tried 10 mins on elliptical, had breathlessness. stopped.

i dont think im fit yet to do the elliptical. i will wait a few more days.

Ive been looking at pictures on the biggest loser website, so many people who had lost weight in the past and post their beautiful pictures there for everyone to admire.

I really cant wait to get where I want to be. I keep telling myself to be patient. haha

Weight taken - 120.9 KG

Its now 7.10 pm, time to break my fast.

I baked a beans pie today, so I ate a slice of that. Crust is wholemeal. the content is baked beans, so healthy.

A small, cup full of spaghetti Balogneise.

A few cups of drinks.

ok, ended up feeding my 2nd son the spagetti. I ate 2 forkfull and he ate the rest.

Im not a big fan of spaggetii. I prefer hot and spicy. I used to make those type of spaggeti, spicy and hot! now that I have kids, I cant do those type no more cause they simply wont eat them.

I feel like another slice of the pie but maybe after a few hours, if im still hungry. Cause right now I feel full.

oh yes, recipe for spaggetti sauce

1 bottle spaggeti low fat spagetti sauce.
1 pepper fruit diced
some portion of mince meat
1 carrot diced
1 onion sliced
1 tomato diced

Mix all! then lastly add the sauce, pepper and salt to taste.

For the pie

For the crust
some portion of wholemeal flour
some portion of low fat butter or margerine
salt to taste
some water

For the filling
shelled prawns
1 onion sliced
1 garlic sliced
2 cans baked beans (low fat)

Mix all in pan over low heat, with slight olive oil.
add baked beans

Rub the butter and the flour together
add salt and water

Roll out dough to fit the bottom of pie
heat over 180 celcilus for 5 mins or until half cooked.

Pour in the filling

Make the top crust from the balance dough
cover and pinch with two fingers between a thumb around the edged to make a pie pattern or press with a fork all along it.

Be sure to make vent holes along pie top so it wont crack at baking.

glaze with egg.

180 celcius for 30 mins or untill glaze and crust are golden brown.

Delicious!

Im setting a small target to acquire this target before Christmas nad new year.

I need to manage to fit into a l.a.m.b XL size

Waist - 32
Hips - 42

Currently
Waist is 38
Hips - 49.5

I hope I can make it, there is 3 months still, ample time

Had a family invitation for breaking of fast yesterday evening.

Had breaking of fast at a buffet held by Eden Hotel Johor Bahru. The Zone. Salt & Pepper Restaurant.

Anyway, food was ok, quite a variety.

Practiced one bite policy. Some that tasted better was 2-3 bites, but 3 bites the max.

Most was one bite cause not that appealing.

But drinks! OMG! I had so much drinks.

Imagine

2 glasses plain water

3 glasses iced tea

1 glass khatirah

1 glass hot coffee

2 glass syrup rose with lime

I was so thirsty

It was so smokey, cause in Malaysia, you can smoke in enclosed air con area, ended up with an asthma attack.

Vomitted part of the food out.

Puffed and puffed with ventolin

Vomitted again

Then it gradually resolved itself once we were far far away from the smokey area.

Let me see, what did I ate

ok, about 3 spoonful of porridge

2 spoons of vegetable lodeh

3 spoons of mee goreng mamak

5 bbq prawns

a spit-out bite of bbq lamb which I hated

2 strands of laksa noodle (litterally 2 strands)

1/4 boiled egg

4 peices of Malay kuih (mixed varieties)

1 cempekdak fried (small size), 1 fried banana ( xsmall size)

1 small 1/2 -1 cm in size bite of 4 deserts each

rest are drinks and drinks

ah yes, crust of small peice of murtabak, about 2 bites, i didnt eat the fillings

ate the crust with chicken curry with no chicken

ah yes,

1 spoon of rice with lemak ikan, 1 cm of fish saute

1 cm of chicken bbq

2 spoonful of sambal goreng ( i love these, cause it has vegetable)

ok, thats all I recall

Vomitted 1/2 small plastic bag of food

Overall, the lodeh was the best. I liked the lodeh so much! Wished I took only the lodeh and ate only that.

Went home, first thing, weight myself. Put on around 700gm

I cant regret it cause soon, be doing it again. Another family function coming, I cant avoid all these, have to just make the best of it in my own way.

Loss around 2 lbs this week.

Not a great achievement. Almost platue

Will try harder next week.

This week has been a sick and then food week.

Dont expect much of it.

Next week, hopefully will be better. Hopeful to loose at least 5 lbs

Today's weight - 120.5KG

Breaking of fast,

I took

a bowl of lodeh ( mixed vegetable cooked in coconut milk) ate just vege, no gravy.

1 cup size of biscuit pudding which I baked.

multiple cups of tea w sugar

1 small peice of fried vege+mince meat cooked with flour batter.

1/4 cup of nuts


husband came home at 9.45pm

ate again,

1 cup of bicuit pudding

1/4 cup of nuts

5 peices of prawn cracker

dranks so much plain water, ended up with a bloated tummy.

urrghhh..... im in pain....


Felling a little down.

I cant believe I am very effected for the fact that I didnt loose much last week.

Almost depressed.

I think im just not taking it slow, I need to take things slow and view this as a journey and that I cannot rush and hope things to turn overnight.

Things dont happen overnight and will not happen overnight.

A little irritable today.

I dont know what Im angry about.

Maybe its the weight issue, maybe its not.

I really have no idea.

Feel a much better now.

I slept throughout. Think I slept too much.

Id rather sleep than feel horrible.

Didnt do anything today except sleep, I need the sleep.

Breaking of fast today

Ate

2 bowls of lodeh ( vege boiled in coconut milk)
6 pc deep fried vege batter ( i know its unhealthy, so I didnt eat much of it)

a handful of nuts

drinks drinks drinks

Feeling like I am about to give up, vomitted just now. Just felt bloated.

i think I drink too much empty calories, Im going to stop doing that.

i will start drinking more plain water. Empty calories are not helping me loose weight even though I didnt eat much, my weight didnt change cause too much tea I guess for me.

Breaking of fast was

Mee Rebus - not that healthy - carbs galore

Mum made them, its a family thing again... well, I said its going to happen again....

Weight - 120.4Kg

Tried 10 mins on Elliptical, breathless still. Will try again later.

Not fasting today.

Breakfast
a few small pineapple tarts that my maid made for hari raya.

Some nuts

Lunch

1 small bowl chicken porridge.

Some nuts

I think I loose better if I ate a larger breakfast and then boiled vegetables throughout the day. Once fasting month is over, this is what I am doing to acheive my goal!

I just read this website by this guy by the name scoby.

I decided to follow his advice and reset my journey. Problem is im still in the fasting month so I need to wait till its over, then will I be able to reset.

Right now

My measurements are

Waist - 38
Hips - 49

HI there, just stumbled upon your diary, I can totally relate you what you are going through with both diet/family issues/mental issues and even clothes??

I think you and maybe we can do it cos we are in the same boat..and we can guide each other as when we need to like maybe every other day..I dun really fancy these famly gathering so much myself as we tend to overeat even more and when we tell ppl we dun want to eat more cos we want to lose weight then they start wif that look..sighs..never easy rite..

How is your boy doing? Is he still in the hospital. Must be so painful to see your kids going tru this..totally understand..HOpe that you and your family are better today..take care..