I always decorate my diaries with weird little things. If that's not allowed, sorry, I'll take it down

So. Hmm. This is mainly going to be for me, because I'm a very liberal person when it comes to writing (but I'm often known as "the quiet girl" otherwise!). I read Stasia's journal, though, and decided I needed my own.

Hmm, to start off, I'm on my period right now. I've gained three pounds in water weight, so ignore my ticker. But today, I also started jogging. More like a half run/half walk type thing, but it's all good. I hate running, but my boyfriend does it (has been for years) and he always gets so proud of me when I do, even though he insists I'm gorgeous and don't need to lose anything and all that. He's a sweetie <3

Anyways, I also like to weigh myself a million times.

Oh! And for the grand finale of an intro, I forgot to mention, in June I plan to get my tummy pierced! I currently do ballet, and June is my recital, so after the recital I'm going to get it done provided I have the tummy for it, haha. I can't wait, I'm so excited! Oh, and tomorrow I'm starting a "diet"ish thingt to get me started on weight loss. It's a "if it didn't come from an animal or Mother Earth, don't eat it" thing. I hope it works =)

And right now, my favorite kind of excercise is uhh.. "exotic dancing" (/not really, but I'm trying). :blush: I follow the lovely gals Kindra and Rachel on their little video blog thing at vegasundressed.com. It's super fun and really is a workout, and I don't even have a pole!


Now, here's some of those silly little questions to end my journal =)

-- How much weight do you want to lose?
I don't really care... I just want to look in the mirror and SEE how good I look, not determine it by the number on the scale, but I'm obsessed with the scale anyways. I guess 115 or 120 is my ultimate goal. I weigh 148ish now, so that's about 30 pounds.

-- What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight?
I don't know how much I'll be able to lose by June, but I do hope I can get down to 125 at least. By Halloween 2009 though, I want to be my goal weight for sure-- so I have plenty of time.

-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)?
I really want a stationary bike, but don't have room for one, and it's hard to get to and from the gym, so I generally just do pilates, small weight training, running/walking/jogging, and trying to do calithenics.

-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal?
My boyfriend! And one of my friends at school-- she's started running, too. And of course all you lovely people on this forum =)

-- How realistic is your goal?
Quite realistic, I think. I'm 5'2 so I goal weight of 120 or 115 is very healthy for me.

-- When will you start?
Today! =)


I'll do more questions tomorrow. Now, I need my sleep.

Today was a nice day.


My scale (or my weight) was bipolar all day. I weighed everything from 131.5 to 148 lbs today, haha. I can't wait till I'm 130 lbs for real. I also started my eating changes. It's not that hard- I actually wanted a banana instead of cookies. I'm guessing that later, after ballet, I'm going to be craving something though.

I also got a 97 on my biology test that I was freaking out about. I took another bio test today... hope I did as well (or better) on that one.

Hmm, so nothing really else happened today. I don't feel like doing ballet because I'm on my period and feel all yucky, but I do feel like moving- and that's a big improvement already, because before I just wanted to sleep!

Hi Cheiri! That's awesome that you started a diary, I've found that it has helped me a lot. If I didn't have the forum, I'd talk everyone's ear off all the time about losing weight. By the time I hit my goal, I'd have no friends.

Congrats on your test and good luck with everything!

Aww, thank you Stasia!

So, yesterday I kept weighing myself and some of the last times I got 142. Well, I weighed myself today, and it said 143. I don't think I really lost anything though? I used to be 145 like.. a week ago, not even. I just weighed myself again, and it says 140! Okay, someone must really be screwing with me here! I certainly don't feel smaller, but... oh well, I'm not complaining.


I haven't really excercised today. Bleh. I do this all the time... I wanted to, I got ready to do it, and then decided to take a nap real quick and ended up over-sleeping and now I'm stuck doing homework and editing photos for family. Ugh.

Oh, and I really, really wanted a cookie, so I took it, took a bite, and threw the rest away in the same moment! I didn't even crave it anymore, all I waned was a taste and that way I didnt have to eat the whole cookie. I'm not proud I gave in to temptation, but I am happy I didn't eat the whole thing.

Overall, a so-so day. I discovered Lego Batman and played it as Harley Quinn (Harley is my faaavvoorriiitteee thing~! I also really love the Joker, but I think I like Harley a bit more ) but alas, it was a demo and I could only get to level one. I need to get me that game, haha.

It waws my little brother's birthday today. He turned seven. That meant pizza, chocolate cake, ice cream... ugg. Otherwise, I did really good today. Didnt "excercise" but walked a little. Played Lego Batman for most of the day (or tried to... everyone else wants to play, too =P). Nothing much to say... oh, I weighed myself and got everything from 142 lbs to 148, so... I dunno. I think this morning I was 146 so I'll go with that. Nothing Im prpud of or anything.... got a 101 on my biology test though =)

Jesus Marie, I would kill for a slice of cake right now. Om nom nom...

Especially that thick-ass buttery icing you get on crappy store-bought cakes. It makes heart attacks seem appealing.

I wish my family would eat up the rest of that cake already so I'm not tempted anymore! Haha.

Today, Im still 146/145. At least its not 148! I just can't wait to see physical differences. Ugg, I'm so impatient.

I need an elliptical machine... =/

Hi, Sweetie! Welcome to your Diary!
I am curious about how old you are, if your little brother just turned 7. I'll bet you're in your teens?

I would like to encourage you to get away from multiple daily weigh-ins. They are counterproductive, as your weight will vary due to hormones, food/drink, bathroom habits, etc. It serves absolutely no good purpose to weigh many times per day! It is only frustrating. I used to weight twice daily; now I only do it about once per week. I don't think there is a "right" way to go about it, but doing it too many x per day seems kind of OCD.

Anyway, I wish you success in reaching your weight and health goals. Be inspired by this forum.

Cheers
ABBA

Hey, thank you for your comments =)

I am 15, turning 16 in September. I know mulitple daily weigh ins are not the best idea, but I get more motivated to move if I see how much I weigh. I understand all the weight fluctuations. It does seem OCDish, but I'm not going to be anorexic or bulimic or anything. My friend was ana and now her skin has all these nasty

Today hasn't been the best day... Im just so sleepy all the time. Like not tired, just... if I lose focus on something for a moment and just put my head down or gaze off into space, I'll fall asleep. Ugg.


Happy early valentine's day <3 I can't spend most of the day with my lover because he has a track meet. Silly boy and his muscular body =P

Off to play more Lego Batman and then to do some jumprope for a while! Thanks for your support guys, I really appreciate it.

Jumprope is so frustrating! Im fine as I'm jumping, but then I trip and get angry and make a big deal of starting again. Grrr.

Im doing good as far as eating goes today. I had some orange juice (it really supresses your apetite!), a grilled cheese sandwhich (my favorite), and an english muffin today. I'm going over my friend's house later, so I won't be eating there, either. Ive been jumproping today, too, but not as much as I'd like.

<3

Not doing so well... I feel like sh*t. Ugg.

you are sooo cute =P
haha not that im that much older... im 18
i try to only weigh in, in the mornings.
i feel like you i just want to see those results!
but girl you will get there^^ just be patient =D
(even if its hard!!!!)

Haha, thank you!?

I weigh in in the mornings and sometimes when I come home from school or before I go to bed... I try to weigh in the mornings though to keep it consistant. But grrr. You're right, I just want results NOW! Haha. I'm making a picture diary and drawing in it everyday with crayons... it sounds silly, but is really fun and relaxing and it lets me process through the day without the stress of writing things down.. you just draw. Every week, Im also drawing a little scale with my weight on it too, to try and motivate me more. My grandparents (both sides) are coming down to visit me, mother's side in May and dad's side in June. I really, really want to be smalled by May, and toned enough by June to get that tummy piercing! Grrr. I wish I wasn't so lazy and impatient.

Thanks for commenting, by the way xD And if anyone has an AIM and wants to talk sometime, lemme know and I'll send you a chat

i told my grandma about a month ago that i was finally going to lose the weight...
it was on the phone but she sounded sooo excited and happy for me.
i would love to be able to go shopping with my grandma and sister and actually enjoy it,
and not feel like the chubby ugly unhappy one D:


mmm my moms mother is very slim... and acts like she is perfect...
i havent seen her since i was your age... and i was still at the beginning
of gaining weight... i would die if i saw her now...
i can just imagine her judging me in her petite size 2 clothing >_<


oooh and piercings! omgosh i want my belly button done!
and my tongue ^_~ although my boyfriend recently told me hes not into
tongue rings... soo that kinda put out my flame... but he said i should do it
if it makes me happy... sooo idk
and i was also thinking about tattoos as well... when i hit my goal ^^
i want stars on my shoulder... maybe... its really pretty i think...
haha i still have months to decide.

and your picture diary sounds great... but i dont think i have the patience
to draw... hehehe

wooh sorry for the rambling^^

Oh trust me, I like rambling, haha.

All of my grandparents are fat... but I know my dad's mother judges me anyways. She's just like that.

I just found out that my Mom's mom is coming down in May, and my Dad's parents are coming down to visit in June! I really want to get slimmer by May, and be ready for my piercing in June. Ohmygosh. All I've done today is eat ice cream.... and I saw the number 149 on my scale. I NEVER WANT TO SEE THAT NUMBER AGAIN. It's the highest I've ever seen!

Oh god... I just... I can't start. That's my problem. I need to, though. I'm considering carving "DO IT NOW" into my flesh, haha, if I need to!

Ooo, tattoos! I love tattoos, by my boyfriend is turned off by them, so... He really loves the idea of me getting my tummy pierced (he thinks I should do it now!). My friend pierced her own tongue a few times... but recently accidentally swallowed her tongue ring, lmao. I think it looks cute on other people, but my boyfriend doesn't want me to have one, and I don't really want one either. Don't get the idea that my boy's in control or anything, I just want to please him, haha... I'm quite the dominant one!

Sooo... tomorrow, I'm starting. For real.