Sooo its been way busy! I havent really had time to sit down and breathe since I am in job training and I moving in to my new apartment. But luckily things have gone well

I moved in on Tuesday and halled all my junk up to the 3rd floor and got to take a peek at my new place ( I actually hadnt seen it before ) but its super nice, my room is a little small, but still its nice. I will have 3 other roomates but they have yet to move in. So im just chilling right now haha.

Work training has been really good and all the other students I work with are all really fun and I think things will be awesome

Me--takin my picture at work training
http://i538.photobucket.com/albums/f...illas/work.jpg



I did manage to go to the grocery store and pick things up but still there was a work pizza party, as well as mexican with my parents, and some alcohol last night--but all in all I feel more in control with my food so once things get regulated Im sure everything will fall into place.

Ive also been thinking about recontacting my dietician on campus so I can get back into my recovery groove and not slip back into bad habits!


For food today I have had:
1 bowl of fiber one w/banana and soy milk: 220
1 english muffin w/peanut butter: 260
Snack:
1 small piece of dark chocolate: 45
1-100 calorie pack: 100
1 propel water: 30
lunch:
2 eggies in a basket (w/low cal bread) 250
1 apple: 80
2 tbsp soy nuts: 100
1 Coke Zero: 0
snack:
fat free protein pudding 150
Dinnerish
1 bagel w/1 tbsp peanut butter: 400
1 bowl of chili w/1% cheese: 230
snack:
protein pudding 150

Total: about 2000 ish

wus up chilla! Nice pic! I feel ya on the chocolate. That little square is a life saver. I like to buy really good chocolate. I need to find a place that sales really expensive chocolate because since I only eat a square every now and then I think I can afford to get the good stuff.

Thanks ed! I <3 Chocolate..I bet its one of my biggest downfalls lol. It was a free sample at this really cute organic food co-op today!

Suprisingly, I'm not that into chocolate... but when I get some I eat it ALL. So, I just stay away from it.

Glad to hear you're doing so well! I would definitely contact that dietician, just so you don't slip back from your progress.



Keep up the good work, missy!

Hi

I was having a read thru your diary and i had to leave a little cmment to let you know how moved i was to read it. It must be very difficult to recover from bulimia, especially if you are trying to lose weight. You must be very strong - well done! I would def see the dietician to keep on track, its prob best to have all the support that you can!

Good luck xx

Awh--Thank you so much for your comment, its touching, really It has been really hard, and I dont really ever think I will be completely broken of some of my habits, but I know that I want to get married, and have children, and live a normal life someday and my weight and body image is just something that I need to get healthy for my own well being and my future. I am on prozac right now which really helps with the urges to binge and it helps me feel better about myself so I am not so focused on my weight. But every now and then its still in the back of my mind, but I do the best I can to shake it off.

Also--I did e-mail my dietician yesterday so hopefully I will see her soon

Yay for the weekend

Yesterday was our last day of job training, so it was pretty uneventful last night. I helped my friend moved into her new aparment and then I watched a couple movies and pretty much vegged by myself and started cleaning up my mess so my roomates arent shocked when they move in lol.

I e-mailed my dietitian last night, so that gives me motivation to eat better, before I see her. Because then I know when I do see her I will be weighing in. Im pretty sure last time I left her I was around 156-158 pounds *yikes* so I made a 5 day plan going off of my food I have right now to establish 1.200-1,300 calories a day. Also next weekend I am going up to my cabin with my parents, sister, her boyfriend, and my boyfriend because my dad would liek to teach us how to drive a speed boat. This means potenial bathing suit time soooo I need to be on my best behavior :P

I am not sure what Im going to do yet, I should go bug my friend but last time I went and knocked on her door Im pretty sure she was in the shower, so I went back to my room.

But so far today I have had:
Lunch:
1 turkey sandwich w/ 1% cheese, light mayo, honey mustard: 225
Carrots and Celery Sticks: 50
1 tbs western dressing: 35 cals
cottage cheese: 90
Fruit cup: 35 cals
snack:
1 0% greek yogurt : 60
1 scoop Protein Powder: 110
1-100 cal pack dried fruit: 100
*all mixed together it was delicious
Dinner-
Chicken Breast: 110
Asparagus: 70
Brown rice: 170
16 oz propel: 20
1tbsp ketchup: 20
Canola oil: 50
Dessert-
1-100 cal pack chocolate chip cookies

So I am around 1,245

But on the downside, I weighed in today and was around 169 pounds. I switched over to my scale which tends to weigh me heavier, but I am not surprised...so 158 here I come..

Just thought id post a picture of my beautiful chilla boys--I am currently missing them because they have yet to move into my apartment with me until next week

My baby Taavi:

http://i538.photobucket.com/albums/f...Taaviolder.jpg

My baby Clover:

http://i538.photobucket.com/albums/f...veryounger.jpg


But on a different note, things went well last night, I am down abotu a half a pound this morning--and so far today I have had:


1 bowl of fiber one w/banana and soymilk: 200
30 frozen grapes: 100
1 chicken breast sandwich w/bacon (I know not that great): 450
fries: 300
2 diet cokes: 0
1 propel: 200
1 english muffin with peanut butter: 360
1/4 cup M & M's : 220
4 shots of captain Morgan: 350
2 Coke Zeros: 0
1 jello shot: 90

**not the best night, but I ended up weighing this morning and I did weigh in less than yesterday..and I technically didnt eat dinner, so its a give and take situation

Cute pics! Funny thing is my pets would eat yours...

http://i263.photobucket.com/albums/i.../4-6-08_06.jpg

This is 1 of 4.

I had that same thing today. It was very good. I had vanilla yogurt though, not greek.

Haha wowsers-- I always thought snakes are kind of fun and cute, but I am drawn to the soft fuzzy loveliness of my chinchillas and cats haha! What are their names??

I know I was impressed by how good it tasted! It is something I will definetely keep making *Yumm*

I'm coming a bit late to the party but welcome aboard!

Yeah oddly they are not as terrible as the rap they get. The actually have personalities and are quite fun!! But not to cuddle up with... thats why I also have a rot/chow mix pooch.... Boomer my little boy!

That big girl is Dixi, then we have Jake, Bella, and Sapheria! Stephen my honey is into herpetology and is planning on breeding. We are getting a baby male next spring to breed with Sapheria... when they are old enough of course!

Awhhh cute! I am planning on breeding my boys too! Im waiting til i have enough room for them and until they get closer to age--cuz they are both just around a year old still