On October 2nd, I embarked on a weight loss journey. I'm 5'8, and started out at 219 pounds. I'm so happy that I've finally seen the light and gone for it in a healthier way that I have been- not at all. It is so easy to look in the mirror and think that you're not much bigger than you were a week ago, but a few years of that and it turns out that you're much bigger in the end, and much less happy, for sure. My husband recognizes that I've gained weight. He always tells me I'm beautiful, but I know that he's worried about me. Obesity is a serious thing, and I know I have to get rid of this self-inflicted illness. I'm trying to sever the type of relationship I have with food. I have always looked to food for comfort, entertainment, pleasure, and satisfaction. Through this journey, I hope to begin recognizing why so that I can stop this behavior and change my thinking....Anyway, I've managed to cut my calories to a reasonable level without suffering and I've lost five pounds since the beginning of my journey. Yay! I'll post pictures in a couple of days, so that I can keep track of all of this.

Today has been pretty cool. School has been brutal. I failed a midterm, which really sucks. I'm afraid that this semester is going to defeat me. As far as my weight loss plan goes, I've done well today. In my water-fitness class, we played water polo, which I really got into. Plus, I biked to the store after classes were over.I got a new glasses prescription today, found out (to my extreme delight) that sugar free jello cups are five calories. I was actually happy as a lark-I've been craving sweets, ever since I've been doing this stuff. So much so, that I'd been saving 70 calories every night just to have one vanilla sandwich style cookie. Sugar free jello is a lot more satisfying, I have to say. It's not gone in one second, and I have a few more calories to spare. I also got a thing of light and fit yogurt shakes, which I love with breakfasts, and a pack of 100 calorie yogurt cups. I'm very proud of myself for staying strong, when I saw all of the baked-goods, and dough nuts that I really wanted. I'm also seeing that when you eat slower, the less you want to eat. For the past couple of days, I've been savoring every bite of every meal, and it's really made a difference. Woofing down food faster left me hungry, and unsatisfied. Making myself notice the taste and textures of different foods have helped me to appreciate what I'm taking in. Anyway, just thought I'd write in here a bit. I know that tomorrow will be a success, as well.