1.45 litres

some muruku snacks - around 15 peices aprox 1 inch each ?150 calories?

I love the granola bars. They are quacker oats and are just $1 each at 7 eleven stores.

I bought a whole lot of them.

I tried to buy some LA diet bars on ebay but im really not sure if I should.

I just want to have something healthy to snack on, im always snacking on unhealthy stuff, like those muruku, which is basically wheat floor deep fried with some spices. Empty calories, no nutrition whatsoever.

I dont really feel like eating nowadays for some reason, but sometimes I do pig out but seldom nowadays, part of me is happy but part of me fear that I will not loose much this way.

I have already lost 12.6KG since the birth of my 4th son which is 5 months ago... thats aprox around 2 KG per month? maybe a little more...

Really wish I could loose more but I dont want it to be an unhealty loss.

So many tips and stuff available on weight loss... can be quite confusing.

I just am doing what I think Im able to...

Now I am again not losing any weight at all, in fact the early morning weight was 125.2 vs 124.8 yesterday.

You see, its now Ramadan which is the fasting month.

Im required to fast all through Ramadan and I plan to do so.

However, my weight is simply not moving.

Usually the routine is to eat at dusk around 5 am, fast through the day and start eating again at 7 pm.

How can I continue losing weight which fasting without putting my body into a starvation mode?

I usually do elliptical for 25-30 mins

Any Advice???? PLEASE......

Officially today I am 123KG and have lost 9 KG since I started this jouney through weightloss.

Since I actually started at 136KG after giving birth to my 4th child, Zubair but actually started my journey in July.

I am quite happy with the progress so far. It is a motivation to go further in his journey.

Its been a long time, about 2 years since I was last 123KG, and I began wearing old clothes that used to not fit.


Well, I know I didnt update for a while, well, my baby Zubair was admitted to the hospital for a viral fever and later he contracted a bacterial one at the hospital, so his fever didnt go down for some time and I had to stay in the hospital all this while with him. It was really tiring as he is used to sleeping next to me but now he is sleeping on a separate crib. I have to literally wake up every 2 hours to pacify him by carrying him in my arms and singing.

Well, the last day of his day at the hospital, I began feeling tiggling sesantion at my nose and sore throat. That afternoon, I had high fever and was shaking and shivering. I felt so tired.

The next day, I slept the whole day.

I had an asthma attack and I couldnt walk that much as I got breathless with every step.

After the rest for a whole day, I got much better and today, I still get breathless but its controlled with the inhaler.

Thats why...

Anyway, its the fasting month now. so we eat at dusk and at dawn only.

every fasting month, everyone who fast usually loose weight automatically, starvation mode or not.

Ive decided to put some up some gifts for me once I reach my target as a form of motivation.

Next mark is 20 KG, once I loose that much, I will buy myself a dress. What I love most is wearing a dress with pants.


Ive already gotten a reward today for reaching 9KG since July. I manage to fit into a dress I bought from ebay last 2 months. I couldnt fit it and it couldnt even button up but now its snug to my body and loose at certain parts, nice!

Today is a hectic day. My whole family, mum dad, brother, cousin, sons, husband, maid etc are ready for a roasted chicken dinner by mwa!

I made 3 roasted chicken

2 are honey lemon stuffed roasted chicken, so easy to make and chicken itself is so low in calories and high in protein.

The other is the famous Coke Chicken.. which everyone says is not as good as the honey roasted.

Ok, here is the honey roasted recipe

Mix honey and juice of one lemon to a bowl, marinate it to the chicken for a few hours.

For the stuffing,

crush digestive biscuits and mix it with, low fat butter, sliced onions, nuts and if your kids love sausages like mine, add that too.

put it in the oven at 240 celcuis for 40 - 50 minutes

ready to serve

also made grilled steaks, patato wedges and my husband made bandung soda...

Big meal for everyone, its not often that we get together like this, so we love this occasion.

Anyway, im now 122.6KG, which makes me so highly happy. been so long that im 122+

Im getting closer to 120. I cant wait to hit it.

Today's weight 121.7KG

I am very careful at what I put into my mouth nowadays. I usually dont loose or loose less if I eat more carbo.

Like yesterday, I ate char koay teow, self made ofcourse.

not that healthy but just wanted to try it.

Today, ate some fried fish meat, some vegetable and 3 xtra small potato patties.

I desperately wants to loose up to 110+ this Ramadan, so I can fit into some baju kurung attire that I had made a while back but never wore cause it was made too small for me.

I want to wear them but sadly, to tight so I was hopeful to wear them this Hari raya since I had lost a considerable amount of weight.

At the end of this journey, I hope I will be able to maintain the weight loss and will not have to worry about having problems buying clothes, as they will always be available off the racks for me. I hope to me normal and not plus size.

Hi there cybermommy. It looks like you're doing pretty good there, keep up the good work! It's hard to balance things sometimes, but we all have goals and just have to keep pushing on. Just wanted to say hello and offer some kind words of encouragement. Good luck!

Natasha

Thank you so much for your encouraging words Natasha. Its not often that I get responses from other members on my diary. Its nice to get some from you!

Morning Weight - 121.3

Excited today, im getting closer to 120KG. Im so happy that I made it this far.

Fasting today so no breakfast or lunch.

Went to the doctor yesterday, had a very bad asthma attack due to the flu I was having. So, I had to have a nebulizer and *VOULA!* I can breath so so much better.

He took down my weight and was surprise, he said between all his patience, he is very happy that I manage to loose 6KG in a period of 1 month since the last I saw him. He asked me what I was doing and told me, well. I know you must be excersing, eating right but I must tell you, he said. Weight lost is all about Mental.

Well, he should know, he is skinny. He used to be fat. The doctor from Woodlands Mart. He is the best doctor ever! I have never met any GP like him, he behaves like we are so important to him and that we are his dear friend.

You may say, yeah, all GPs are like that, im sorry, no! ive been to many and none are like him! He is special.

I can see how, everyone a patient ask the nurse outside, is today the fat or the thin doctor, fat doctor is the Dr Loh and the thin is Dr Goh but Dr Loh is the best, I think maybe because of that label he has he lost weight, and he did and mantained it for so long now.

He told me, dont care what others say, just keep doing what you are doing.

I just made the right choices and excercise.

Thats all it takes.

Went for a buffet at 7pm yesterday as I break my fasting for the day.

Ate a bunch of stuff, some small pieces of lean meat, egg tofu, lean chicken, whole bunch of vege and loads of water.

I think I was bloated so fast with water that I could stuff in anymore food.

Paid $30 and ate about $5-$6 worth. Really not worth the money!

But, Singgah Selalu in JB is still the best place for the best eatery in JB!

Feel much better today after the Asthma attack. Im going to try to do the Elliptical today and if I feel breathless, I will have to stop. Will see how it goes later.