loooooooove your new diary name!!! This will be great for you i think!!!!


Heres to a fresh start, happy trails, and lots of success!!!

How'd weigh in go today??

So ha ha ha!I decided not to do the cleanse...I'm just gonna cold turkey all the bad stuff go as raw as I can just fruits and veg salads proteins etc...no processed crack or as little as possible.on the plus side I really am liking water with lemon juice and a little bit of splenda yum!so from here I'm gonna make smart choices and treat my body like a temple not a garbage can.currently I'm working on kicking my pop addiction...lol none yet today!

I weighted in at 241.6 this morning WOW...I was however braced for 245 so I guess that isnt so baaaad BUT WOW...I gotta get my shit together here!!!

Ive come to the conclusion that I am unhappy...Am I too young for a mid lige crisis?LOL...Corey and I talked abt what his mid life crisis would be, I believe it was him leaving me for his ex wie, IDIOT, LOL...John is being a putz again...*SIGH*

I am 31 years old and for pretty much most of my girls lives I have raised them alone...Im at the point where I think meeting someone and wanting someone in my life is imprtant to me but I cant love myself enough to put myself out there and find someone

Ive also come to the realization that the men who have been in my life I have allowed to use me and treat me as they didBut how do you get past that?

I dont understand wny I cant love myself

Im very unhappy at the moment and Im unsure how to fix it.Im hoping once I make exercise adn every day part of my life agian that I will get become less troubled and stressed and more happier...

Eating today was good...

60 oz of water, i was prring all day havent had water in prob over a month only drinking pop and slushies...Ive been letting loose lately...

Menu

salmon with 1 1/2 cups of corn

hamburger
salad lots of salad my body was prob in shock I fed it some nutrients, lol

No exercising today but def tomorrow, restarting p90x!!!

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My goal on eating front, keep it clean and real back to basics, no fast food or junkl food or sugar...like candy and such I mean....pop etc...

so i went on a 45 min walk this morning...it was im guessing abt 2.5 miles a route i use to walk lots before...i need to buy a new pedometer as im anal that way lol.I had to push myself to go on teh walk but im glad i did it was beautiful adn felt grreat. i will post from pics later on.

Im gonna restart p90x today!!!and im hoping to get to the courts with the girls...

I can do this...I want this...I need this...I DESERVE THIS!!No pop yesturday or junk food or fast food...i ate protein and vegand drank lots of water!

hun you are doing great!!! Way to go cutting out the sweets! I know my weakness was cutting out the salt... so i know its tough but you can do it and are doing it right now!!!!!

I miss you on my page... its lonely and cold over there these days.....


Congrats on weighing in less than you anticipated!!!! thats always a nice surprise! I suggest getting a ticker set up... its so fun to update it when things go down... its nice to track the progress... because lets face it.... we need any little bit of hope and good vibes we can get!!!!

good job girl! Im proud of you!

Thanx Sweeetie

Weight yesturday was 241.6
Weight today 239.0

Eating so far from midnight to midnight

sunny boy
slimfast
silohet yoguart
salmon
soup (Hamburger)
can of beans with cheese

I had a good eating day today...drank my water, meditated, meditating felt so good, maybe that is what i have been missing...it totally relaxed me and soothed me...did p90x and it practically killed me...took my vitaminsDidnt get to the courts but Taneesha was bagged from daycare and kaylea was busy and two hrs of wiope out was on from 8 - 10 HA HA HA...but we plan on playing thursday evening...

YOU HAD A GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRREAT day yesterday!!!! Keep up the good work woman!!!! you are going great... and CONGRATS ON THE LOSS!!!!!

Hey girl.. thats totally sweet on your weigh in being less then you thought it would. I weighed myself this mornning and so far i've lost a lb. i am now weighing in at 241 so only a few lbs behind you.. lol we both gotta get our asses in gear. i wanna be 225 by the time Cameron turns a year old. so that gives me 4 months 17 days before he turns 1 so that means losing at least .8 lbs a week but i am aiming for at least a 1-2 lbs a week. If i lose 2 lbs a week that puts me at losing like 40 lbs which would put me at like 200-205 lbs by the time cam turns one which would be great. Are you aiming for a certain amount of weight loss by the end of the year or anything? i can't remember if we had talked about it before. anyways.. got tons of stuff to do including 3 assignments for school by friday.. lol i hate homework.

Thanx gals...

so i had horrible shin splints this morning during my walkyesturday i didntSo i dunno what is up with that...i had my herbal thyroid meds yest morn and took my vits first thing and i also had sunny boy plus slim fast so maybe i will try that again tomorrow...the herbal thyroid meds help me with energy i really should go to the doc...

will meditate when i go to bed and i took my vits even tho late, lol...i will record my food later on tonight...i went on my walk..will do p90 later on and possible tennis the girls and i talked abt it gotta see what taneesha's energy level is at...we are having an exhausting time getting back into teh swing of things...we all had two weeks off from work, schoool and daycare...

No p90 or tennis too freaking bagged!!!

I didnt get to bed till after 1pm and then woke up sartled at 5pm and had to go rushing to daycare...I dont know if i forgot to set the alarm or if i slept through it but boy i was surprized when i woke up and looked at the clock...

Way to exhausted for any exercise ditto to taneesha...we are gonna try to maike an effort to get to the courts i miss tennis but it has been so stinking hot too...

Menu...

slim fast shake
cantalope

2 soft boiled eggs

2 pieces of bbq chicken
salad

Water dunno at least a liter prob two...

I really wanted a cheese burger from some fast food joint nad i really wanted a pop....wow i was drooling for a pop but i stuck to my lemon water...I know once i cave and have a burger or have a pop that will open the gate adn i want it to stay closed!


OH Weight

Weight yesturday 241.6
Weight today 239.0
Weight Thurs 238.8

Hi Relly, I havent been in for awhile, been kind of busy with life. You sound like you have turned it around the last couple of days, GOOD FOR YOU. Self affirmations and meditation is great, I think positive thoughts feed more positive thoughts the same as negative will feed on the negative. Sometimes we have to force ourselves to get mentally into the game. Not easy I know.

Keep up the great work...dont burn yourself out by doing too much too soon...k

hugz
me

Hey girly.. I can't believe either of us has the time to work out let alone post in our diaries.. lol anyways.. keep up the good work and text me when you have time or feel like chatting. the boys are driving me crazy as usual. anyways i'm going to dye my hair and try to get the laundry done while the kids watch movies on tv. i'm going to exercise later tonight once they go to bed since i can't do it while they are up since alex takes over the tv. lol