hi oh flirty one!!
lovely talented & pervy??? oh you are soooooo full of it but i like ya!!
am i talented b/c i'm pervy??? hahaha..............

don't be so hard on yourself we all want to be loved & cared for which means that when it comes to r/ships we often don't have our best rational heads on.

love yourself, respect yourself & don't take any crap from those who would try & put you down...once YOU KNOW what you will & won't accept & what you feel you deserve from men...r/ships & others in general don't waver!! ppl will treat you whether they are consciously aware of it or not pretty much how you treat yourself. YOU deserve to be treated as you want to be treated accept nothing less!!! as for long term r/ships can't help you there (i'm very fickle LOL) BUT one thing i have come to know is that most r/ships fail b/c we put too much expectations on them & the ppl in them. most r/ships are meant to fail (sorry thats not meant to sound so neg!!) what i mean is...most of our r/ships are temporary as are those partners...just here for that specific time in our lives...if all r/ships worked out they wouldn't be so special would they?? just trying each other on/seeing how we fit etc. problems arise when we try to make that person THE ONE with every new r/ship!! (that probably made more sense in my head than when typed out!!)

anyhoo.......

i prescribe a daily dose of positive affirmations for both you & yourself


I Accept
my Uniqueness
There is no competition and no comparison, for we are all different and meant to be that way.
I am special and wonderful.
I love myself.



Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.
Oscar Wilde


Being yourself is celebrating you, as an individual - learning to express yourself and be happy with who you are. For some people, it's learning to love yourself, for others, it's not hiding who you are or changing things about you to fit in. remember YOU are the star of your own life!!! how cool is that??

know, understand, and accept yourself. Work on accepting mistakes and choices you've made; they're done and in the past, move on/begin again & again...& again if need be...& eventually YOU will find SOMEBODY WORTHY OF YOU i promise!!!

I don't think I could have said it better.

Believe me, Cinderelly, a lot of people also feel the way you feel. How can you possibly love another when you don't love yourself? And it becomes easy to let other people treat you like trash when you think, "heck, I'm trash."

My best advice is to realize that you*are* doing something good for yourself. You ARE making a change for the better, and with this road to a new you, think positive on the whole! You *are* worth it. And t just takes time for that special someone to come into your life and sweep you off your feet- when the time is right you will meet someone. But pls. don't be afraid to put yourself out there. Live life to its fullest b/c it is short!

Thanx gals actually I have a coffee date Set up for tomorrow but my parents might be in town.this guy is from eharmony.we have been talking for a week through email.he likes me finds me interesting loves my honesty...loves kids is active yadda yadda yadda.so we will see what happens.I'm totally self conscious but w/e.I'm also not really interested in anything so it is just a meeting face to face.

There you go my friend! We are two peas in a pod on here huh? Always trying hard but never getting past the damn plateaus. Maybe our new diet will work? hehe We WILL find something that works TOGETHER. You GO GIRL!

hey girly.. i think we are onto something here with our weight going in the right direction.. maybe the cutting out pop/soda is what we needed to do.. lol man i'm i dreading not having it though during the week when i am home with the boys by myself during the day. it hasn't been that bad today though cause i think the working out provides me with something that soda doesn't.. haha anyways.. hope to talk to you soon.

Good luck with the "meeting"! I'm sure you will have fun whether something comes out of it or not, it's great that you are getting out!

Oooh sorry only had time to catch up now. Try not to be so hard on yourself, there are a lot of jerk off men out there too and they make us women feel like shit with the way they treat us. Men will jump in and make promises and then when they get you hooked they run for the hills (like Corey)..a real favorite of many males..and from their behavior you start to get down on yourself. So its not all you girl, but you must fight back and tell yourself you are a nice sweet hardworking girl and a dedicated mommy. Those are good things not bad..remember that. Dont let these losers get you down!

have a good time hun!!! You derserve a night out of adult conversation and relaxing over a good cup of coffee!!! Besides... everyone could use a good friend!! If nothing else becomes of it... maybe you two will be come good buds... or maybe more! time will tell. Regardless... people grow and develop through events and people they meet in their lives.......


have a wonderful time!!! do tell about it!!!

I agree with some of this but not all of it...I dont believe that relationships arent meant to be temp as then there wouldnt be anyone who would be together or happy or happily married and etc...however i loved loved loved the uniquiness stuffFor me it is loving myself and believing and knowing i deserve the best...i accept and love who i am as a person i just cant get past my weight

I fdo however believe that ppl enter our lives for reasons seasons and lifetimes...maybe corey was supposta show me that I can be accepted for who and what I am and that I am beautiful and worthy enough to date and that I do have what it takes to put myself out there...i dont beleive corey was out to hurt me but he didnt handle the situtation very well and he lost out right...

I also wasnt trying to make him the one it was a feeling i had...lol...obviously a wrong one!

Mornin' finally got a minute to at least drop in for a few drive bys today.

Cerella, I think the idea of going out for coffee is a good one, especially if you go into it with the attitude that you want to get out for a nice time and some adult conversation/friendship before anything else.

BTW, I really like what I'm reading above with so many of the staements written here.

Hugs and kisses XOXO

So we didnt meet today just wasnt in the cards, my parents came over for the day and he had friends he was meetign up with in the afternoon tha the hadnt seen in yrs, i told him not to worry and to enjoy his friends...

He sent me another email this evenning...it was very sweet.He said he was sorry we didnt get to meet up today but guesses it wasnt meant to be this time cuz we were both busy but that he hopes we can meet up soon. He said he has a positive feelign about me/us,lol,and he is excited to meet me...

What is cool with him is that he suggested he meet up adn do the grouse grind together, lol...the grouse grind is an uphill mountain stair case...grouse is a mountain here and the grind is hiking trails of stairs that goes up mountain...LOL

I think it is cool he suggested it but I reccommended we meet for coffee first or a local walk, LOL...

Grouse Grind

Grouse Grind hike at Grouse Mountain, North Vancouver | Vancouver Trails

I love that he is activeit would be a nice experience to have an active relationship my ex never did nothing it really bugged me...Im usually a get up and go person...LOL

Ive been pretty focused on my diet...food has been pretty good, i have been indulging a bit which ok but i gotta nip it in the butt!

Just a lil recap...

Friday O did good but had a large orange julious felt i need somethign and then i had a medium frosty...430 cals laterbut it was yummy, the lil one and i got a frosty and ate it as we bathed the car in the car wash, lol...

Saturday I was pretty good, had a chicken /brie burger with the bun and a side salad and for dinner i had like 3 cups of salada and 2 small chicken breasts...cpl handfuls of miss vickies salt and malt vinager (you should have heard me belchin out those carbs man, LOL)

Sunday

A few not so smart choices (paid for them too) a small icecream sandwich, a can of diet sprite (yes it was pop but i got diet with no sugar or caffine) 1/2 a potate with dinner and 1.5 homemade sweet bisquets for desert with strawberries...

Im just touching on my bad moments

Monday i was good all day but caved at dinner and had 3 pieces of pep pizza and then 4 pieces of crazy bread and the last two pieces before coming to work...but it was good and i enjoyed it and im not beating myself up...

Clean slate tomorrow...

Still havent gotten my shit fully together on the exercise...working on it...Big part of the problem is my messy place it is so disorganized and messy from beign away for so long coming home dropping everyhtign and going right back to work, it was a long exhausting week restarting my nights after 2 weeks off

we are all works in progress...

nice to see you in my place relly

hugz

what in the world are sweet biscuts?!!??! cinnamon buns???


sounds delish eiether way!!! hehe. everyone needs a snack now and then dont get too obsessed with that.... as you go along your body will end u p only craving GOOD things most days..... but you will occasionally just need a large frosty or a big piece of cheesecake... and thats ok too hehe.


damn girl! Why couldnt you live closer to me??? we'd be doing that dang stair climb till the cows come home together hehehe