Well, Day 2 was a hit too! did amazing with my food. finished the day at a wonderful 1480 calories. yay! got an hours worth of cardio in too. so all in all fabulous.
Day 3 has already gotten off to a great start. I just finished 40 minutes of Pilates since I couldn't seem to fall asleep. so YAY again! I'm thinking about going for broke and going ahead and getting my weight training in for today before the kids get up. less of a chance for me to come up with an excuse not to do it.

So, in completely non-fitness news...Apparently Russia has cut off propane supplies to Europe. yeah, guess what my house uses for heat and cooking? that's right, propane. I'm hoping to get to base this weekend and snag some more propane for my tank before supplies run out. but if I can't I've got enough to last until Matt gets home if I cut corners here and there. thank god for electric space heaters I guess.
But yeah, so that's one more thing for me to stress over. thankfully when I'm stressed I tend to avoid food instead of eating tons of it. so at least I don't have to worry about over-eating. now I just have to make sure to push myself to actually eat enough.
Add to that, my father is breathing down my neck to finish the editing on his short story so he can submit it to his publisher. only problem is, with all the crap i've been dealing with the house and getting ready for Matt to come home, I haven't had TIME to do any editing. but trying to convince that man that just because I'm a stay at home mom doesn't mean I do NOTHING all day, is fucking impossible! So, instead I'm stuck with avoiding him like the damn plague. Oh, yeah, and he's decided that Matt and I need marriage counceling because Matt got jealous. yeah. Karl, you know the type of man my father is, and he has the fucking BALLS, to tell me that MY marriage is on the rocks? because Matt flipped out ONCE while he was deployed? I swear if he weren't my father, I'd kill him. but no, I'm too damn nice and forgiving, and too much of a people pleaser to do anything but smile, nod, and let him yammer on and on.
Okay, I'm done. enough bitching, I hate it when I do that kind of thing, but hey, if I can't whine, complain, rant, and bitch in my own journal, where can I?
I think it's time for my morning coffee.
ciao.

good rant! and great job today!!

Good job on day two and three so far! You're doing awesome!

You know, you're allowed to bitch in your own diary It sucks to have that stress over your shoulder. I have mine with school and it doesn't make anything any easier. I hope you don't run out of propane, man I don't know what I'd do. And no, fathers never understand and always think they're right. But, you can only do what you can. If he doesn't like it, tell him to go pay someone to do it, and see how much he likes that. That'll be expensive let me tell you.

Try not to focus on that stuff though, just focus on yourself and do what you can with the time you have.

Hey Shandy!

Youre doing great with your exercise and diet!
If I were you, Id tell your dad to edit his own damn story, but Im not you so whatever.
Id also tell him to keep his uninformed opinions to himself.

Hahaa sorry, I just cant imagine anyone being like that to you. Youre so nice.

Oh well.
Here you go.


YouTube - Bobby Mcferrin - Don't Worry, Be Happy

awww, you guys (or gals rather) rock. I normally try not to complain about my lot in life. it's something that drives me absolutely insane when other people constantly do it. so I try to avoid it if at all possible. but this was just the last straw and I needed to vent. figured this would be the place to go alittle nuts and no one would think I was being unreasonable.
and thanks for the link Kate. made me grin.

Shandy.

Thats crazy about the propane issue especially in the winter (I don't know what the weather is like in Italy tho..lol) Its a good thing stress doesn't make you want to eat.. If I were you I would have smoked like 5 packs on cigarettes by now (thats my comfort unfortunely).. And we all have to complain sometimes.. I do it a lot my journal is full of it.. but I don't like to actually talk about with people bc I know it drives me crazy when all my friends complain.. I'm like just get over it.. lol and it also looks like your doing awesome with eating and exercising!! Go you!!

Yes Shandy I do know, and I can relate. Just vent, rant whatever you need hun..

I'm here for ya babe!!

Oh Shandy! That sounds so frustrating! I know how you feel with the parent thing at least. Well, sort of. When I left my ex-husband, my mother decided she knew exactly what happened. This woman who wouldn't know a good relationship if... well... she wouldn't. Ever. She had a couple nice easy explanations that completely absolved me and had nothing to do with it really! She meant well but it was annoying.

Rant on!

Well, I just got another mile and a half of walking. this time it was from taking the trash down to the dumpsters. christmas means extra trips, so I ended up walking there and back a total of 3 times. half mile round trip, so 1 1/2 miles by the end of it. Not too shabby. especially since I live on the side of a mountain and have hills (litterally) BOTH ways. so both my calves and butt are sore from all that. ah well. it's worth the pain.

I would like nothing more than to offer a nice massage for those sore muscles of yours...

Can't reach Italy from here though...

actually, I'm one of those weird people that doesn't particularly enjoy getting a massage. I've had some really well done rub downs, just never got much out of it beyond the conversation that took place during. I just stick with some scary bending and lots of relaxing for a while, then life continues on it's merry little way. thanks for the long distance offer though.

Hey, Shandy. Let me guess, Dad never was deployed for 6 months, right? Never saw other people's relationships crumbling and got scared that might happen to him. Never had to deal with not being in control of his own destiny. Nah, he had it perfect.

Here's one for ya.

Heh, I'm one of those people that can receive a massage 24/7! If I could afford it, I'd get a full body massage every week! But I can't, so I don't...

You're a very strong girl Shandy, and I really admire you.

Trops-very true on all points, though this particular arguement wasn't that Matt reacted badly, it was that (in my father's words) if Matt and I had an open marriage, there wouldn't be a need for jealousy. He just can't seem to understand that Matt and I don't WANT other people in our relationship. I understand that some people can enjoy recreational sex with someone other than their spouse, and still be happy, Matt and I just aren't built like that. But my father is convinced that Matt's worried I'm sleeping around on him because MATT wants to sleep around on me. I swear I could kick my father in a really unpleasant place if he had the guts to say this to me face-to-face. And now, to make matters worse, he's going around telling the rest of that side of the family that Matt and I are apparently on the verge of divorce because we just aren't "happy together anymore". what a prick. But yeah, my father qualifies for scumbag of the decade (long story I don't really want to get into on here PM if you're really that curious). and he has the gall to try and tell me how my life shold be lived? He's such a fuck-up half of his family doesn't want to claim him. He's screwed over so many people that he can't live in certain towns in Arizona because they LITTERALLY ran his ass out. that's how much of a shit this man is. and it just really pisses me off that he thinks he knows EVERYTHING about EVERYONE and exactly what we all should do to make our lives as "wonderful" as his is.

I could have sworn I wasn't going to bitch about him again. oh well, apparently I needed to.

Thanks so much for the well wishes and hugs. it's nice knowing that even when I'm in a foul mood I can come on here and ya'll are around to cheer me up.

Now I'm off to go find a new avi to fit our spectacular team for the 6 week challenge.