I also had another epiphany (is that how you spell it?) today.

another story:

Before I got into my current career in aircraft turbine engine maintenance (I am the assistant GM for a Pratt and Whitney Turbine engine repair facility), well before this, I had my own business in graphic/web design. I burnt out on it because I seemed to be hunting down unpaid invoices more than actually creating things....and I had my precious little girl, and it was time to get a steady paycheck and insurance for her sake.

any way, even before that I was a starving artist, I have a degree in Visual Arts (studio painting and drawing).....

I havent drawn or painted in a few years....and I need to get back into it, it is the best therapy I can think of, expressive release through creativity...I long for it now.


So my epiphany is: Im going to start creating again.

I will post random things both recent and past here to entertain you all (hopefully not offend, as I was pretty full of angst in my early years).

Here's one to get the ball rolling: its titled "I crave"...figures it fits pretty well to my current situation.

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I just got back from Maiah's birthday party. She is such a princess.

They had party games like pin the tail, a pinata, twister (lol... twister...almost forgot about that game)....she had a nice Cake and she got a lot of little girly presents...It was nice. Im glad I went.

I also told Holly (my ex-wife) about my revelation yesterday. I think a lot of good will come out of this for our little girl.


I did great at the party. I had a handful of food. Carrots, celery, litlle ham and cheese slices. No cake, no dip, no crackers.

But I need to eat now.....gonna cook some fish. I also got some Hummus at the store yesterday.

Im listening to an interesting audio book while Im walking: "Conversations with God" It's definately not what I expected, (on the good side) Inspiring. Im thinking about the world a little diferent now.......And I have always been a godless person......it has to do with church or worship, I've always been skeptical of the institution and business of it, and the 'you're damned if you dont do things this way' attitude........this book just makes you think about how you percieve the world around you. intersting, and also motivationg as well.

Congratulations on the 9lbs, wow. I'm very proud of you, that is a lot to lose.
I'm stuck at my 2 but I'm very positive about it, I want this to be a permanant loss and not a yoyo change.

Glad your little one enjoyed her party.

Keep it up, you're my inspiration with those 9lb seriously.

Way to go at the party.

No cake?!?

I am SO impressed! Glad you had a good time. That's more important than the food anyway, right?

woke up a little sore this morning...just a little so thats good. But I woke up feeling better than ever, I didnt shuffle off to the coffee pot.....I actually stretched my arms up in the air and felt good!

I picked up Maiah last night, and she was suprised by the living room change....lol. She suprised me by punching the heavy bag right off the bat....go girl!!!

we were both tired so it was off to bed at 9:00, we didnt read a story cause she wanted to play with her little Barbie learning laptop she got for B-day.

Today Im going to take it easy, sunday is my free day I have decided. Im going to mow the lawn when it gets light out, and then play for the rest of the day.

I ve done pretty good so far, I just need to cram down more calories...gah!

Yesterday I was close, I consumed 2234.

I had a glass of Cabernet last night and a piece of Ghiradelli 60% cacao dark chocolate......what a treat that was! It also helped with 180 calories toward my days goal...

I think I will break out a sketchbook today, and go through my tackle box of drawing implements......

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this is a sketch I did of the great big cliff sculpture in Lucern Switzerland back in the late 90's (notice the pidgeon im the lions foot...lol)

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Well, I see another pound is gone. WOW!!! Great first week. Good luck with the rest of today, you're off to a great start. Glad that you are attaching the sketches, they are really amazing. Can't wait to see more.

Have a fun relaxing sundday, those sketches are fantastic!!!!!

Another pound down, getting closer to those 100lbs , yay!!!!!!

I'm sitting here thinking " gawd I pigged out today"....but I have only taken in 1550 calories so far.

Ive has 1/2 cantelope, yogurt, V8, coffee, 2 eggs, 1/2 banana, a power bar, cheese, crackers, grapes, rasberries, a peach, and.......a protein shake!!!! Holy cow.....

I'm experimenting with the protein shakes. mixed with 1 1/2 cups skim milk its 280 calories ( and dang if the thing aint really really good!!! )...... I thought it was going to be one of those gross nasty chalk tasting gag enducing things, but I was very pleasantly suprised....vanilla yummy. I think I will have one of these a day for a while until I get my calorie intake figured out.

I also took a big ass Fish oil pill today.......the pill aint so bad.....the burps are....ugh!

day two of the detox program is OK...it doesnt seem to be affecting my system at all....thats good. after the detox, Im going to start taking GNC Mega Man Joint packets........If this all goes well, I should be a monster in a year......hehe......."oh ya....."

I told myself it is a day of rest today....but I kinda want to work out a bit.....I probably will.

Had a great dinner.

Ribeye but only 5 oz. instead of the usual whole thing ( I even ate around the fat...whoa......)
with mixed veggies and brown rice. and a few wheat crackers for bread, and a few cherrie tomatoes. Topped off with a glass of red wine, and another of those great 60% cacao chocolates.

Todays total=2232

I'm actually happy about the amount of calories and protein. I didnt really work that hard today, and I ate more than I did for the last few days....and I took a nap with Maiah........I think I had a great rejeuvination day......good cell reconstructing.

see ya tomorrow. its Monday (gah!) and I have my parents coming to visit Tues-Fri....(well not actually visit me...They are coming to see their granddaughter...).

Glad you had such a good day. Enjoy your parents this week, but still pay attention to what you are eating.


YEA FOR US!!! We are really doing this!

Good to know you had a more successful sunday then silly ol'me.

Keep it up, ima need u for inspiration.

Just wanted to drop in hear and say your comment in my picture thread almost brought a little tear to my eye. Keep up the good work buddy, I can't even begin to put into words how your life will change.

Thanks all ! Its comforting to know the support is there.

I will watch what I eat when my parents are here...they are fully aware of my weight loss plan.....and...lol...they arent going to have a couch to sit on, since I put my weight bench in the living room....rofl.

I had a big breakfast today 619 calories.....Im testing the amounts of food to eat and how my energy level is during the day.

I walked 40 minutes this a.m.

now I gotta go wake up the little angel to get her ready for her day, then off to work.

.....talk more this afternoon.

Congrats on the weight loss so far!!

It's really amazing how much food you're allowed to eat when you make it stuff that isn't total junk, yeah? That protein drink sounds yummy, I'm gonna have to go check some out because I could use a good meal replacement. What brand did you buy?

Your sketches are absolutely fantastic. I'm an artist too, and you've inspired me to start painting again!

Great job. Keep it up!