To Cord - That would TASTE 100% better too! Well apart from the fact that I don't care for turkey much. I usually do get whole wheat bread, but we're out. And if you taking stuff off your burger and eating it separately makes you weird, then I'm a complete wacko lol. Everything I eat has to either be separate, or very simple. For instance I eat my hotdogs completely plain, my burgers with only cheese, cake with no frosting, subs with only ham and cheese, I hate nearly all condiments, I hate all salad dressing, I'd rather eat animal crackers and vanilla wafers (lets face it, they aren't exactly filled with flavor) than any other junk food, I eat each part of a smore separate, and the list just goes on... and on.... and on! Hahaha. You'd think my picky eating would mean I'd be thinner, but we all know that's not the case

To RunningGirl - Hehe, I'd never purposely starve, I try to at LEAST get over 1500 calories, and I aim for 1700, and a little more if I exercise a lot. It just seems that when I concentrate on what I put in my mouth, I get full sooooo much faster. Strange how when you eat better, you struggle more to meet your calorie goal, isn't it? That never ceases to amaze me.. but anyway, I plan to bring plenty of my own food next time I go and hope that that'll be enough to keep the cravings away. Remembering how guilty I felt last time should definitely keep me away from the Coca-cola. Hope you're having a good day

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I didn't really focus much on exercise or diet today. I spent the entire day (the ENTIRE day!!) on the phone comforting my best friend who just broke up with her boyfriend. Saying she was devestated is an understatement. I'm positive they'll get back together sooner or later, but Im not getting into details It was raining and cold all day today, so I didn't want to go outside to exercise, and I doubt I would have had the time to anyway! I did manage to clear a spot in my room for a half hour of Dance Dance Revolution on level Difficult (it's a video game where you have to dance on a pad, for those who have been living under a rock hehe) I might be able to get away with another half hour or so later tonight, if I don't cause too much noise.

Diet was a bit of a struggle today. I ran out of water (I REFUSE to drink from the faucet. Absolutely refuse.) which is (obviously) a big problem. The only beverage I drank today was chocolate milk, so yea.. there isn't going to be a problem with reaching my calorie goal today!


What I ate:

Breakfast - Grilled chicken breast, small glass of chocolate milk, my very last vitamin

Snack - Last two strawberries (I hope to go food shopping tomorrow if I can get the money), small glass of chocolate milk

Lunch - Ring Bologna Sandwhich, small glass of chocolate milk, very small piece of cheddar cheese

Snack - Small glass of cholate milk (Like I said, lots of milk today :P)

Dinner - A 350 cal microwavable pasta dinner thing (I say "thing" because it certainly wasn't food! Ick) A small glass of chocolate milk

Later tonight - Rest of blackberries (About a cup)


Clearly, not so good. I KNOW I ate something else between Lunch and Dinner, but I forgot to write it down and have forgotten what it was. In any case, I went over 2000 calories today, and most of it was in chocolate milk. Eek, shows you how much I was paying attention. But as you know, I was very much distracted.

Excuses, excuses.

But I don't want anyone to think I'm slacking, I'm just as motivated and serious about this as ever. And I am NOT a quitter. I'll be seeing this through until I reach my goals, and even then I'll be keeping it up. There's just been some obstacles getting in the way these last few days and I need to plow through them And I will.


I noticed that I say "Day" and "Today" a lot in my diary.. it's beginning to annoy me

Hey,

Drinking milk when you're out of water (and I don't drink tap water either - I'm on a well) is a heck of a lot better than drinking, say, Coke.

The milk is giving you something other than just sugar. There's calcium, protein, fat - if you have to replace your water with something, you could do a lot worse than milk - even chocolate milk

Microwave meals - they can come in handy for when you are desperate or in a hurry. I bought a few Stouffer's Lean Cuisine Salmon with Whole Wheat Orzo, and they are not bad at all. I also hear the Weight Watchers ones are good, but I've never tried one. Microwave meals aren't usually my thing.

Obstacles happen. If there were never any obstacles and everything was always easy, where would be the fun in that?

Today went alright, nothing spectacular ^-^ Didn't manage to go shopping, but tomorrow I should be able to (or so I'm told) I'll have to write a list tonight and hope that my mom and stepdad wont leave without me again, or if they do that they'll at least take my list with them this time!

What I ate:

Breakfast - Bowl of Oatmeal with apples + cinnomon, glass of chocolate milk
Snack - 1 Apple, 15 animal crackers, glass of chocolate milk
Lunch - Microwavable Dinner (this one was a little better than yesterdays
lol) Glass of Chocolate Milk
Snack - 8 animal crackers (the last of them *sigh*) 2 graham crackers
Glass of Chocolate milk, last apple
Dinner - Last Oatmeal packet (apples and cinnomon), 1 leftover corn on
the cob, last glass of chocolate milk
Snack - 1 orange
Later tonight - whatever small meal I can whip up.

As you can see, now I'm just eating whatever is left lol! Yep, definitely time for some shopping, I'd say. And now I'm out of chocolate milk too. Wow. Talk about waiting till the last minute to restock the fridge!


Exercise I did:

- 40 minute power-walk, only hit 1 big hill
- 5 times up and down the stairs at the park

Not too bad. Didn't get the hour I wanted, but it sure felt like it had been an hour after I was done o.O

I don't have my food log for yesterday because I can't find it It's in a blue notebook that is *somewhere* in my room.. could quite possibly be in the black hole under my bed, but I'm not about to venture under there and look for it, as I may never come back out. I did do exercise yesterday though I would say a good 2 hours playing DDR, switching between levels Difficult and Basic. If that isn't a good cardio workout, I don't know what is. My diet went well yesterday, apart from the nasty fried chicken I ate for breakfast from this crazy restaurant I won't be ordering from again o.O I had 3.5 bottles of water, which is awesome for me!

Today hasn't gone as good. I've had too many lazy days this week, so I need to step it up. Thursday is coming pretty quick and I haven't the slightest clue how my weigh in will go. I may sneak a peek at the scale tonight to see if I've gained anything. As long as I don't gain, I'll be happy. Then again, if I do gain, it would be a great incentive to get my butt in gear. I really don't want to be backtracking so early in my journey. That wouldn't be any fun at all!

I'm not going to list out the things I've eaten today because I'm embarrassed but let's just say I've only had 1 half-finished bottled water, 3 glasses of chocolate milk, 1 brownie, homemade pizza, and way too many Vanilla wafers.

It's hard for me to admit it, but I guess I'm struggling a little. My biggest issue is that it is very hard for me to resist temptation when I'm completely surrounded by it and when I have no other options!

I hate hate to complain and sound whiney, but I gave my mom my grocery list again in case she went shopping while I was sleeping, (she did of course, though I doubt it'd matter if I went or not) and she came back with Vanilla Wafers and Bananas for me. As if I could live off of those two things *sigh* I had to dig for change around the house to go buy water because my stepdad refused to give me any money for it. Seriously, am I the only one here that has to put up with junk-consuming psycho relatives? Sometimes I feel like I am!

But anywho, I guess the only way I'm going to solve this problem is to get a job. I probably should be getting one anyway, but that's easier said than done.

One thing I've got going for me: Both my mom and stepdad are truckers at the moment, and thus are gone for weeks or months at a time. When they are gone, I get total control over the paychecks and bank account. (No one in their right mind would trust my sister with money, lol!) So THEN I'll have total control over what food goes in the house, and I tell you what, it's going to be a complete 180* from what is here now!

Until then, I suppose I just have to deal with what I've got.

Now that I'm done ranting about my measly problems, I've gathered a ton of simply lovely before photos for all of you to see! And as soon as I figure out the best way to post them all, they'll be on here! Aren't you excited?! (I know I'm not!)

So here are my befores. I tried to find recent ones, and I was pretty successful at it.

Before the befores though, I want to talk about a few things.

First off, I'm 5'10". I love how tall I am, it's my second favorite feature (after my legs) That said, being 30 pounds overweight on me doesn't look the same as on someone who's, say, 5'2." Therefor, weight I gain or lose doesn't affect my appearance as much. I don't LOOK much different at 175lbs than I do now at 195lbs (or at 200lbs for that matter) but I FEEL sooooooo much worse. Plus, I just wanted to make sure people didn't think my goal was too unrealistic ^-^ Because of that, I've include a picture of myself from a little over 3 years ago at around 150-155lbs. I'm aiming for 160, so now you can kind of see what my goal is visually. (Yes I know, I have no curves. Never have. At least I don't have to worry about losing them right? lol!!)

Secondly, I gain all of my weight on my face and my love handles. (lol, I don't know what they are technically called, so I call em love handles!) It's like my stomach grows sideways, it's rather funny but sucks when I'm looking for clothes. So if I lose my stomach and face fat first, then I might be satisfied before I reach my 160lb goal. It all depends on how I feel as I go.

In the before photos, I'm a size 14 jean (US sizes) and in my goal photo I was a size 8-9 jean. It's hard for me to believe looking at these photos that I'm practically double the size now, but it's the truth. If I find a better set of before photos, I'll post them. But I'm pretty sure all of these combined will give you a good understanding of what I look like


Oh and question. Should I post these on the before/after/inbetween section too? Or should I wait until I get "inbetween" shots? Just wondering!

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Hello Kat

Must be nice to have total control over the parental's account....
How old is your sister?

Mmm Chocolate Milk Took me awhile to drop juice. Mmmm Juice

WoW Graduated last year! Awesome!

Love Handles: *Obliques* <<< one of my biggest problems...

Hope you are well.

Lata

Oooh juice is good too Yes, its very nice to have control over the parental's account, just not so nice that I get to be the one to pay the bills too :P My sister is 20, will be turning 21 in September. I also have an older brother but he's been out of the house with his own family for years now.

Okaaaay. Mini vacation from weightloss is over, lol. Back to recording what I eat everyday and stop sitting on my butt. I've been kind of stressed recently and because of that I haven't been as diligent with what I'm putting into my mouth. I won't get into details, but just know that I have no respect for my stepdad (never have, never will) and he has absolutely none for me. (Or anyone for that matter!)

Anywho. As soon as I can sneak in the 'rents room (where the scale is atm) I'll do my weigh in. I haven't a clue how it'll turn out, but I seriously doubt I lost a single ounce. Today I've been trying to save what's left of a pretty horrible week diet and exercise wise. I made boiled eggs earlier and have been noshing on those all day. I'm tempted to take a picture of what's left in my fridge so you'll understand why I'm just eating eggs, lol!

I'm in one of those weird ranting moods right now where I sound unhappy and angry, but I really am not. I'm in a really good mood, it's just that I'm a little overwhelmed. And of course, a little upset that I sort of fell off the wagon this week.

The positives are, I've been drinking a ton of water these last couple days, I haven't been hit with any nasty cravings, I've been trying my best to eat the semi-better things that we've got, and I did manage to get my room half way clean too! Perhaps I'll be able to see the floor by next week!

I'm looking forward to when my mom and the thing she's married to go off to work again. They are currently "unemployed" but we're 80% sure they've got a job lined up that will mean them being away until Mid-August. They'll be missing my birthday (July 31st, I'm going to be 19! Whoohoo!) but it's so worth it, I need a break lol. *Plots to go to the Casino for birthday*

If I spend money wisely over the next month and try to save a few dollars here and there, I might be able to invest in some sort of gym membership once the 'rents leave. (IF they leave, they've been here since late March! Ugh) This is doubtful, but I can dream! In any case, I'm transforming this house into my own personal weight loss center. Just you wait

Ello love. You have wonderful diary going here. Thank you for stopping by mine!

lol @ your room, I know the feeling!! Fifteen trash bags out and I feel like I still have at least a day's worth of cleaning to do. (I was worried something would actually be GROWING under the bed.)

Keep up the great work, I know you can do it!!

PS: I understand the evil stepdad situation. My mom married an idiot a while back and he was the meanest most selfish person I've ever met. Message me if you'd like to rant.

Casey

THURSDAY WEIGH IN RESULTS! - WEEK 2!

*Drum roll*

STARTING WEIGHT: 200 pounds

LAST WEIGH IN WEIGHT: 195 pounds

CURRENT WEIGHT: 192 pounds

I have no idea how I lost 3 pounds this week. These last couple of days have been dreadful, but that's what the scale tells me. Craziness, I say! That's 8 pounds in 2 weeks! I expected to lose that in a month! Whoohooo!!!!!





To add on to this great news with even more great news: Mom and Paul went shopping today and ACTUALLY FOLLOWED MY LIST!

I woke up at 9 p.m. today (yea I know) to water, grapes, strawberries, lettuce, all sorts of great stuff in the fridge. I could not believe my eyes. When I asked mom what was up, she said she weighed herself today too and she has lost 20 (yes, 20!) pounds in the last month and didn't even realize it! She said she figured I was on to something, lol. Deeerrrrrr..

More good news: They're leaving next week, 99% sure now. They'll be heading to Texas and traveling back and forth from there to North Dakota. So if you see ginormous trailers (about 3 times the size of a semi) hauling huge sections of windmills, wave because it's probably them. Lol. But dont get in their way, because they will run you over and they will win. I have 5 semi truck drivers in my immediate family so I know, lol

Yup so I'm really excited today about my weight loss. It was a total shock.
I'm back to writing everything down again today. Journaling your food intake is VERY effective at stopping you from eating everything in sight. You wouldn't think it would make much difference, but it does.


Right now I'm on this weird schedule where I'm waking up late in the evening and going to bed early in the afternoon. I sleep 12+ hours everyday so I have the craziest sleeping schedules. One week I'm awake during the day, the next week I'm awake during the night. Just letting you know that just in case you might be wondering why I have steak for breakfast sometimes or cereal for dinner or vice versa. Haha.


Hope everyone else is doing well! Let me know

What's wrong with steak for breakfast?

Excellent work, Sunshine! And it sounds like things are turning out well for you in all kinds of ways!

To Cord: I actually kind of enjoy waking up right before Dinner time. I get a nice big breakfast without having to cook or wait! Now if only I could get someone to serve it to me in bed..


Today's Food Log:

Breakfast - 1 bowl of Frosted Flakes with Whole milk (yea I know), water
Snack - A smallish bunch of Green Grapes, water
Lunch - Salad with grilled chicken breast, romaine lettuce, iceburg lettuce,
and teeny bit of parm. cheese, water
Snack - 1 sugar free 20 cal jello cup, water
Dinner - 2 waffles with a smidge of maple syrup (filled about a third of the
squares on each one) Small glass of caffeine free diet Twist Up
Dessert - 4 medium sized strawberries, 1 piece of 100% whole wheat bread
with thin layer of peanut butter, water

Not too shabby, eh?

I'm not worried about the cup of soda I drank at all. (Twist Up is a cheapie version of 7-up or Sierra Mist or Sprite or something, btw) It wasn't anywhere close to being coke, so I'm not really concerned about having a glass here and there. No more than one a day though, that's my limit I think. I want to make sure I continue to drink straight-up water.

I couldn't really help the whole milk thing. Thats what my stepdad likes and he drinks it like a fish (if fish drank milk, that is) So I figure a little in my cereal every now and then won't hurt much either. Plus no chocolate milk today

I haven't calculated my calories out yet, but I'm confident it's about right where I want to be. I plan to be up as long as I can manage today so I can start sleeping when I'm supposed to sooner rather than later. Because of that I'll be having another "meal" later. It'll probably be a larger one depending on what my calorie intake is so far I'll update you later on


No exercise yet. It's been dark the entire time I've been awake. I don't go outside in the dark, too many wild animals. We just recently had some bears living under a bridge by our house, a mama bear and her cubs. (SO cute!) I'm more scared of the wolves than the bears though.. and even more frightened by the creepy neighbors than anything But anyway, I'm blabbing again. My point is: I haven't exercised yet, but will be soon. I'll let you know about that later too

So far, today has been pretty successful. That means for Week 3: 1 day down, 6 more to go! Aiming for 2lbs this week!



EDIT: The 'rents are officially gone. They got called in early. Now I'll have to adjust to them being gone again o.O They'll be back August ish and so I am now on my own! That means no more excuses I had one of those single cups of easy mac and cheese for a late meal today, and some more water. That puts me a little under my calorie goal, but since I didn't exercise really (except hauling luggage out to the car) then I should be fine.

False alarm! Lol. The parents left but are coming back today *sigh* But they are leaving Tuesday again. They just didn't want to sit around a hotel room until then, so they're coming back home. I don't blame them.

Today (or should I say tonight?...) has gone well so far. Well not that well, but well enough. I'm just about to play some DDR for exercise and depending on how tired I am later this morning, I may go for a fast paced walk and hit some hills.

Here's what I've eaten..

Breakfast - Large Banana, Water, vitamin
Snack - A small salad with Baked Chicken Breast, Romaine + Iceburg lettuce, bit of Parm. Cheese
Lunch - Bowl of Frosted Flakes with whole milk, water
Snack - Grapes, water
Dinner - Second bowl of frosted flakes, glass of Diet Caffeine-free Twist Up
Dessert - THIRD bowl of Frosted flakes (I had a serious cereal craving today, it was crazy. But I figured I could use the calories)

I didn't drink nearly as much water as I wanted, but within the next couple hours I'm going to be drinking it like a fish. (Dancing makes you thirsty! lol) I'll be having another small meal later, as it is only 6am right now. I'll keep you posted.

I'd say something about the frosted flakes, but I ate 3 bowls of froot loops t'other day...

Hahahaha yea, theres just something about cereal that you cant just have one bowl. And Frosted Flakes is my second favorite kind! (After Rice Crispies )