Thank you all for reading my journal.

I have been in and out of this forum for some time now and I had loss weight and gain some over the years.

I have been pregnant.

I now have 4 boys.

The youngest is my dear Zubair at 3 mths old.

I desperately need to loose weight now. I lack discipline and I admire everyone who had loss all their weight and kept them off cause I hadnt been good at keeping mine off and put on at least 10 KG everytime I am pregnant and in between.

I now weight 132KG and I am very concerned about my situation.

It has been rather embarassing for me as it had made me have difficulty getting up from a stting position from the ground which I do every week for religious purposes.

I also noticed that I had become very lasy and loves sitting and lying down from walking or running.

2 days ago, there was a news in the papers, this lady in Malaysia who was initially 208 KG dropped to 84KG in just 1 year. All she does is not eat carbs and excercise.

I was so inspired by this lady, for she is much heavier than me yet all her problems seems similar to mine. Her reasons for losing weight is also similar to mine and she succeed.

The more I read, the more determined I am to loose all these weight.

I have no more intention to have more babies and now my main goal is to rid myself of this obesity that has troubled me so much.

ok, quite funny.

Early this morning, I weight myself and I am now 128.7KG as compared to 132KG last week.

I am grateful that I manage to get 3.3KG off.

Im still getting my ass out working and shutting my mouth in from junk food.

Hopefully all will be well.

ok, am going at the right track here. cause i really want to do things right this time round, i usually falls off the wagon after the loss of 5 kg, im that pathetc.

ok,

breakfast
i took 2 spoon ful of protein powder + 100 mls uht milk

lunch
i took 1 boiled eggs, 1 fillet of tempe ( made from soya bean ), 3 spoons of long beans stir fried. 1 5 inche cut of tapioca boiled.

Dinner
i took 1&1/2 boiled eggs, 1 fried tofu, 2 spoons of long beans

I walked for 20 mins around the neighbourhood

Please... some advice needed!

1. Take a deep breath and relax
2. Spend some time reading the stickied threads around the forum, especially in Nutrition, On Topic and Exercise.... There's a ton of good information to help you - you just have to help yourself by reading it.
3. Get an account at FitDay - Free Weight Loss and Diet Journal and accurarately record what you're eating -that means measuring portion sizes and not guessing - it looks to me lik eyour calories are too low for your size... (the stickied thread in nutrition will point you to a calculator that will give you an approximate number of calories you need a day -Less is not always better.
4. Remind yourself you didn't get to where you are overnight yuou aren't going to lose it overnight - it's not a race...

above all- ask yourself why you give up so easily - is it because you've set unreasonable expectations? your plan is too restrictive? unless you change that - you're going to repeat the same mistakes again.

Firstly, I like your avatar... cute!

I really appreciate your words. Thank you so much!

You are right. In total, it states that I only ate 600 cal today.

Sh*t! do you think thats bad?

I really dont want to overdo both ways. Eating too much or too little.

i went to the site and turned out, im already registered. I cant remember when, maybe a few years back but I manage to login.

Thank you for the link!

Too low is just as bad as too high -I'm not sure that I buy into the whole "your body holds onto fat because it's starving" -- the reality of too low calories is that its deprivation and it leads to the potential for binges... what you want is a calorie range that you can stick with for the rest of your life... and still enjoy your favorite foods (in moderation)

I would make sure that you are measuring your portions correctly - that's a trap that too m any of us fall into - we eat more than we think we do..

Mornng weght - 129.2 KG
Breakfast
i took 2 spoon ful of protein powder + 100 mls uht milk

hmm.. i checked on fitday and my calorie intake for lunch was just 323

snacks - 1 slice cheese whch seems to be 64 calories each

what I ate was

1 boiled egg
1 cup boiled carrot slices
1 curry drumstick chicken wth sauce
1 curry potatoe boiled medium

snacks - 1/2 boiled potato, 1 whole small boiled egg 50.5+68 = 118.5

my excercise today is STEP REEBOK aerobics, the only one I know. I had memorize the routine as Ive done it before almost everyday 7 years ago when I was keeping fit.

Dinner

1/2 boiled potato 50.5
1 drummette of a wing curried 58
Total = 108.5

Total intake today - 614 calories

Thats all for today! I think i ate a little better.

And lots of water!

Mornng Weight - 128.8KG

Husband bought my favourite breakfast.

2 pc of PRATA soaked in curry - yes, its fattening
Thats why I didnt eat anything else with it
Just plain water
300 calories by itself

lunch is
cracker with slce of cheese around 110 calories

17 mins of high impact cardio which supposedly burnt around 190 calories

ok, i wanted to eat this fried banana which is so famous in Malaysia. This paticular one was supposedly the best in johor bahru. It was supposedly the most famous that the sultan frequented that paticular stall just for their fried banana. And there I was, at that location for the first time after my countless visit to Johor Bahru, Malaysa.

I ended up buying RM10 worth which is 2 brown paperbag full to be shared.

The moment I tasted it, ohhh im in fried banana heaven. It was the best I have ever tasted. Not only was it so difficult to get, as I keep needing to beat the crowd. scream my order before anyone else as there was no system to order and too many people around, some even left without ordering as there were too many people. I manage to order and got that RM10 worth.

Each bite was like being in heaven and I fell of the wagon! I ate like 10 slices of the banana. I dont know how much 1 slice weight but after coming home and checking, I found out that the calorie of 65gm of it is 198!!!!

shit!! I think I ate more than 65gm, maybe around 300gm

so much calories for something that small.

For Dinner
I ate

1/2 chicken thigh with extra gravy 110 calories
1 spoonful of slice cabbage
4 table spoon of cooked rice

I think I ate around 1200 - 1500 calories today


I went overboard with food today. Thats not so good. I really need to be more diciplined if I want to continue with my journey and goal on time.

Morning weight - 128.6KG

No other breakfast avalable as I had to go out early for my drivng lessons and visit to the library afterwards.

None was open except for mcdonalds at civic centre, library was not open tll another 2 hours.

So breakfast was 500 calories of McDonalds egg mcmuffin, coffee and hashbrown

lunch
boiled vegetables 2 tablespoon or half cup around 42 calories

Excercise is 26 mins step reebok to sweat my ass off

I would have walked back from the library but its was raining quite heavily and I re reouted back to the cab stand.

Im so anxious to loose even more weight but I know I must be patient and take this at my own time so it can be a good and permanent weight loss.

Dinner
boiled vegetables 2 tablespoon or half cup 42 calories

Excercised again , walked 3 KM around my neighbourhood for 1 hour

Morning weight - 127.1KG

TOTAL LOST THIS WEEK 4.9 KG OR 10.8 lbs

Breakfast
100 mls full cream uht milk
2 spoonful protein powder

Snack
1 slice of cheese 64 calories

Lunch
1 cup full boiled vegetables
1/2 cut of fried fish

CARDIO - Step Reebok Low Impact 26 mins 291 calories burned

Snack - 1 pc cream cracker + 1 slice chesdale cheese 90 calories

Calories taken so far - 540

Walking very fast for 3 KM in 1 hour

Dinner
Fried chicken 3pc ( small cuts of chicken parts aprox 1/2 KFC parts )
1 fried chicken wing
vege boiled 64 calories
1/2 small fried fish


Total calories today - 1002

Unable to update... been really sick.

Ate some food while visiting JB in Malaysia and got sick...

Had bad diarrhoea... baby was breastfeeding and had some watery stools too. Very bad for me.

As of today, im back to normal.

I had to lay off diet for 2 days to recuperate. My baby is breastfeeding. I need to be careful of this.

So today, weight is 127.4KG, up 300gm from the last weight in

No breakfast yet and its already 11 am.

I better eat something now!

Ok, taken 1 slice of cheese - 64 Calories

Drank 100 plus from the bottle. Im having Urinary Track Infection and Ive always found that the white 100 plus helps cleanse this out. So i will be driking a lot of this.

Didnt update for quite sometime.
Was busy with life.

Anyway, convince husband to go on a diet so now we support each other. Nothing is better than working together.

Morning Weight is 126.6KG

Really made my day, I hadnt seen the number 126 on my scale for sometime now, happy to see it again and hopefully I can see 125 soon.

Morning, I cooked a soupy vermicelli, but ended up throwing out the vermicilli and ate all the vegetables and the fishballs, really tasty.


For those who wants to try

BLEND

3 cloves of garlic
2 onions
I handful of ikan bilis
1 small portion of udang kering

Stir fry the blended ingredients tll cooked

then add water till boil

add fishball

add spinach

- spring onions for garnish

Really tasty to eat by itself, with vermicelli or with rice.

Happy birthday to my husband...

Today was a big rush, woke up later than suppose to. Suppose to wake up at 5.30 am ended up waking at 6.30 am

Everything was a big rush with the kids shower and all.

Didnt manage to get a weight this morning.

We all had to go in to Malaysia again...

Had some personal rendevous done with family.

Then, went to Kampung Melayu in JB for the best Mee Bandung Muar ever. Also ordered an ABC
Easily around 900 calories altogether.

Went back to mum's place, drove around with Dad.

Took half small plate of mee siam, enough for around 4 spoons.
Probably around 150 calories

Drank 100 plus a few times.

At last came home.

Weight myself and its 125.9

Hopefully I can still manage this weight for some time.

Bought an elliptical a few days ago, started at 5 mins on first day, ten minutes on second and then I increased to 20 mins in intervals then went to 20 mins straight.

My weight is not loosing more, its at where is last was. never moved.

Probably im not eating right?

i eat more stir fried vege now compared to boiled. i actually prefer boiled as it taste and am guilt free.

my husband is loosing weight, he started and had lost 4 kg so far.

i think i need to go back to eating boiled vege.

and i will have to start that walk or somthing more.

Today I ate

fried tempe
fried tofu

stir fried with french beans, onions, chili and eggs.